People think it's bad,
they don't even know
what marijuana does
and where it makes you go
It opens up your mind
and helps you see the dreams
You stopped believing could come true
and it makes you realize
that the only thing stopping it is you.

© 2013 Samantha Girouard-Holt

I'm not going to let thoughts control my life anymore
Constantly wishing I had never been born
I have a purpose and I know what it's for,
Believe me. I'm going to change the world.

I'm stronger now
I have made my own vows
to let free of my fears
and get the hell out of here
I know someday
I won't feel this way
and if I try my best
I'll progress, and I'll make it

Homework, Tests, Quizzes
I'd rather be doing competitions
for things that I actually love
Shredding, Music, and everything I write of.

What if I were to drop out?
Would my life exist on the ground?
Or would I have more time to make me
instead of boxing up all of my dreams

I'm sick of school 7 hours a day
I wanna stay home and go my own way
Compose music and post it
Go on the Voice and then host it
the education has my mind swirled
I'm stuck here I wanna transworld

Jealousy is different than trust
chances are different than luck
This is our last chance so baby
let's not give up

I can see us growing old,
we could even tell our kids
we started playing football
and never expected this
but then you made every day
easier for me to say
that I want to live it with you

Because of the things you do
to make me smile
Instead of dreading my life
You keep it wild

I don't know what I'd do without you
I'd probably leave because
there's something about you that

keeps me feeling alive
Makes me feel complete
and warm inside

You give me butterflies
it's something I can't hide
but I want you forever
I don't want us to die.

Imagine if,
I chose to drift
where would I go
who would I see
who would I be

Imagine if
I came crawling back
a fear to move on
holding onto the past

Imagine if
I decided to drift
and then I started to see
what was ahead of me
and I started to follow my dreams

but which path is resembling to me?

you
I miss you,
I miss you a lot.
I miss you so much babe.
I can't stand going days without you.
Everything you do just makes me want to live
I just have so much fun going on adventures with you.
I wish I knew ways to get you to feel the way I feel all the time.
The memories we have are so fond and vivid that I'm always going mad
Wishing to get back all the wonderful days that we always use to have as wide receivers.
I don't need you but I want you.
I want you more than anything.
I want to call you mine again bae.
I want to talk to you on the phone
Elijah we could just laugh all day
When I'm with you  it's a better place
Ugh, I'm so lost without you my mind is a maze
© 2013 Samantha Girouard-Holt

I'm lying here in a field of flowers
come and lay right next to me
we can watch the clouds
Close our eyes and live in the dream

Listen don't worry, don't be sour
When you get to know me
I'll give you all the power
to be the happiest
dreamer,
you can be

You gotta believe in yourself
and throw away, all the sadness
just try to enjoy the world
and forget all the madness

Forget about the future,
forget about the past,
forget about, all the things,
you're living your life too fast  

Just enjoy everything around you,
especially the trees,
Not about the government but
what we're all turning out to be

Just try to be peaceful,
just love everyone,
and your life
will simply become,
positive vibes

© 2013 Samantha Girouard-Holt

Can we start, all over?
And never, look back
on the past
Make new memories
Things will get better so fast.

Just trust me baby
I've already got a plan
It's hard to live without you
Maybe I really can't.

We don't have to be whipped
There's just some things we have to fix
I know you love me
as much as I love you

I don't want anybody else
I just want you
and you are my baby,
and if you take me back
I promise you'll never lose me again

I wanna reminisce with you all night
Laying under the stars
doing things that feel so right
that make us who we are again.

Baby what happened?
We didn't lose eachother
We've lost ourselves

We can be friends
but there is no doubt
that I'll be tempted to kiss you
Hold your hand
hug you forever
I know you understand

Can we start all over?
And never look back,
on the past.
Make new memories
things will get better so fast

Can we be happy together
hold each other and smile
keep that feeling
make it last for a while
because it never get's old
I can't ever let go
and baby I want you to know
that you're my one and only.

I'm just so torn apart and worthless
I can't help but be confused
I would eat but I'm too nervous
I just might need a drink or two

I would drink away my problems
No one would seem to care
This society is a big party
And depressions floating in the air

So save me
I'm dying
Depression
Is eating me alive and
I can't breathe
I'm crying
Anxiety
Is killing me tonight

So grab a knife
Put the blade through your skin
Nothing seems to help my heart
Nobody seems to ever listen

I just cake my face with makeup
To help my insecurities go
But even if it's mascara
My pain will start to show
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So save me
I'm dying
Depression is eating me alive and I
can't breathe,
I'm crying,
Anxiety is killing me tonight


What would you do
If you only knew
Would you just feel bad
or would you try to reverse
the sadness

So save me I’m dying depression is
eating me alive
and I can't breathe,
I'm crying,
anxiety is killing me tonight.

