~~
There he was

Glowing in a bundle of stars
Shifted to see his dull reflection
There was no glory in his eyes for they melted a long time ago
Back when the birds flew and the sun smiled

It was all metal now
His world

Tilted into a triangle
Inverted in ink
He had a crumpled paper heart
With permanent creases
He was imperfect

He buried himself in minutes
Swallowing the hollowness from out the air
The shallow room was nothing more
Than a stained glass prison

He disliked the colors
Wishing they would bleed from his sight

They did

But it was only because his prison shattered
For his wings had bloomed

The colors he hated were on his wings

He was free
But he will never forget how his freedom came to be
For those colors were the sorrow he suffered
Now they are the jewels of his rebirth
~~

~
I requested peace

But instead became fabric
Bought from a store of madness
Those leathery hands touched the silk of my inner
Feeling the quality of my chaos.

I lay
Waiting

I am bought
Spread across a table
The scissors
Those scissors
Cut through me
Measuring me like haunted opinions.

I'm stuck with pins
Slicked with sweat from my creators fingers

Why?

Why are you doing this to me?
I want to cry
But I am nothing but fabric
Sewed into what others want me to be

To do

To see

I am all sewed up and priced up
I am bought again
Although I am something different
My new owner puts me on
Oohing and ahhing
I've heard the phrase

“Wear the clothes and don’t let the clothes wear you.”

I'm going to wear this human today

The fabric becomes skin
Because my ambition is stronger now
The details and lines are my veins
Those flowery designs....
That’s part of my heart
I am human art formed by earth
I refuse to be on anybody’s cutting table
Instead I am a canvas

My skin
My mind
My heart
My soul

…Is the very ink of creativity
The very fabric of who I am
No scissors and needle will affect me

I am liquid

The threaded revelation that manipulates form
I am a new world within
A fabric of understanding, learning and loving

I will not let those designs of my life fade
Like ancient cloth
I will constantly be refreshed
Like seasonal rain on grass and flowers

I will forever grow and shine

~
Please, go ahead

Tie that glossy pink ribbon around my ribs
Dress me in Anorexia's skin
Pour your poison into my blood
Whisper to me that pain is beauty

I won't let you overtake me
I will stretch your fabric over my pearl bones
I will wear you like an armor
For I'm a soldier
You are the war inside me

A black rose with thorns blooming in my middle

I will cut your stem and wear it as a crown
I was built for this battle
I will win

For you taught me how

Days in agony
Radiation embracing me with nausea's dance
You stole my hair
You tried to steal my beauty

My confidence
My love
My peace
My life

But I'm still here
Each fight only brings me closer to my award

So thank you for my ribbon
Thank you for my black rose
Thank you for my inner wings
I can fly now

For freedom is mine
~

She bowed before her porcelain throne
Queen of twisted sickness
Deceit prisms cradling between her clavicles
Her marigold eyes swimming in it flood

Her honeycomb heart dripping
With sweet tasting diamonds
Floating in the middle of her ocean belly

A moon growing within

She played with the cadence of her pulsing blood
Her liquid skin melting inside lava worlds
Her Italian tongue dipped in silver language
Her life divided into minerals
Spilling inside the Sky's water

Lady Light with her body
Embroidered into golden and turquoise thread
Stitched inside glowing stars
Mornings stuck to her lips
Like sunset lipstick

While shadows braid sunshine into her hair

"There are spirals in my throat as I bend myself from out of my pupils into this life."

She whispers to the shadows.

Her words melting inside the sandy wall.

"Reality hurts as much as it heals
You have to unfold yourself from the inkwells of your spine
Listen to the desert wind as it will lead you to its streams."

Replied the shadows

Their patterns dancing above the candlelight

Lady Light sighed
Her thoughts rhythmic against her mind

"There is a trail I need to follow
I want to capture peace and love
Like dreams in a dream-catcher
I want to have the treasures from off the edge of the sunrise
Oh how I wish to have the colors of the sky and sun."

The shadows became still amidst the tilting light
Their form advancing; detaching from the walls chains

"You have to unwound the darkness
From your heart and stitch in its place sea pearls
replace the scales of your memory with forgiveness jewels
When others began to see the painting of your life
Let the grays lighten into color
Let it become an inspiration leading others toward good ground."

The shadows voices turned into psalms
A whisper of a smile shone on Lady Light's lips
She turned to thank the misty figures
But they no longer were graffiti on the wall

They stood before her; wings outstretched
Seven Angels
Unchained
Free
Only because Lady Light finally grew wings
From within her heart

"A Healing Hope"
~
My eyes opened to a new day
No more voices bleeding from the inside
My breath is folded in an index
Pearl rib cages expand
As I exhale and inhale

The brocade sky
is a jewel of wonderment today

I feel in my heart a glimmer of hope

As honeycomb flowers blossom
Swaying in the warm breeze

The sickness has spilled into my veins
Once more...
But I won't lose hope
For somewhere within my depth
There is strength

Shadows dipped in ink
pours into the four corners of my room
I'm buried in silence
As the evening is veiled in fiery colors

A wilted sunset is smudged
On the horizon of my mind
Pressing dreams onto my amber pupils

The sun blazes into a daze
Melting itself into the starlit sky
Setting into the galaxy glass
Morphing into a sunshine rose

There is always a setting
to the rising sun
I wish the same for my health

Let me dance a thousand miles
Behind this stream
Drenched in awakenings
Pinned to a budding flower
Fused to the dust on a butterfly's wing

Where arches of the rainbow
Glitter
Like bullet shells on concrete

Snakes purr and humming birds flutter inside my veins
I am nothing but gravity in venom
******* senses out of the universe
Where waters stride across glass and bloom in midair

The nectar is leaking now
Dripping from a hole in the sun
Burning the bones of the branches
Which entwined themselves like tangled thread
Wrapped around my forest

Shall I light the fire from my eyes
Igniting my world with shattered light?

I am alone
But not lost
Even if my pack has long gone

The wounds have finally closed
The flower has blossomed
The hunt has taken place
For my soul is the prey and
My flesh the predator

Let the battle begin

Whether victory or death
The howling of my heart
Will reverberate the roots
of present and past
Or
My footprints will fossil the stones*

Either way . . .
I still win
~

Yesterday's Dream

"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream"
--Edgar Allan Poe

►◄
The thread was cut
Eyes shut
Falling into an illusion
Missed the rising of the sun
:
Sickness over take me, distortion turns into infrared
Thoughts tumbling in my head
Overwhelmed, tired, dry
The body is empty, hunger snatches a cry
:
Annoyance comes to visit
As time flies by with each minute
Sleep overtakes once more
Limbs stale and sore
:
Pills tumble down the throat
Death comes and gloats
Shaken hands begins to write
As the pen bleeds in fright
:
Camouflaged by inspiration
The ink spills crimson confusion
Sickness now tamed by medications control
The false smile plays its role
:
While the mind reflects
Yesterday’s dream begins to connect
:
Another page turns in my life
Another day with new strife’s
Another war fought
More happiness and peace sought
:
I am awake and alive
Somehow I managed to once again… survive
►◄