can i be dreaming once again,
i just want to completely descend
and wake up along your shores.
letting the moon control the tide,
we'd walk for miles out to the
deepest blue spaces. i know
your mind is the labyrinth
that i could easily get use to.
would you allow me to get
completely lost in you? you
are something i can't find
until i close my eyes. take
my hand and breathe against
my face the words you swore
would not end. speak to me
only of the dawn, but not
of waking from our home.
let me remain, even if it's a lie,
completely caught up in
everything that is so you. I
won't ever beg for rescue, as
long as your hand stays with mine.

Let it be luck or fate
You and I became legends
Us against the world

With each battle,
Enemies came to fight
As allies made appearance

Wars are ongoing
But they hinder
From time to time

Young and optimistic,
We were not yet burdened,
With heavier dilemmas

We enjoyed our time
With each passing season,
Our dreams became bigger

We were the same
But different in pace
We became a comparison

No one warned us
That we could defy
One another

After our first few quarrels
We used the word "forever"
Often as we overcame obstacles

Like poison seeping in
Quarrel after quarrel,
"Forever" fell short of itself

There were more stories
Of us and our memories
Than memories being made

Maturity and experience
Changed everything
From our minds to physicalities

Sharp pain resides in my heart
Orignated from comparisons
I hated everything.

You recieved praise
And lost yourself in it
I lost my voice and will.

Mind tricks of my own doing
Distance flourished
As did I.

We were aware of ourselves
But we expected more too
We were no longer on the same page

Something crashed in us
It left marks and bruises
Left us broken and in pieces

Unsure of what was next
Our blades were drawn
Wounded each other with deceit

Haunted with hate,
You became headstrong
I took myself faraway

Time slowed down
The storm calmed
Everything softened

My sun grew confident again
Beaming from above,
Into what was left of me

The shadow casted
Showed me some truth
My mind cleared and spoke

Aren't we peers,
Or the least bit, equal?
When will you learn?

Look at me.
Who do you see,
If not someone found and free?

Words fled quickly
From my tired being
I justified myself for you (again)

You say you understood
But your skull and bones thick
With stubborn and pride.

Spiteful knives sharpened
By shared secrets and confessions
Tell me what part of me do you target

This new nature you claim
Doesn't not suit you well
But maybe the colors are true

It might be time
To take your turn
And make a realization

Patience is my life
All I have is time
But I'm growing

I am not the pity you see
When you look at me
I am beyond that
and so much more

Perfect
I'm not
And
Sorry for anything
I'm not even
Close
Keep watching
I'm breaking
Rules
There are so many
Self hate
I'm not okay with
Myself
I'm in love with
The idea of suicide
I hate
Living
I love the thrill of
Cutting
So I'm discouraging
Someone I'm not
I hate being

(Now read it from the bottom line up)

An unsatisfied disfunctional
Smoking in the rain

Siting all alone in a puddle of his pain.
No umbrella to shield him, just walls to drown him.
Anxiety and fears surrounding his screams in a muffled muse of fright.

Empty.
Holding nothing.
You see the vessel but not the contents,
assuming that within,
holds something.

There is no thing.

I am void.
Replete of content.
I write, I sing and dance,
but nothing here exists.

When I am gone you will pull the lid,
and see the contents.
If you bother.

I doubt you will.
I wouldn't...
... look at nothing with interest.

solitude is brimming
with waiting

a sweetness not sickly
but refreshingly freeing

is a place you find
where Earth meets Heaven

where the veil is thin
getting ever thinner.