© 2013 Samantha Girouard-Holt

Dressed in our lazy clothes
We're all comfy and warm from head to toe
Going to D&D;
Getting Iced Lattes
Watching lifetime movies

We're gonna grow up some day
I hope that we don't drift away
Since you moved here we've always been connected
Our Friendships Perfected.

Let's stop time
and change our lives
because the years are passing by
Our memories
were the best 4 years of my life
and I won't let it drift by

She didn't want to be there
so she left to a place
where she could be free
among the while
with a smile upon her face

**** the society, she said
"Take me to the fairytales"
like in the books she read
It's better when you're dreaming
than to wake up to a world
with a numb like feeling

The american dream never turned out right
it's all about currency
not even our rights
we are forced to work
to live our lives
so we can afford
food to keep us alive

What if we just took a chance?
Going against the government
so we can change it
life is what you make it

Let's just turn this around
are you in?
Shut the whole system down
we can win

The girl feels free right now
she lives on her own
grows her fruit and builds a town
for herself in the woods
just know that she just could
if she dreamed it she can receive it.

© 2014 Samantha Girouard-Holt

I'm feeling great
I wanna skate
I wanna shred
I wanna play

In the snow
do whatever I can to go
have fun and even though
I'm a teenager now,
doesn't mean my life's gotta go down,

Because we are kids
We have to enjoy this
do whatever we want
before responsibility

I'm feeling great
I wanna skate
I wanna shred
I wanna play

I always have amazing things happen in my life
and then I just go stab them in the back
it's not right I just might
have to leave this world now
the only thing that made me happy
I've worn down

I don't get it
why me?
Things aren't as simple as they seem
I wanna dream escape reality
then maybe I won't have a chance
to take myself down in the mean time

I'm depressed like humanity
I'm gone and it's scaring me
Where have I been?
Where am I know?
I really wish I knew
so I could turn my life around

I could write you a love song,
every day
There's not one time you're not on my mind
of any second I could say

We're the perfect couple it's true
but what am I supposed to do
without you
I don't really know
My life wouldn't be complete
I need you here it's true baby

What would you do,
if my life depended on you
would you kiss me on the cheek
or put your arms around me

We're the perfect couple it's true
but what am I supposed to do
without you
I don't really know
My life wouldn't be complete
I need you here it's true baby

We're the perfect couple it's true
but what am I supposed to do
without you
I don't really know
My life wouldn't be complete
I need you here it's true baby

I need to go somewhere
I need to find somewhere
to be
There are so many journeys,
but so many worries
Holding me to succeed

And I need to
find my way
across the obstacles
I need to be
the girl I was supposed to be
but this is not me

I’m trapped in a life
that was not meant to be
I need my real mom
I need my dignity

you’re holding me back
And I’m getting off track
worrying about, you
I need to live my own life
It’s just so hard to be nice
when I can’t be on my own.

And I need to
find my way
across the obstacles
I need to be
the girl I was supposed to be
but this is not me

I’m trapped in a life
that was not meant to be
I need my real mom
I need my dignity

I'm a little lost now
you've helped me reach the inbound
I'm broken I cannot be found
I need to leave this town.

What am I supposed to do?
I've tried to run away from you
Now I'm stuck inside my mind
I feel like I have wasted time

You tell me that you're going to change
but every time you're still the same
I can't even continue
to play these games
it's my mistake
for heaven's sake

please just let me go baby
that's all I think about lately
you make girls feel like their your baby
but I needed you to save me

when you call me gorgeous
I don't even feel worth it.
I know how you feel,
but you're so bad at being real

I think I've spent too much time
hoping that things will turn out fine
because we're still in this tragic mess
and I'm stuck in the neverless.
© 2013 Samantha Girouard-Holt

It's been forever
We've been together for so long
I don't want to ever say goodbye

You're my shining star
you're the reason I'll get far
You pick me up
when I'm ready to die

It's only you who can do the things you do
And without you, I don't know where I'd be right now
You're so perfect for me
and words can't even reach
the places we've gone
We've been perfect for each other
all along

My anxiety is knocking to the ground
and it's hard to deal with,
but you're the one that keeps me found
I'm still me now,
but without you
I'd be miles below the ground

So tell me where to go and I'll go
Tell me what to do and I'll do
anything for you
I know that we have rough times
but everything makes up for the dark side

Writing feeds my heart,
when it needs to pour out,
since nobody's here
to listen from the start

Nobody knows my life
as well as I do
A poem doesn't feel the same
coming from another you

I look back at the old ones,
and I remember the tears I've cried
before I could see
the other beautiful side.

