Bummed
picking up the crumbs
People grown numb
all craving green thumbs
No one is abundant as the fed who sits atop
the heaping pile of people who are slowly reaping crops

Separated
wrongly legislated
Segregate and weaken
before unties peaking
Some will see the lies
others live their lives
Without batting eyes
toward a kins demise

Another one who's babbling of peace and unity
cumbersome is life when your unchained untruly free
My eyes were tightly shut
but even then i felt
As if the cards at hand
where incorrect when dealt..

Love is not for me ;
about a dream ago i swore id let my heart be free
I lied
debating my elated compromise...

At least the ground had my back
no energy to move they surround and attack
I failed ;
my dream of touching mouth to holy grail..

Dumping bucketful's into cups
****** ;
Forgetting older lessons getting stuck
starved ;
Never did i think id find my way
i swore that i could use you as a bridge from my decay..

It seems that my depression is garbage at teaching lessons
no food in my digestion
My mind clouded in questions
while looking for the answers
Time was running by
she will not look my way
Until my time to die

Start of as a child
dreams of flying high , super powers , runnin wild
Some ul hold you close while the others do you vile
or try ;
I wondered why my peace had to die
advance ;
My first love had me in a trance
took advantage of my lack of knowledge in the dance
Its cool ;
before i played i should have learned the rules
Fooled by material in earthly realms i drooled..

Still convoluted by material things
i wanted money **** the women they had watered my wings..
Growing older i got colder cuz my brothers were foul
elder told me keep on going never throw in the towel...
I had forgot ;
wildly missed the plot
Results of a recluse who never took another shot ;
at life
I watched my brothers overcome their strife
congratulate from far while eating fruit that wasn't ripe..
Debilitate myself inside my shoddy shelter walls  
never showed my face whenever village elder called..

You used to be a drug id abuse
guess i ran out of the substance to distract from my blues
So consumed i wasn't paying much attention to cues
i digress ;
I met a bird who'd rest inside my chest
sitting in the emptiness that seemed to grow from stress  
Never disliked crows
i went about my business
Whenever i would ache he'd ****** scream till i was finished

Seasons passed this bird was still in my body
i would feed em when i ate and he'd partake in my hobbies
On a quest to find a love to help me close up this gap
but my mind is still lost
In the one that i lack
i digress ;
The sun was in my eyes i couldn't rest
sleep excessively my mind in dreams away from stress
Happy place would save me from my burdens time again
only grievance being i was there without my friend
Woke to find my crow inside the clutches of a being
radiating yellow to the point im hardly seeing
Threw my bird aside and slammed a hand upon my chest
my gaping hole was closed
My mental cleared of stress..

The sky could teach us lessons,
although its high above.
It never ever slacks in showing whats under love.

My days go by so slowly, when I'm far from you. But your never here and my time is mine to lose. Id spend it all on you..if only you would let me. I throw it all away until my soul is dry and empty.

The rain will lecture so, It speaks of how when falling you should just go with the flow. When the ground is felt you will open up your eyes, Realizing each mistake that you had made when you were high.

Slowly coming to, My brain is growing rapidly i owe it all to you. My heart is bleeding rapidly i owe it all to you. The winds will sometimes laugh at me I'm laughing at them too. My face traversing journeys that would leave it far from blue. Im very far from you.

Part of me should listen
wont take my own advice
I told you so from trees
their usually always right
I tried to purely give
without receiving much
Im weak
i cant
Go on without your touch
engulfed in your molasses
Your shiesty potent potion
hardens me in place
And drains me of emotion
nothing there to change
You do not want us to grow
ill take my bag of seeds
And find a place to sow

They say if you dont love your brother your no child of god
i found myself chasing the being that had made me odd
fumbling along the way because the path is skinny
I wish for more every day as if i was Timmy

I know constantly you watched me let you down
distract myself with nonsense while my soul drags on the ground..
Getting high to run from my depression
Its gotten good at climbing without question;
I learned my lesson

If you would have asked me bout my purpose long ago
I sure wouldn't have said it was to save my brothers souls
I probably would have said to live and die another man
not to place the peace and love inside my brothers hands

Im tryna to be more loving
I feel it from above
olive branch clasped in the toes of a dove
I used to hate so much
I let it rot my core
No longer in my temple
I wish to hate no more..

