A faint wheeze
Running through my lungs
When there's nothing else to hear

I'll drown in silence
Without the sound of you
And find solace in death so near

I'll listen to a lullaby
Dance around my brain
And try to think of you
Without seeing rain

hush now my love
You are everything to me
Let me fight away your demons
Pull you closer while you sleep

As my old favourite song lyrics
Get stuck inside my head
Tied tightly to the image
Of us curled up in bed

hush now my love
I'll keep you warm
As we hold each other tightly
And keep at bay the storm

Cloudy smiles bright
As first dew morning sun
Flit around like butterflies
Reminding how no one

hush now my love
Your hand trembles in mine
Find peace in our warmth
When our hands intertwine

Has seen that side of me
Since the day that you left
Prooving once and for all
That love truly is deaf

hush now my love
Times are growing cold
I am still here watching over
No matter what you're told

So now I hear the lullaby
And sing its sorrow's tune
Knowing all love is lost
But that of me for you

hush now my love
When dawn comes I will be gone
I'm sorry I can't hold you
And keep you safe and warm

As when the night quietens
Right before my eyes
It's the image of you I see
That drowns out my lullabies.

*hush now my love
Your hollowed eyes grow dark
Just listen as I whisper
The story as we part

This suicide taste funny,
with its imprint eternally
stamped
in my head.
It has the taste of an end,
my end,
and end filled with stars.

It taste like a badly cut movie,
with missing scenes.
The best ones thrown away.
Those were your best traits.
Action.

It breathes in the night sky.
I swear it's real.

This suicide mails those stamp-less letters,
postmarked to your younger self.
Where did I fail me?
It must have been those times I wasn't brave enough,
or it wasn't enough.
The pendulum of restlessness.

It must have been after the divorce I never understood.
That was and end to an endless war.
Good men died that day.

Those years of ripe maturity,
with tiny fragments still stuck to my heart.
behold the man you
see today.

It was all make believe, or clever guessing,
or a game of tag with no friends,
which makes no sense.
I could not be brave then too.

This suicide is now my confidant.  
It's been with me all these years.
Every Winter: here.
Every Autumn: Here.
Every Spring: here.
Every summer: here.
It's been with me through
the oceans I've cared so little about.
Through the scenes of beauty I could not
understand.
Through everything that could not fit inside my head.
Suicide, you *******, I'm through.
this death isn't funny anymore.

*I've changed my mind.