Where all might look hopeless,
There is still hope no less.

i've been thinking lately
about you & me
and all the questions left unanswered
how it all could be
and i hope you know
you never left my head
and if i ever let you down,
i'm sorry*

i know you're still there
and i know you're not okay
i know you've been waiting
for me to write here everyday

some days i write for love
some days i write for what's true
some days i write for peace of mind
but today, i write for you

i'm sorry for facing everything on my own
to the point that i became unaware
that no matter what you faced yourself
it will never change the fact that you care

i'm sorry for trying to fight my demons alone
when deep inside, i was nothing but scared
i'm sorry for not wanting to add up
but instead left your heart ensnared

i am still here, love
i will be waiting for us to start anew
perhaps one where i no longer hide secrets
maybe one where i start to fight once again with you

and i will always be here, dear
i know you always will be, too
if there will be another chance
i'll start to ready myself
for new adventures with you

but maybe i said too many sorries
maybe i should let you choose
but i can't, for you are one of the people
i think i could never afford to lose

it hurts me to see how sad you are
it's devastating even with witnessing just a single frown
you start to feel like the songs i listen to
when i want myself to feel down

take me back to the time
when the weight of your world was also the weight of mine
i apologize for staying inside too much
that i've left you outside just waiting for my dark to meet your sunshine

if my walls are once again so high
feel free to tear them apart again
because even when the world was ending
i swear, i love you so much
and i will always be here
to be your friend

until then, i will use telescopes to watch from afar
for the next time our stars will align
i will be just here waiting
for the time we'll sing our favorite songs and everything will once again feel fine

If I hadn't fallen in love
I would have not known
that stars could dance in the eyes
That the moon could whisk me away
That the sun could live in the heart
and warm it and fill it with light
That clouds could shower kisses
And rain could touch like a lover
That the scent of flowers
could linger through the night
That the winds could play love melodies
That sunrises could colour a blush
And sunsets stir romance
That dreams could glisten at dawn
like drops of dew

I would have not known the magic
that is love
If I hadn't fallen in love
With you

First off, you probably already know I am a people hoarder. I keep everyone close to my heart, even the ones I know I shouldn't. But like poison, you crept into my blood stream and choked me. You watched me suffer and scream for help and watched, because that is what you are - a watcher.

I want you to know this wasn't an easy decision to make. Regardless of good or bad, you played a role in my life and kept the balance going. But I've decided to disrupt the balance - as silly as it sounds. I told myself I was going to give, and give until I have nothing left to give. But I've seen emptiness. And the dark scares me.

I've realized that it is pointless to **** myself for someone who doesn't see my worth. Call me petty, call me self-centred. I will not sacrifice for someone whose intention is to use me. There is, a fine line between being kind and naive. Unfortunately, it was you who made me realize the difference.

I'm sorry you mistakened my kindness for " hey please step all over my head because I'd never find out anyway. " I'm sorry you thought I hadn't heard of the story of broken glass. When glass breaks, you can fix it. It'll just never look the same. Glue, tape - hate, love. I tried it all. It never really does work, you know. The story isn't cooked up.

I'm sorry you took my company for granted because I don't know if my absence will affect you - but I should learn how to no longer care. Don't get me wrong, it's going to hurt. But sometimes you have to just pull through - because that is exactly what life is about.

Having you in my life has affected me terribly in some ways. You watched as I hit my lowest - as I fell into deep rubbles, as I walked out of it fighting, only to hit the ground again every single time. I'm sorry you had to see the worst of me, and didn't know what to do or say. I forgive you - you didn't deserve to see me that way, I apologize.

I still wish you the very best in everything that you do. You were once upon a time all I thought I needed, but it is time to let go. I loved you then, I love you still. I'll light up candles for you occasionally, and I am sorry it had to end this way.

Take care, stranger. I think I'll miss you forever.

blood is soaking your skin
staining you red,
my devil.
light shines through your eyes
and your charred hair
singes my skin.
you're electric, you're fire
i'm air and ice
teach me.
teach me to burn.

i'll leave
                        pieces of
                                                           my
love                                                                               everywhere
                                                                ­                                                    like
                                                            peta­ls
            in                                                  ­                the                 wind
                            and                    i        ­                                                         hope
you              find                                        the­m                        and                
                  kn­ow                                   i                   wait                        
                                                    for you.