I didnt need a lesson
on how to stand alone
I needed you to stay and be my comfort
my home
My zone
is shaken
I should
awaken
I was
mistaken
I feel
forsaken
Its nada
dog eat dog
Everyman for himself
depending on your friends can be bad for your health

Burned into my brain
The way your face is shaped
Entrapped inside your soul
with no wish to escape..

I wish to smell your flowers..
and bask in your suns light
the future seems so blinding..
or is the sun too bright?

Advocate for peace
nothing left to lose  
Every one will feast..

Id rather be the life on the screen than the life in front of it

Waiting for your pain to wane away,
longing for the touch of love to make it all decay.
Dreaming of a place where grass is green on every side,
Visiting this place when you are weak and need to hide..
I know of such a land,
the water pure as god.
My toes had clutched the sand,
I sometimes found it odd.
That every time I'm here,
I love being alone..
But when I'm in the world,
i do not feel at home..

Slowly it will die
one must take precaution
When letting someone slide
inside
They'll stab you
then tell you they are sorry
They wont remove the blade
their care is often shoddy

Apologies are insufficient medicine for wounds
hugs will not suffice in medicating toxic fumes  
Love is all i asked of you it seems it was too much
id rather be alone instead of longing for your touch
A crutch
a burden
A dream i couldn't grasp
true love is only seen with TV cast's..

Your presence was a blessing
your blessing was a curse
You made me feel the best
you made me feel the worst
You took till there was nothing
now baron like the trees
In frigid winter months
your love was a disease
******
stuck
For months i thought of you
a pain
I let the blood loss soak the floor
and stain
Distain
bitter to the tongue
Shunned
into death traps i am sprung.

I feel a pulse of wisdom
It is unlike my own
Not wrapped in loving arms
instead embracing stones..

I tried to change
i really tried to ****** change
I would be fleeing but my being has been ****** and chained ;
mad strange how your lover choose to do you
Words stab through you like the pins in the doll voodoo ;
tryna groove with some blades in your back ;
Is like - tryna sit with some **** in your crack..
He showed love to the almighty creator
in hopes he could cope nd be something much greater
Saw the signs later ;
when god hit a fade away
later days resulted in pain in some major ways..
He often waved to the sky
to say hi and bye to his brothers who had died...
We could learn from the leaves on the trees
cooperating with the breeze when its time to appease
Some days some lay in the dirt and decay
while you ***** about your coffee at the nearest cafe..

I wonder if they
Would fight back if they could see
Do they really not?..

Money is important
the cheddar in trap
Extending hungry hands
To feel the metal clap
The cat is laughing now
It watched you from the start
From thought to full extension
till wrist and arm and did part

Money is important
It gives the evil power
To keep the people poor
For more we fiend and scour
My mother said to me
I wish we could be free
I wish that i could help
I hope the demons flee..

Wishes for a god
some feel but cannot see
I have inside much hate
For her or it or he
I feel i was forsaken
My knees sore from the ground
Untouched by holy presence
that many call profound..

When time is like a blade
that cuts you every second
Your skin becomes like rock
Your mind becomes a weapon
When fed is like a crook
Who takes from you till death
You hate him every second
Your curse with every breathe..

Lack of determination
Forced starvation mentally
Perpetuate the cycle
Kept in chains essentially
Non visible to eyes
The plan that they'v devised
Is far above the skys
Look up at your demise.

Trained to lust and starve
This time the fields are different
No wounds from picking peaches
No severing of arms
Chickens without heads
unknowing of the farms
how can you pick up arms
with no sense of alarm?

Slowly losing faith
I know i should be patient
Pushing love away
I know im far from gracious
i do not judge the fall
or victims of the struggle  
death will speak to yours
theres no time to rebuttal.

Born into a hustle
Formed from vicious greed
Founded on the dead
Depriving weak of needs
All these thirds are closed
Their eyes kept on the prize
The prize is on a string
Youll never reach the lies.

How do you cope with feeling dead inside ?
im unsure.

Trying to be everything thats is great inside of me
while life is cutting carefully the pieces i held pridefully..
my being was like driftwood , your love was like the sea
you strung me like a raft, and then you set me free.

Swept off my feet into a bed of ******* spikes

Open your eyes, Open your eyes..
Obvious lies..
Deceit
Repeat it again..
Grief will echo in the lands from inside of the pen,
No one has a limb to lend but they might try pretend
watch your friends, watch your friends..
Like they were your enemies..
many of us go through life concealed by false identity
Give Mlk a holiday when really he's their enemy.
Give a nation death then give it life then give it living fees..

