I did not mean to do it,
it just happened.
I have no intentions to make you fall,
but every day that we talk,
I know every thing is starting to fall,
I am not ready yet,
sorry if I am going to leave you now,
I am afraid to let you know,
how much you mean the world to me.
we used to share thoughts about every thing,
but we need to part our ways,
this feeling is not right anymore,
I love you but I know you will never be with me.
I am sorry,
I fell for you,
and I am not willing to let you know.


-J.

01:52 am
have you ever asked yourself like why you so lonely?*

01:53 am
or empty?

that maybe you give too much of your essence to people and never leave any of you for yourself

01:55 am
i know i do

02:05 am
and like that's maybe why i get so attached to humans

because in them,
i find myself

02:07 am
i need to change, because things shouldn't be this way

02:10 am
but it's hard sometimes you know, when most days you don't leave the house because you feel unworthy of the space you take up

02:16 am
so you'd much rather disintegrate into soil because you've become all too familiar with people stepping over you and admiring the outcome of your beauty but never the roots of your pain

02:19 am
i spend so much effort watering people in order for them to grow and hardly get enough sun shine to feed my own soul

02:25 am*
because i don't know how to do anything else but care for everyone but myself

"do not be attached"
I keep saying it to my mind,
but my mind just laughed,
and said
"you keep on saying that,
but you never do it"*
and then suddenly,
I realized,
it is easy to say,
but hard to do...
because, once you get attached,
detachment will leave marks.