Like an apple you would peel
till all my skin was gone
My inner self revealed
my walls werent up for long
Id let you have a taste
until you reached my core
No substance left to give
i entertain no more

Throw me in the trash
with others you devoured
Ill find my way to dirt
and help to grow a flower

Used to be lilies in your eyes
Now they ring a bell of hate

I remember calling you dearly but still you perpetrate..
Love is a cloak and dagger type of thing..
Apparently..

The cloak will smell of roses..
And not of casualties..

The knife is sharp..
Sharp as it can be
Accessing the places those unbonded couldn't see..

Taking from the tree without intentions to eat..
Draining me of love
so love i can't repeat..

The way i feel inside does not match my expression

If the floor was change
it broke
I fell through
lotta things on my mind i wont tell you
Devils eat at me inside
my issues
Wide
open
Don't need to close the hole
i like the gusts of wind
Flying through my **s o u l.

Goals in the sky
why
Why care
you put a blade square in my back
Why there ?
would rather you have stabbed
From where my eyes could see
why you run away ?
Why can i not see
why throw my heart toward you
Why care
why you lookin at me strange
Why stare
why snare..
When you said you'd rather be..
flying through the air
Instead of tied to me..

Love is a violation of my personal space , *******.

A tree rooted beautifully inside my mind
iv been climbing awhile
iv long lost track of time..

I hope no one else wakes up feeling dead i n s i d e

Born into the world
Fresh
No dogs to dogs to eat your flesh
Hope your parents love you lots of time they should invest
Unless they want the hatred of a young adolescent
To plant in the past only to blossom in the present
Extremely incandescent
Maybe
If you
Train your child a while
Raise their mind a new

I embrace the freezing cold
It makes me feel alive
Similar to feels of when our love no longer thrived..

if i rip my heart out will you keep it..

My father slaving for a check
the fed become corrupt elect erupt with disrespect
They say that money's harshly sought out by all those who evil
i see the one percent flourishing off all other people
I see my brothers outside of this bubble slowly dieing
i see that natures trying surviving through humans prying
I see that y'all misguided the guide to life isn't provided
they smoothly try and fool you the fate of lesser decided
By green ;
digits in the bank that you cant see
Paper is your worth if your not worth you wont be seen ;
its aggravating
The system is agitating
exasperate the weak if your poor they emasculating
They not helping
if it aint *** its not selling
Maybe drugs
and other delusions
Fed will come when he is ready via massive intrusion
taking everything you love from in the palms of your hands
Hope your ready to withstand when Marshall law rules the land..

Everybody wants to be the greatest
The pressure on the lesser has us aching to be weightless
Some are quit indifferent
They fight until they die
Others go through life never questioning why

Coming down frown the clouds but im not a deity  
let these monkeys of my back they make a mess exceedingly;
He was tryna get ready
They spin ya mind in circles like the fork in the spaghetti;
Leading kids astray nowadays like the piper
Foolish if you feeling condescending cuz your skins lighter

He often dreamed of a place
Where status wasn't governed by your money or your ''race''
Where humans left their gripes in the dirt with the dead
Instead of slicing brothers throats to eat and get ahead

Out of sight out of mind yet i feel it in my spine
genocide left my eyes rolled from behind
Was blind ;
never held the cup when you had poured
Never caught the hawk while it lived as it soured
gored
Easily distracted are my friends ;
who walk without a limp in a bubble of pretend..

It blows ;
blows like the winds in the trees
Blows like her hair when the air lifts the leaves
please ;
Never say that no one else had tried
all of us are kin
Do not believe the lies..

I bear little fruit
so your seed was a waste
Running out of excuses
running as monkeys chase
2nd face talking ****
Though we all have a few
rinse the smell of defeat
Rise again feeling new

I wish that i could sleep forever
avoid my grief.

