I have sharpened my teeth ready to rip and tear
like soldiers and their swords

I am listening to the sound of the rain on the roof
while you fold your clothes to sad song about madness and memories and it is quiet in the house with the same kind of finality of
a lock clicking of
a door slamming of
a finished book

like a knife slicing through a teen on a Chicago city street at 1 am
no streetlights
no police
no gunshots

just this skin
this blood on asphalt
on sidewalk
on boy
on knife

just blood on the roof of this house like a warning
something wicked resides here do not come near
something that says dangerdangerdangerdanger

Never look back.
Never look here again,
there is something about you that keeps me coming back for more
like you are selling crack ******* on the street corners and
I am an addict panhandling

I know you will leave me when I am hopelessly in love
I know I will not be able to breathe without you.

Without the weight of your body and breath on mine
you will leave me peeled and gutted, spineless.
Every dream crushed like a body thrown from the 40th floor.

You will leave me like tsunamis leave islands,
like hurricanes leave cities,
like tornadoes leave houses

utterly destroyed from the core out,
and you?

You will leave like a bird from a nest.


Weightless.

she told me
I broke her heart
but she
had mine
in her hands
and she
was holding it
so tightly
and she
was stopping it
from beating
and she
was killing me;
what was I
supposed to do?

I'm not from here
I feel so out of place
I need to get lost somewhere -
Just leave without a trace

These people around me,
they're so vile and close-minded
The things I hear and see every day
I'd rather be deaf and blinded

My mother said to me:
"Dear, your tries are in vain
To be so real in such a twisted place,
No wonder you're in so much pain.

You can always be like them
It'll be easy to lose your meaning
But just look at them. Just listen.
Do you want to be a heartless being?"

I'm not from here
I'm always out of place
I need to leave... somewhere
To disappear without a single trace.

You are my delicate melody ..
You exhilarate me, rejuvenate me ..
You reverse my distress,
Into your fairy dance ..
We aim to share countless delightful times,
with memories all our remaining life ..

Lost in my thoughts
Thinking about the past
Planning about my future
My mind has become a place of apprehension
There's no place to hide
I looked out the window
Trying to find my answers
But then it started raining
My abstractions started to take a new turn
I was filled with excitement
Each drop was scintillating
Like a diamond
A voice came out from within
It was a message
'Thinking of your past
Will make you sad
Planning about your future
Will make you worry
Time never comes back
It goes out of your hand
Once it's gone it will never return
There's no control
So think about your present
And live for the moment'
I smiled and went out in the rain
Dancing, Screaming like an idiot
Happiness was within me
And the best part was
There was no pain.

Dear Best friend,

You know who you are. You are the beautiful girl in the back of the class, who keeps to herself, but is still strangely likable. You are the girl with the piercing blue eyes and dark, dark sense of humor.

Dear Best Friend,

I know you literally are always willing to listen, whether it is talking about our mutual crush on that guy in our favourite class, or complaining about society, or my parents, or when I just need to talk about the weather to distract myself from the looming fear of everything going wrong.


Dear Best Friend,

I still remember when you first told me about your depression. I had always sort of known, but hearing you say it out loud, I honestly didn’t know what to do, because I don’t want you to end up like me, I don’t want you to feel like you have to turn to sharp inanimate objects, I don’t want your world to be dark, hopeless, I don’t want you to fall because depression is a slippery *****, trust me. I don’t want you to forever be broken. I don’t want you to be scared.

I just don’t want you to end up as ****** up as me.

Dear Best Friend,

I know I’m not perfect, I’m not even close, and I ***** up... A lot. But I will do what ever I can to ALWAYS be there for you. I will always be the dorky, idiotic, annoying sidekick.

Dear Best Friend,

You are beautiful, don’t let anyone, ever tell you otherwise. Especially not some 12 year old boy with a stupid haircut.

You are short, there is no denying that, but so is Billie Joe Armstrong and we still think he is the hottest thing since wood stoves.

You have blue eyes, that I know you think are weird, but they are like oceans only not as dark.

Your hair is almost as straight as the members in half the bands we listen to, but each curl falls in it’s own special place

You are beautiful, stunning, breath-taking, and every other synonym for that word.

Dear Best Friend,

I’m sorry you have to put up with me when I am like this. I know I should just bottle it up, but for whatever reason it always seems like I can’t stop the words from escaping. I’m sorry, I am so so sorry that you have to deal with me.

Dear Best Friend,

I really want to smack you upside the face with a brick sometimes. But I won’t, because I am more scared of you hitting back than I am of doctors (and that’s saying something)

Dear Best Friend,

I promise that I will always be there as long as you need me, whether it’s in the middle of the night or when I am thousands of miles away with timezone barriers between us, just call me. When you are scared, call me. When what you are scared of is yourself, call me. When you need a friend, call me. When you want to gush about your new boyfriend, call me. When you want to just chat, call me.

Dear Best Friend,

At this point I think of you more like a sister that a friend.

So, Dear Sister, I love you so much. Thank you for showing me that even the darkest nights have a sunrise, and that those sunrises are always the most spectacular.

All of my life, too late
Till you showed up with perfect timing
Stars are shining
Flames are igniting
Let's get giddy
There's no way out of this hangover
When your eyes got me woozy i was sober
I can see that fervour in your eyes
Is it true that you love me?
I dare you to kiss me
with everyone watching
I dare you to touch me.
Let's do it again
It's truth or dare on the dance floor.