One night, One meet
One feeling of ****** relief.
A few kisses and a few touches
Nothing meaningful nor pointless discussions.
That was the plan, a plan of need
But I guess it was just the beginning of the end for me.

A tiresome battle to control what I feel
has ended as some force drove me to yield.
It didn't do much
yet, it triggered some sort of lust.
Tried to defend this stone heart of mine
Turns out everything was over before I could barely open my eyes.

Vulnerable once again,
As all my hard work has come to an end.
It's nothing now but a piece of flesh
With no barrier or some strong wielded defence.

My earths core now red and warm
Feeling the trembles of an oncoming storm.
Scared and terrified as there's no crust left
No sense of robust
No sign of protection
It's nothing but an open target just waiting for rejection.

the safe feeling
I can be me with you
naked as my birthday
with my smile wide as
you accept me
truthfully honest
eat crackers with the wine
take you in my arms confident
I do please you,
it shows in how we
can be silent for hours
how we just need ourselves
as we are
how the clock is unplugged
no where else to get to
no blushing
just the rush of when you reach out to me
the hairs on my arm stand up
just like the day
I met you

I remember when your words were a caress
But now that's gone and you're all business

It's not just warm touch I miss but how you were so present even when virtual
Now you're short circuiting the connection that was physical and emotional,  allowing only intellectual or spiritual.

Affection requires all those elements.....
But you seem to have no patience for sentiment

You say I'm just nostalgic for the romance,
And these are the realities of a relationship at Long Distance.

So I wonder if I've committed to a love that won't last....
Because I do want the romance and won't settle for something half assed.

Where's the open hearted warrior who arose to love's divine quest?
Remember when you promised to treat me like I'm precious?

How quickly you forgot that vow
Or maybe you don't remember how

Because for months despite the miles we were so close
And I did feel cherished....but where is that man my heart chose?