The spectrum of colour
So beautiful and full of life

Reds and purples
For danger and protection

Blues and greens
For the grass and seas

Yellows and orange
For the sun and summer

To me,
Its all a blur
I am dull as dull can be
I am filled with nothing
I am empty

Opening my eyes to the sun
beaming down across my covers
Its just another day

Turning over
I want to sleep forever
But I have to face the world

As I lay in bed alone at night
I stare to the ceiling and think

I become engulfed in emotion
and cry myself to sleep

After all,
Its just another day

Goodbye?
We never actually have proper goodbyes
We don't expect someone to walk out of our lives so suddenly
And say goodbye before or after
We just accept it
Sometimes question it
And move on

The only true goodbye is at the end of someone's life
Even then can they hear us?

siting in bed considering the positives
of taking my life
the painkillers and anti-depressants
I have been prescribed
and who knows?
maybe a cut or two wont hurt
right?
this is taking over my life
I would never wish this upon my worst enemy
but
I lay here in tears and blood
I will never understand why this wont go away and leave me
to be happy
why can I not have that?
why?

The thought of jealousy
And the paranoia
Slowly eats me up inside
Taking over me
Bit by bit

Why do we naturally judge and compare?
Natural instinct
Or to drive us to be better?