When i meditate my demons sit and laugh
at least they acknowledge my existence
I fell in love for nada
the pain has helped me grow ;
Numb
and cold
It iced
my soul
Its cool
id rather live as minced and severed flesh
Than handing you my love and in return receiving stress
forsake me
Ditest me
leave me here to die
Id rather cut myself than let you slice me open wide

love is an illusion
a numbing of the pain
that someone that you want
will turn the clear to rain

Pressure in the ses pool..
Relax my child unwind..
I hope you wish to climb,
For the larger wish to dine.
They season you with hate..
Mix you with dillusions..
So no one really knows..a viable solution..

Comforting for me,
Blood curdling for others.
I do not wish to die,
Dont wish this on your brothers.
Slowly i discovered,
As truth would rear its head.
The living aren't all living,
The perished aren't all dead.

Wealthiest are fed while standing tall amongst their idols,
Sacrifice the weak to hold a place amongst their rivals.
I hope we see the patterns,
Before they rob us blind.
They leave a trail of crumbs,
so you may creep behind..

The rib of man has evolved into something nice
Twice as elaborate
Twice as deceptive
Three times the con
Without knowing themselves
Whats fully going on..

The sun is always setting by the time its time to dawn
The clouds are never still
I watch them walk along
I wish i could go with them
I wish i was more strong
Pick apart the ribs
To find i wasn't wrong..

Still living your dream
though you seem unhappy
Was this all unwanted ?
why your words attacked me ?
I had ate what you gave me
there was no other choice
You would bless me with food
and my stomach rejoiced
Growing older around you
it was hard not to see
You created us three
but were no longer free
Chains adorning your body
me my sister and i
You were bound when you made us
you'll be bound till you die.

Beauty in the flesh
solace in your soul
Exchange my love for yours
for yours will fill the hole
For years i hunted prey
but let em get away
My gullet would decay
lacking food for days ;

Nothing underneath the blazing sun is new to earth
devils told to follow me the day my moms gave birth
Disperse
a ***** gotta prove what he worth
Or end up like my brothers just another mothers curse.

Im tight..
my father breathing like a dragon
The heat you cant imagine
size of flames you couldn't fathom
In my atoms ;
my past lives itching to be free
I live past the last with crooked complacency
in the air..
My hands wave around i dont care
bout despair as i split like a dutch well aware
That they there...
older brother always watching
Controlling the unfolding of events while guns are cocking
for what
Killing put a limp up in they strut
glorified by the lies in the songs that you bump
Now its cool ;
to run around and act like a fool
Sending souls up to heaven pushin faces into stool
most will drool...
Over material and women ;
knives by your spine the inferior ascendin
Im dont spendin ;
my youth tryna court myself a lover..
Im dumpin my affection then they runnin like none other
i discovered ;
I could use the blades in me as weapons
instead i take em out nd show em off to warn my brethren..

All my feeling had been shoved in the ground ,
all though then i could not taste a hint of love to be found.
Birds and bees , figs and berries ,
Shepherds and lambs ,
Eating what is fed to them from palms of westerners hands..
Some will be articulate in representing their fam ,
Others get disrespected tryna survive amongst man..

If life was like the sea i would be floating with ease ,
when your figure heads a puppet mason highest degree..
I wish to hold the Sun so i can no longer see -
this evil that protrudes and eats the soul out of me...
Funny how we judge or kin as if our flaws were never there.
America will step on you as if you weren't there.
This way of shiest is in our blood as if we never cared ,
Hyenas deep they jump the lions life was never fair..

Feds progress and death will meet in the middle
like how the bow touches the string when you be playin the fiddle.
Or maybe how your faces touch when you be locking your lips.
I hope Mj  up in heaven screaming rockin his hips.
I hope Martin luther is speakin bout dreams that he lived ,
Ideas of peace cannot sustain the the change from pain that we give..

Smoke reminds me of some people i know
Beautiful..
But easily swayed by the weakest of winds..

My blessing is a curse
if time would reverse
It wouldn't ****** work
but beauty sprouts from dirt ;

Uhh ;
what the **** is wrong
Travelin that narrow *** road too long
thin line like a tight rope like a thong
Weak in the legs when she look like a fawn..

