Riya - Hello Poetry

Riya Dec 2018

I walk and walk,
But I'm walking the wrong way.
I hear and hear,
But I'm misunderstanding some things.
I look and look,
But all I see is blurry shapes.
I talk and talk,
But all that comes out is nonsense.
Just pure nonsense.

#poems #pure #nonsense

Riya Nov 2018

[VENT] worthless & nothing more

I am cold.
I am heartless.
I am nothing.
I am pointless.
I am a waste of space.
I am no good.
I am dirt.
I am ****.
I am toxic.
I am a disappointment.

I am just worthless and nothing more.

[VENT]

#venting #wishing #that #i #love #myself

Riya Nov 2018

Sitting and Waiting

Wind blows
Scent of familiar rises
Hair sways with the breeze
Fingers tap with muse
Eyes blink with thoughts
Feet walk with carelessness and determination
Backpacks filled with knowledge
Hands stuffed with distractions

Still sitting and waiting.

Yeeep

#sitting #waiting #hurry #up #time

Riya Oct 2018

You Are--

A beautiful,
Yet understanding human being--
Who I very much care for and respect so deeply about.

Love for a friend.

#love #thy #friend

Riya Oct 2018

[Vent Poem]Dear, F

"You were nice and kind
But you were also sometimes hurtful
And mean towards Mother.
But I try not to remember that.

You were wise
But you were also ignorant at times.

I would hope you did say, sometimes
"I love you" to me.
But I bet you didn't.

As time went on
You had changed or
I did.

And I now realize,
That you are a spiteful and angry human being.
Who thought he cared for his family but instead only cared for himself.

Sometimes I just wish, one day.
You will just say
"I love you" and mean it.

But I don't believe you ever will
And I don't think we will ever be close again.

Although, I will come back.
It will not be because of you.
But only for them.

So .. bye."

[VENT POEM]
Yeah.. you dont care.
[****, I feel ****]

#one #day

Riya Sep 2018

One Cigarette.

You say you love us
But that's a lie.
You say you just borrow
But you steal.
You say you can't choose
But you can.
You say you are fine
But you're not.
You act all loving
But you're just fronting.
And so
You say that cigs are your babies
Now that's actually true.
Because you my dear
Have told that to us.
Yes, it's a addiction
But if you even cared about us AT ALL,
You would try.
Dispite how stressed you are.

One cigarette can't help you.
Your family can.

Please be open to any sort of help.

#cigerites #****

Riya Sep 2018

Neutral Feelings

People say you have to be positive
You have to smile when you can
You have to cry when you can
You just have to sort of way.

I don't get any of it.

Can't I be- or feel
Nothing?
Can I be 'okay'? For once.
As in I'm neither sad nor mad-
Kind of way.

Can't I feel like
I don't care about anything
And not worry for once.

Yeah, it might be bad
To feel numb.

But I don't care at the moment.

I don't care at all, right now.

When my friends or whoever I tell about how I feel. When I tell them I'm just OKAY.

#i #am #seriously #okay