I've been sinking in the space
Between the both of you
An oblivion I'm drowning in
The jealousy of all I knew
I've come to lick the dirt
And drink the salt like water
Only to find myself more dry
Like the desert in July
I want to live everything
That you have told me
Yet my mind screams death
In every silent moment I receive
I hope to float ashore
Where your words have lingered
And came to life like Jesus
Yet my stubborn soul fights
While it beats me to the ground
I'm a wolf escaping the pack
Howling at the red moon
As salted tears burn my flesh
I miss you with all my spirit
As my thoughts burn like cigarettes
Temporary and relieving
But killing me peacefully
Until the end of the times
When my body fails and my heart
It seizes to beat like the drum
Of which it once had done
And I'm just the null that haunts
Every bit of what I can endure
I long for the days in your arms
Those soft spoken words
That put to rest all these demons
And quench the life that thirst
For the truth you've always spoken

My mind runs rampant
As the days pass quickly
While I work endlessly
In the heat of the evening
The world reminds me
daily, that I'm not alone
This life is mirage in my daze
I'm the bee making honey
Beneath the queen of queens
Yet I stumble upon the lives
Of those who serve beyond
All that I have ever known
They work like slaves
Bruised and exhausted
Under the light that reminds us
That there is more than night
There are stars and a moon
Shining the haze of thought
Which beams the essence
Of human flesh on the grill
We are burned and cooked
To nothing more than ash
Yet there is a depth beyond
This strange life we lead
A horizon that awaits our soul
The fresh air that renews
Like the dew that waters grass
We will find our salvation
When we finally make a choice
To relinquish ourselves to the king
The only one who knows torture
And finds sanction in hell
For we are not our own person
Rather the product of a warrior
Who suffered for every thing we are
The sins we find to define us
Are nothing more than the mirage
We painted in our hearts before
So I tell you me friends and foes
Don't dream any longer than you have
Live each day as your last
And serve not the honey to the comb
But the fruit of the tree in your heart
The apple in the orchard
The sweet berry of the wild
For we are not the slaves of the kitchen
But the servers of our brethren

The time it passes as quickly as it comes
As I reminisce of moments with him and I
You celebrate another year upon this Earth
While I find myself chasing my wildest dreams
But yet I find my heart, a beat upon your drum
Your touch lingers within a capsule of my mind
As my dreams remember when you were all mine
I gave you something special, a part I can’t refine
A crazy bit of self, that thrives within your soul
My dear I can’t forget you, no matter how I try
You’ve left a mark upon me, a scar that’s in disguise
And so I’m left to say, I love you nonetheless
I hope you find the freedom, that lives within your bones
You’ll always be my love, regardless of this fall

Notes to the one who doesn't Know

The time has slowly passed
My heart stagnant in the drift
You've left my body empty
I've lost my spirit when you left
I cannot explain this all
I'm lost in the abyss of the fall
Yet I find myself running
Consistently from the love
That I've only purely felt
With You

Everything. You. Me.
It was our heaven
A home within the wild
The child cradled
In the carriage we made
My dear I love you forever
And my soul has been null
With out You

My heart beats the rhythm of this song
We wrote together when I was blind
Every note breathes the essence of you
As I sink into the touch you left on me
These thoughts consume each night
Before I rest my eyes upon this floor
That holds the desires I've locked away
You've left an impression I can't remove
A tattoo on my spirit I long to renew
Yet all the same my heart wishes to erase
I met you in a convoluted state of self
And lost you in the whirlwind of hate
Now I walk upon this road I've paved
As you go your way, not a trace of me
All the while I bless you with the best
While you'll always be there upon my chest
So dear be well in this life we call reality
You're blood will still rush through my veins
And my soul will consistently sing of you

Nothing has ever been consistent in my life
Expect the thought of you within my mind
Days pass, seconds tic away with the clock
Yet you linger within the time that passes
Ever so present in every part of my being
Thriving in the depths of spirit, a soul in mine
I try so desperately to remove you from me
But your blood runs so deeply inside my own
The scent of your skin still haunts me today
And I imagine you're body intertwined with me
My dear I haven't forgotten a thing you've done
I've only pushed away the constant you were
The love that lives daily in my delicate heart
I wish you all the best, while I yearn for you
Dreaming of the day, a yellow diamond rests
Upon my small finger, like we once had desired

Life has become stale
Stagnant like pond water
Gathering the filth of the year
I swim like a fish in circles
While the dirt floats above
Like a cloudy day in summer
I'm warm but heavy in the sun
I can't seem to leave this place
That weighs so heavy on my chest
I breathe as if I were dead
Barely gathering any air in my lungs
This year has been so strange
A foreign yet familiar time
Like an old friend
That holds heartbreaking memories
While feeling like a warm hug
My bones have been withering
Through all these days that pass
I am lost within the light
I am buried in my present
While I'm living in the past
My eyes have sunken into themselves
And my body is tired
Like a worn out veteran
Eating from the garbage
On the streets we silently walk
I am invisible to them all
Yet I see everything before my eyes
And so I continue to wander
In this mirage that has been painted
By the fear that I created
I am the one you hope to leave behind
The very thing you should never know
Farewell to my friends I haven't met