Teaching you that villains came and actually saved the day..
Showing you a different face to beg for dreams and pray ..
Teaching you that money is a substance that is needed
Teaching you that marionettes are to be headed..

Its become obvious that the one percent is dominant
The wounds that bless our backs remind us of your evils prominence..
My sight fills me with fright as it is easily deceived
What is life when my brothers make me  wanna leave.
What is strength when these crutches hold me up so high.
What is truth when you can't detach it from the lies.
What is positivity with poison in the skys.
What is optimism when they do not head your cries..

People go
adjust to the flow
If they come back
to stay
Their in the way

Gazing at you from a window that i know you'll never find,
By the time you get here i will surely be blind.

Usually asleep when the sun says hi ,
most times high when the sun says bye.
Lost a couple brothers
i often wondered why ,
while crushed beneath depression under clouds in the sky..
Picked a couple flowers
they wilted in his hands.
While walking through the valley that was sadly ***** by man.

A golden sky remaining far
intangible
Past experience who you are
failure making half the man
Slowly losing grains of sand
eating at my inner flesh
Mishaps that i wish i kept
tunneled down deep inside
Rotting in the winners eyes
hating all that isn't straight
Has you stuck inside the gate
open wide your eyes and ears
Say goodbye to all your fears
something far is something seen
Close enough if your serene
clouds would have me envy them
Flying close to heavens brim
if i had a wish to make
I would go to heavens gate
waving hands to all my friends
Devils hoping its pretend.

I shouldn't have allowed
your lack of care and love
to change the way i am
deranged from push and shove

I planted many seeds of hate in my past
I watched them bust through my walls
hoping my house wouldn't crash

I tried to save you but the tide was too strong
Feather lost in the wind;
my gut was right all along

My hopes were hardly grounded;
They flew into the breeze
managed to grasp my dreams nd stuff em past my pocket seems

I watched how greed destroyed you
I watched pedals expand;
into flowers that resembled ones which sliced my hands

To love is to risk loss
to risk loss is bravery
Being brave is sometimes dumb
being dumb is infrequently worth it
Continue lossing you'll feel like ****
feeling like **** will leave you slumped
In a slump from getting dumped
issues of a first world chump..
To love is to open wide
to let someone you trust inside
When indoors they'll see your flaws
Pick the better gifts of yours
leave the shoddy ones behind
if they find you do not shine
why the **** did they come inside
now your dull ? they are blind
throw their poison far behind..
What do you all do when loneliness consumes your mind..?

When there is nothing there was something there before. When someone comes and goes it leaves you longing something more. People die inside each others hearts quite often. You died in mine, why is love so hard to find?

You open up your heart While your other looks inside, She tells you what she likes and all the traits that you should hide. Butterflies oozing..out of my throat , Fire dancing..out of my eyes. Sorrow stretching like blue in the skys..I once was unsure but iv opened my eyes.

My heart is mine to cherish. My heart is no one else's. My heart is mine to hold..Love feels far too old, I'm growing tired of it. Detaching all my strings..like the birds one day my heart may sing. If only you would wrap around my finger like a ring.

I am not a drug
for you
To use
abuse
Toss
sell
Ingest
or test
For her
maybe
Loved very greatly
until things were shakey and
I was left achey..
alone

He spent his days searching for a place where he could be,
found solace in a tree tall adjacently
What am i to do, iv long lost track of time
As im looking down, the ground i cannot find
You yourself have chosen , i wish that it was me..
But holding something down simply means it isnt free..
Unsure of what to do, residing in your branches
Ions from the ground , miles away from answers.

Once believed in love
the language of the trees
Feeling incandescent
your presence a disease
Care only a little
don't over fill the cup
For then the structure withers  
and everything is ******
Your formula is rigid
the way you love is odd
It ***** i cant agree
or settle so that we
Could be..

Fools jump head first in the cesspool
i watched as i watched as the pigs hunt the wolves
Cool
Over clarity he often drooled ,
That temptress mad **** less your mind was made a tool.

His consciousness was spry , like how your third make you when you bout to die.
Why oh why dont we all get along ,
instead of dancin wrong to the fat lady song.

If there is a god i hope he made you for me
Beauty stretched across your temples land and sea..

The shadow of someone holding another by the throat..
Feet dangling in the air...
Is very ugly..

Everyone is looking to be whole..
Are we not beautifully broken ?