Five Fingers

Five Fingers Sep 2014

after falling in rubble
but a hundred times
your skin breaks through
and you cant find the lines
I have been here waiting
just like i said

so fall on me now
*fall on me instead

#pain #lost #fall #hurt #friend #help #scars #waiting

Five Fingers Sep 2014

feelings are for the weak

i feel hurt
i feel sad
i feel like this is so easy for you
i feel like you never gave a **** about me
i feel like this is unfair
i feel like if anyone should be walking away its me
i feel like the only thing i really want is for us to be happy together again, but then again i want you to be happy too
i feel scared
i feel like you will never miss me like i miss you
i feel disappointed
i feel unappreciated
i feel so **** sad
i feel numb inside
i feel nothing
nothing at all

im trying not to be some emotional wreck but im just so **** frustrated because i had no say in this and i feel so betrayed that you didnt stick around long enough to actually let me know you care. it feels. like ****.

#feelings #broken #sad #loss #lost #hurt #friendship #weak #gone #numb

Five Fingers Sep 2014

E

No one has been through the same
none would understand
But i know you would hear all i'm screaming inside
just by holding my hand

But i cant find you now
I don't know where you are
And now I spend everyday of my life
wishing you were'nt so far

come back. only you would understand.

#lost #hurt #friend #wish #bestfriend

Five Fingers Sep 2014

Untitled

I wish it were my fault

then maybe i'd have something to change

I wish it were my fault

then maybe i could have something to repent for

I wish it were my fault

then maybe i could feel anything but this stinking sense of
uselessness

I wish it were my fault

Because right now things have fallen through my fingers
and i cant stop it
and i cant breathe
and i cant stop it
and i am lost
and i just cant ******* stop it

and i am not okay

That's the thing about being the victim.
no faults, no guilt, no sin, no nothing. But that also means no ******* control. and it kills me so much and eats at my soul.

#love #pain #lost #hurt #stop #control #regrets #victim

Sep 2014

L

You

Sometimes
You let your walls crumble
And your age-old
Soul
Is let out of it's confinement

Wrote something about myself for a change...

**
Leigh