silvervi

silvervi Oct 3

I keep judging people based on how they look. Including myself.

It's not me. It's a pattern in my brain.

This is for awareness reasons. I want to change what has been my "normal thinking". I have not consciously chosen to perceive the world in this way. I think I miss out on many things by having such a superficial perspective. I need to dig deeper why I am doing this and how it might be good for self-preservation. Feel free to confess in the comments if you're doing the same thing.

#superficialthinking #thinkingpattern #suffering #changingperspective #awareness #judgement #looks #confession1

silvervi Oct 1

Self-observation

Hah
As I am understanding myself more and more
I am watching

My suffering,
Wanting to grasp its core.

Tons of shame and of blame.

My little self somewhere underneath
Trying to breath.

Every day when it's time to meditate
I allow my pain to rise.

Every time I'm hoping to arrive
At some deep new revelation.

But it looks as though
There is no final destination.

Looking at how I'm looking at myself.
Am I wasting my time?
There's nothing to see
Apart from Me and Me and Me.

Self-loathing, then holding myself close.
Because I remember to breath and to pause.
Because I remember about compassion.
But still, this process is much work.

I wish things were easier, lighter,
I wish I'd knew what I want to fight for,
I wish I'd understood my relationships better,
I wish I wouldn't blame myself for everything including weather...

I wish. I wish. I wish.

The hardest part is to let go,
Whatever that means.
It's as unsatisfying
As this poem's ending.

It's kind of frustrating sometimes. All we want is to feel good.

#worry #frustration #selfobservation #selfsupport #selfsabotage #lost #selfhelo

silvervi Oct 1

Time is flying by

Whilst I am looking at those beautiful
actresses,
time is flying by.
Whilst I am worrying about those
wrinkles,
time s flying by.
Whilst I am dreaming but am constantly afraid to try,
time... is... flying…. by.

Whilst I am sitting here, believing in tomorrow,
I close my eyes successfully to the internal sorrow,
I’m frozen and slowly it dawns on me
that time is flying by, it’s taking its toll on me.

My fingers are cold typing these words,
I’ve always wanted to learn some new chords,
And when will I join that sports club finally?
When will I see that
time will not fly by infinitely?

Melancholic mood, too much in my mind. Need to move more, to love more and to enjoy this LIFE. Sadness but also gratitude for what is. Let's wake up more than once in a day.

#sadness #melancholic #time #timefliesby #loneliness #autumntime #letswakeup

silvervi Oct 1

Song: Could have been

Could have been
But it wasn't, oh,
Could have seen
But I didn't care.

A spontaneous song I sang out of nowhere. Sometimes I don't even know what these songs mean because they probably come from my subconscious.

#subconscioussong #song #spotaneoussinging

silvervi Sep 30

Song: It's alright baby

It's alright, baby,
Just the way it is,
No need to change a thing.

It's alright, baby,
Just the way it is,
No need to fall apart.

A spontaneous song I sang. Probably to soothe myself.

#spontaneous #song #selflove #selfhelp #soothing #acceptance

silvervi Sep 30

I have arrived.

I am starting to arrive
At MYSELF,
Finally tasting
The fruits
Of self care and
Self-help.

That supportive voice
I started to hear
Took years of work
To appear.

Now I am blessed
With warmth in my chest,
It's all I ever needed
And some rest.

Self-care and working on oneself, journaling, meditation, art, reflection. Self-support through toughest times. It all pays off in the end.

#selftrust #selfhelp #selflove #selfsupport #heart #connectionwithyourself

silvervi Sep 29

A retreat

Today I will have fun
Alone
I'm doing this retreat
On my own
To be and feel again
At home.

I'm curious what the day will bring. For some it's luxurious to have a whole day to themselves. I often have this opportunity. I'm glad I wanna use it consciously today.

#diyretreat #selfcare #takingtimetomyself #retreat #alonetimr #solitude #fun