Devils head strong fed from gnawin off my back
my flesh heal slow nd they constantly attack
Intact
unfocused
Time would pass me by
i will not let you go
The apple of my eye

Rise like the sun
fall like the moon
The food is preserved
like tut in the tomb
Ache till you die
or rise from your grievance
Be someone great
they'll marvel at achievement
If they disagree
you'll wallow in a sea
Of what you should've done
of what you couldn't be
Disregard the people
they know not what they do
They do not look inside
they only look at you

What is rest
hole in his chest
Energy irrelevant
his body use less
Depression had a grip
he felt useless
Blinded by love
he felt foolish
Again..

If i die inside my mind ;
there will be no corpse to leave my family behind
Trailing just before me are the monkeys on my back
eating all the crumbs from my mouth i couldn't pack..

This new terrain is dark
the sun hasn't won since my being isn't stark
Often times running in a circle from the past
the last could be first but in line they were passed..

Had nothing to say
unlike brothers who outspoken
Unlucky that way
i see love in lots of movies
But never in life
he would toss his heart to wolves
Without thinking twice

Clouds and rainy days
sunshine and bliss
Cupid hit me very often
the other he'd miss
Been around the block a lot
my legs are enduring
Yet im still uncomfortable between this place and the rock

When they said
love is blind
That was not a lie
when i reached
Out to you
i shouldn't have tried

Tons of fish in water
the sharks will catch the slow
I wish i could be eaten
but life wont let me go

Id like to feel the joy of some one loving

Severed ties
eating up the lies spewed by the passers by
Demise
stemming from relenting compromise
Knowing that i shouldn't
but couldn't stop the cries
Inside..
id like to say **** joy
It left me far behind
i found myself a void
Adeptly self destroyed
noice
Snug
it fits like a glove
Was never one for faking
no mask on my mug
Id give to the sun a hug
don't wanna be around
****** inside my head
my feet glued to the ground

All cradled tight in the fingers of the clock
All losing track of direction which we walk
All focused heavily on trying to survive
All losing peace as our unity divides

Some losing sleep over failing in the past
Some creeping close to serenity at last  
Some running fast from the doors that they opened
Some bursting through without care for the quotient

You open up your doors
she takes a step inside
Shell marvel at the floors
shell ogle at the size
I gave this one a tour ;
more extensive than others
I let her into places
that no one else discovered
I opened up my mind
i let you touch my soul
I craved to breathe your air
you presence made me whole
But now the times have changed

I wouldn't let the masses
inside my gracious home
I see your open house
is quite unlike my own
These floors reserved for you
your palace would await
Until my world collapsed
as earth began to shake

My doors were much to open
i should have kept them closed
Inclined to let you stay
my heart is not my own

Lonely filthy mind
it didn't match his body
My body's age behind
i cant
Restrain
the hate you make me feel
People are like mirrors
my true self is revealed
You choose someone to love
and give them all you can
If they do not choose you
you feel alone again.

Peanut butter
sadness and fruit
I once swore that i would use you as my ladder to truth
later days i felt decay so i would pray for my self
Hearing nothing returned
it would wayne on my health

I got caught
up
High in the sky ;
thinking you would join
I wallowed in my cries
whatever ;
Looking down i saw a river made
bottling the water hoping that my feelings fade

Tight ;
feeling thirsty during walks of life
drinking from the bottles till the day becomes the night

When innocence is lost
The world will give you shame

Dreams
surreal
Visions of a place
that permanently change
Expressions on my face

Drugs for the discomfort
a temporary joy
Though when it settles down
again i feel devoid

Hills and pretty skies
animals and trees
Are better company
than those surrounding me

Cyanide in seeds
he thought to pick a bunch
And blend them in a mix
to rise above the slump

Weakness comes with strength
darkness moves with light
My yin is missing yang
i lost my will to fight

What is given often lost,
For love is always starving.
You lose what you put in,
Feel frail as she's departing.
Am i to love again?
And lose another arm..
Anxiety, depression,
These feelings left unharmed.
When trust has taken blows,
Only you can heal yourself..
When love does come along,
please don't take from someone else.

Seeds will plant with actions,
Reactions are the trees.
That manifest and grow
From charity or ******.
Is your land left gorgeous?
Or dieing in the breeze?
Will you over come?
Or will you die with ease..