useless thing
treated like nothing,
once lost
you'll need it most.

You Build me Up
You Break me down
You sing a song, all night long
Did you really ever love me?

We sit and we chat
We kid and we laugh
I felt safe in your arms
Did you ever love me?

Live Fearless you always said
Yet you sit scared shitless in my bed
Scars are what you left
Did you care?

Deep in thought
All night long
I cover the scars you left in my arms
Did you mean to do it?

My mothers cries
As lay and die
I hear the song you sang all night long
I guess you didn't care that night.

I crave to leave
Lingering kisses on
Every.
Single.
Birthmark.
On your body

I see you,
In the bright, blooming hibiscus,
In the gentle flow of a creek,
In the morning sun.

I hear you,
In the wistful caress of a violin string,
In the rattle of the oak leaves falling,
In the coo of the rock dove.

I smell you,
In the gardenias that beckon me.
I taste you,
in the bead of the honey.

I feel you,
In the soft droplets of spring rain,
In the hollowness of my bed.
In the beat of my lonely heart.

I miss you,
The way the white-winged dove
Misses the sky when it’s caged.
I feel caged by my longing,

My yearning for you.
I will never have you wholly.
Through my senses, through
Nature, I behold you partly.

I’ve been sitting in the bathtub
For fifty-six minutes,
Shower running,
Counting the water drops
On the wall.
I see you in each droplet.
I see your face,
Your smile deliquescing
Into molecules
I can no longer find.
Water drops are
Memories long forgotten.
I’ve counted 3,871.
I still reminisce.
I still love you.
To contain my lament
Is to count droplets.
To you,
I’ve dissolved into
The past.
To me,
Well...
3,872...

you told me I needed you, 
now look where i am now, 
without you

-s.r.