stripped down to a nakedness she's not the hands to cover
plundered by a lover
a rogue who's undercover
tarnished and possessed
in slavery undressed
taken to the gallows with a noose around her neck
the hanging will be public
her snap to death cathartic
and she'll be made a mockery in front of people manic
their illness like a flood
a passion for the blood
they stand and sink their feet into coagulated mud
she was just their silver
some money they could pilfer
pay their dues in stolen goods that they could not deliver
tactfully selected
made to feel accepted
then callously rejected
in treason's name erected

the last i ever closed my eyes i saw too many things
it seemed as though my tendencies were turning into rings
and as i spun on each of them i thought i disappeared
but what i wasn't grasping was i gave into my fears
there's nothing like a wand'ring mind to keep you half unsure
to take you into places you may never know you were  
so if it looks familiar - a face, a scene, a sound
forget what you remember get your head to turn around

I crawl in through your weaknesses and take up all their space
I prey 'til what's inside you shows itself upon your face
and when the smirks and grins appear I come out through your eyes
infecting your perception like a swarm of hungry flies
now listen to their buzzing while I tune your ears anew
and you will sing the song I wrote specifically for you
I'll join you in the chorus and I'll help you hit the notes
then tie up all the souls we draw and take them out in boats
we'll throw them in the waters of the raging salty sea
and wait until they foam like you with gangrene jealousy
you'll think you want what they all have and they will fight you back
an orchestrated blood storm that is fueled by what you lack
(the mind I took away from you when I made my attack)

Came a night without a moon, the stars were hidden too
So I began to search for light I thought I'd find in you
Follow me and trust my steps, you whispered in my ear
And soon your breathy voice became the only one I'd hear
Closer came your flesh to mine, inside your chest I hid
Away from comprehension and from all of what I did
My thoughts had run to marry yours, to make our union known
But I could not commit myself and nothing could be shown
So there I was, a part of you, malignancy within
And yet you seemed to treat me like your body's only skin
I'd stretch and clothe your heavy bones, enhance your sense of touch
To feel the burns you'd give to me if I had asked too much
And so the days would pass along, I waited just to die
For then you'd have to carve me out, remove me from your mind
And gentleness need not apply for it has long been lost
So use your mouth and finish this, I finally accost

I disappeared so long ago, I need a welcome home
I need the truth to tell me I have never been alone
I'd knelt before an idol head who took away my name
And walked away to follow her - the shadow and the blame
A hologram in summer sun, you saw me now you can't
I found a way to lose myself by leveling a slant
The angle formed the solitude within which I could stay
A sleep deprived contingency whose methods I could play
But soon enough my thoughts became a harder kind of game
Along with them my heart compressed to stone of just the same
I beat to beat the hands of time but mine are weary now
I try to close my eyes sometimes but can't remember how
So here I am, alive and still, I'm asking you to see
I'm asking you to spot me here, wherever that may be

A seasoned spirit came to me and whispered through the vines
Said, come to me and you will see with otherworldly eyes
The grain was gathered up and stored in what you've built and kept
Although I've watched you walk away so many times, and wept
These walls are indestructible, the walls that house your heart
Surrounded by the higher things each time you fall apart
The ground will always move for you, the earth can only spin
But when the soil tills itself you'll turn to me again
I offer up a single cup of water for your needs
A colder finer sustenance, eternity exceeds
Continue on, September's sun has shined to keep you warm
The heat has changed October skies, compassion be adorned
And when the night is come anew remember what I said
A quiet hum, a gentle breeze, awaken *sleepyhead

The time has come for you and I
To place our lives where time abides
Consider this my letting go
Of all the weight of 'I don't know'
I'm here right now because of you
And what our Love has put us through
My eyes behold you crystal clear
I hope eternally, my dear
And if I fall or slip away
Please take my hand just like today
We made a vow, each other's now
And all its grace will show us how
To keep our stride in perfect step
Forever waits, we've only met

The
house I'd built is nothing now, I'm walking past a hole
I tell myself that I cannot return without a soul
The sacrifices I had made are nothing more than this:
Ephemeral experiments, a reoccurring kiss
I used to think my sorry lips were something of a door
A gate protecting parts of me but that was all before
I came across a verbiage that entered through my teeth
That made its way inside of me and settled underneath
The time it took to reinforce its structure with my bones
Has passed like an eternity, in never ending groans
I'll change the bricks to powder soon by mulling over thoughts
And place them in a mortar to contain them while they rot
And as the house of sand and fog is gradually entombed
The ground will hold a funeral to bury every
room

Lose* all your credibility and say youre still a man
you cant even remember what its like to understand
And everything you see is only partially complete
The rest will be revealed to you when gravity has ceased
But just before you float away from everything you had
Whatever you have stolen will be rightly taken back
And youll be left with nothing but the human you command
A heavy kind of feeling will begin to hold your hand

Everything's been dipped, disguised
the people, nature, cloaked in lies.

I filled my lungs with sun and rain and colored with my breath
I watched the world turn black and blue as I exhaled myself

The hues of bruise became my skin and blended with the air
And people walked through parts of me while strangely unaware

I felt this more than I could say - the presence of their flesh
A fitted suit upon the bones of something painted fresh

Like tempered glass and hard as stone, impossible to break
They bore a face of disarray and hid inside their ache

With open hands they welcomed in the fever of their ways
But failed to build upon the rock that was before their days

And this is how the place we see became what we call "home"
A sad excuse we sold ourselves when we trailed off alone

I dipped my skin in acetone to render it untrue
The look I have achieved - a simple shade of black & blue
I wonder if the people who can see it are surprised
But reckon there is nothing that will shock their states of mind
I haven't been exposed enough to feel them looking in
To ask them any questions I could even dare to spin
So if you want to look at all the flesh I've ever worn
I ask you to be gentle like you've never been before
I cannot bear the judgement of the people who are here
Who've come to make a mockery of all that I call dear
And yet I fail to move because I've paralyzed my bones
I guess I'll have to stand until I catch the final *stones

something came over me, I don't know how
i did not realize what happened 'til now
meandering shadows ensued all around
and entered my body as I read their vow
an aura of light I thought they'd endow
so they took their place while I took a bow
i rose up to see I could feel the change now
peering through eyes under shade of my brow
the blood running through me made no avow
as to what I should do and what to allow
something came over me, I don't know how
i did not realize what happened 'til now