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178 · Feb 2020
In My Mind
Sanjali Feb 2020
There are monsters crawling up my back.
Sit up straight, cut off the slack!
You never hear their whispering buzz,
Their silent bites. They don’t know ‘enough’.

Do you ever wonder what they speak?
Why do they stay behind where you can’t see?
Do you know how they survive?
These people say “they’re in your mind.”

That would be funny, don’t you agree?
If they were on my back and under seams.
Crawling up my spine behind my eyes
Nibbling away on nerves at night.

There are monsters crawling up my back.
Don’t look away, they might attack.
Scuttering from sight just as you move.
Luckily, there’s nothing you could lose.
177 · Dec 2020
Nightmare
Sanjali Dec 2020
Shivering limbs with shadows still
The room is a masquerade
For empty robes and beaten bones
Dancing with their silent blades.

Don’t turn your head to the silent dead
They hear the fear you breathe,
Close your eyes; say your goodbyes,
Soon you’ll go underneath.

Here I stay and I await
Your soul to leave your shell,
For you, my love, have yet to burn
In the flames of my own hell.
This was a fun write sometime in the past.
176 · Dec 2019
Dear Blue
Sanjali Dec 2019
How did I lose that golden thread
I wrote so joyously about?
When did the meaning of comfort change?
Why does it seem there’s nothing around?
My sweet child, Blue, I love you, I do.
But I must follow this path I have paved
Through changes thick or wrong
You and I must be strong.
But my love, do you resent me today?

Dear baby Blue, my sweet child its true
I don’t feel it in my breath these days.
But I assure you I will still find
All the reasons that have us bind
To this world and these fleeting ways.
I must ask, is that enough?
For all that I have now become.
Is this a sin drowning me in its wake?
My sweet love of Blue, I have to tell you, I do.
Soon this ocean will consume my name.
176 · Sep 2020
Cold Water
Sanjali Sep 2020
Life is
Cold water.
A little dip
Refreshes,
A little pull
In the current
Is drifting
Washed up on a distant shore
Lucky if you're breathing,
To know you have been cold.
Lucky
162 · Jul 2020
A Captive
Sanjali Jul 2020
Her eyes
were the sunset,
Her breath
the cool breeze,
She lured me in,
a captive,
The blue shimmering
sea.
158 · Jan 2023
Wounds From Ages Past
Sanjali Jan 2023
The wounds you keep scratching
Are from ages past
Don't make yourself bleed
Again
Henlo henlo ouo// I wasn't really able to log in here till now. Hopefully I'll be posting here often again. Have a lovely weekend.
142 · May 2020
A Haunting
Sanjali May 2020
You rattle my dreams, haunting,
With a love I never found,
Our touch and kisses, daunting,
But I melt without a doubt.

I know I told you, you’re a dream
You just laughed and said aloud
You’re here with me, as I am free
Our love explores unbound.

You rattle me, with your haunting,
Our love was never around
Then I wonder, how daunting
If I went and looked about.
128 · Feb 2020
To Me
Sanjali Feb 2020
I hear you breathing through the phone
Light on my ears, warm in my bones
Out in the world, to me
Veering its way, from mountains to sea
Each time it turns, to me
Your breath and soul
Onwards; explore. Find the way to my breath
Unto me.
117 · Oct 2020
Help Me
Sanjali Oct 2020
Hate me cause I’m scared
Hate me, I’m unprepared
Hate me because my heart is heavy
It cares.

Hate me cause my eyes are red
Hate my circles bruised and wet
Hate me because I can’t scream and say
I’m depressed.

Hate me cause you can’t relate
Hate me, you’re scared to give me a break
Hate me because you never learned
I need help, not hate.

— The End —