Before I had an epifony
of beyond the shades of blue
I didn't want to go on
with just writing about the news
Of my sad, sad, life.

But then something hit me
Something shining so bright
Instead of days of darkness
I began to see the light
and I begin to believe that life
could be the greatest thing.
And it is.

© 2013 Samantha Girouard-Holt

Boy:
baby don't cry
I didn't mean to,
please sympathize
You mean the world to me
I'd hate to see us die
You're so perfect
but I can see it in your eyes
You don't want me anymore,
and I'm not surprised

Girl:
Baby I'm through with all of your lies
I'm sick and torn down of being hypnotized
You make me feel like every things alright
when it's all just ****** up, I don't even want to try
I've finally given up
I've been driven through some rough
patches on the ground
and now I'm nowhere's to be found

Together:
Some relationships come
some relationships go
but where do we stand?
we don't even know.
It's like I'm attached to you still
but my mind is sterile
And my heart is fragile
and I'm broken like a vase
So scattered all over the place
impossible to fix

You're too young.
You're too young to let go.
You're too young to give up.
You haven't lived long enough
You still have a grander life to live

I wonder how your mother felt,
walking into you not alive
She never even thought
she'd ever see her baby girl die.

And what about your sister,
She probably felt so bad
about all the times she picked on you
and she knew it made you sad

What about your father
what is he gonna do?
How is he gonna live his life
without you?

People at school are talking,
They're all wondering why.
What made her so sad?
that she just wanted to die?

How does your girlfriend feel?
She's broken into pieces,
This doesn't even seem real.

I never thought you'd go
I hope you'd never fall through
Bad things happen to good people
and that happened to be you,

Everybody will be praying
in hopes that on the other side
people will be up there to love you
and maybe you'll look down too.

I never wanted this to happen,
nobody did.
You were so innocent, so brilliant
And now you're gone.

It's really sad to see how much people care
after it's too late.
If we all showed appreciation,
we wouldn't have a funeral date.

© 2013 Samantha Girouard-Holt

I'm too lost in this moment,
To let my heart slip away
I can't fight what I'm feeling,
I don't want our feelings to change

I miss how we used to be,
not who we are now.
I miss the way we felt
when we were reading our vows.

I don't ever want to lose this,
this crazy piece of me,
The way you make me feel
just captures the unseen.

I've never felt so perfect,
It's you who lights my day
Baby I'm so worth it
Please, don't walk away.

© 2013 Samantha Girouard-Holt

The admiration is so, so clear.
About the adventures and lifetimes outside of here
But is the grass always greener on the other side?
Does this civilization have something to hide

Are we forgetting about the beauty in life?
Or is it people we are trying to overprice?
Another new phone isn't that neat.
Why don't we just go plant beautiful trees?
That's way more life than a ******* Iphone C

So what are we missing out on?
Enjoy the world or stay here and live with
and stop admiring the life we're not spoken on

© 2013 Samantha Girouard-Holt

You don't know what love is,
you don't understand the pain,
If you just can forget all the memories
and tell me that everything has changed

I don't understand how you can do that,
Do you not remember what we had?
I used to think that you were different
but again, I'm stuck here and I'm sad

You wanna go back to how we used to be
but let's face it, why go back when there's already
the history
to look back on everyday
but you clearly don't wanna stay

I can't change your mind
and make things right
but I'll try to because
I want to hold on tight

because you're not worth losing
even though you are bruising my heart
I'd give you a thousand chances just to
reverse and just restart

Because hearts break,
but they're all mistakes
in the end we come crying
we never wanted goodbyes
and, we just need to try,
and start again,
because we always come together
in the end

© 2013 Samantha Girouard-Holt

Forever isn't long when I'm with you
I've never felt the same way about a guy
Maybe with us it might be true
I see you and I suddenly get butterflies

I tried my hardest to find someone
who didn't go around
and just date some girls for fun
maybe I just wanted
a guy who would like me for me

not break my heart,
it seems that guy is you.
You're the perfect one it seems.
Protect me, keep me safe,
I know it will be

Forever, and always
got these little emotions
never gonna leave my heart
never gonna leave my heart