There’s a kind of beauty in watching the destruction I’ve wrought.
Even in the tears you’ve brought.
Yes---is this the solution I sought?

The bruises I’ve left as they burn into you.
Your broken visage-such a lovely view.
After I have shown you what you should have knew.

My pet-so naïve, so easy to deceive.
I may disappear but trust me, I will never ever leave.
I’ve got so much more up my sleeve.

I just couldn’t stand to see-
you love him more than me.
I was never enough, though I tried to be.

You twisted me up inside and brought me to my knees.
With this feeling-this wretched disease.
For which my very nature disagrees.

I want to tear you apart.
Shake your soul and destroy your heart.
Turn you into my latest work of art.

I will watch you suffocate.
Slowly grow to hate.
Smiling at your miserable fate.

Bound to me forever more.
Now what’s that face for?
It’s all your fault-I couldn’t be the one you adore.

Yet you’ll never be able to forget the things I did.
You lost the fight, the light in your eyes, and in bitter shame you hid.
As I took what you would have otherwise forbid.

I love to know you are wrapped in chains unseen.
That it was I who made you so unclean.
As I pushed you around-so **** easy to demean.

I will haunt your every dream.
Tear your hopes seam from seam.
I hear it-your silent scream.

You can never escape this fate pet.
You can never forget.

She lives in colors.
He lives in shades of grey.
She dances with others.
While he stays away.

She's an open book.
He's a locked tome.
She's always waiting for the next hook.
He keeps his chapters close to home.

She is passion and thrill.
He is patience and planning.
She is "let's go!", never sits still.
He is "it can wait.", for time is ever-spanning.

She is all ideas and dreams.
He is action and reality.
She believes nothing is as it seems.
He believes only what he can see.

Far apart yet close in heart.
Whole they stand together.
Half they fall apart.
Love draws a tether.

Always and forever-----

It's long past time for me to evolve.
I need this crippling weakness inside me to absolve.
All these emotions plague me-yours, theirs, and my own.
Always hating myself when these stubborn tears are shown.
Just go the **** away, I want to be alone.
That pitiful voice inside my mind is calling out for help again.
**** it, shut it down, for it's my greatest sin.
My heart is a growing burden, I just want to let it go.
I shudder, shake it off, and hope they'll never know.
I feed my need to reinvent the soul.
Tear it all apart until it's no longer whole.
These changing faces always take their toll.
You're never getting what you want,
When you're always putting up a front.
It's getting so unclear, who is the true me.
Between who I only want to be.
Can they see?
As I slowly start to disappear.
Who I used to be until she's no longer here.

Always in the corner of her eyes shadows danced, they were pleading: 'Come hither, come hither'. She would watch the darkness stir and quiver. She'd put it out of sight, out of mind. Yet it was always there for her to find. Calling in seductive whispers and hollow chants. They became like her own personal confidants. Their motivations never known, for those faces never shown. Haunting every silence or reprive and filling every void. There was no safe haven or any way to avoid--the suffocation of the shadows neverending and to their will she was slowly bending.

There lies a rage inside.
Deep within, away it'll hide.
I taste the venom now and then.
The shadows slowly creeping in.
I dare never to let it go.
To turn reality into a hell I so keenly know.
Visions in my head, loop, again and again.
Begging hands to act in both blood and sin.
Just a shift, I can never lose control.
Of this ageless battle within my soul.
Else darkness will descend,
spread itself inside my skin.
Born with a secret from lives long passed.
Every body a vessel not meant to last.
I see it now, a cycle on repeat.
This cursed bond birthed in hunger and deceit.
In the end we always meet, eternal.
Through the burning flames of the infernal..

Set them up, your pawns for play.
Sacrifice all that may.
You’ve come to take what’s “yours”.
Strip me bare like all your ******.
It’s all about control.
We dig this hole.
So deep, I can’t breathe.
This fire strikes within my soul.
Burning so hot, taking over, letting go.
Your eyes, so dark and desolate.
As you spread your sin, I’m left empty yet again.
This tainted skin. Tear it away, rip it away.
It’s seeping in...
It’s all about control.
Manipulating, convoluted, Personification of Greed.
Narcissistic, parasitic, kin of a filthy breed.
Seeking to rip apart my wings, tearing them from bone.
Left to atone.
Forsaken and alone.
For deeds that were not my own.
You build your pride, casting out rejection to save face.
Innocence lost to your disgrace.
You consume and destroy.
Left with no trust, no joy.
Wrapping me in chains made from shadows of you.
You think you’ve burned your name upon my tongue.
Never to be unsung.
But in time I will destroy every inch, until there’s nothing left of you.
I won’t stay chained, bound by memories stained.
I’ll burn them away and in the ashes be reborn anew.
There lies in wait, a hell meant only for you.
It’s all about control.
I’ll never remain a slave to shame.
I’m no one’s to own or tame.
I’m in control now.

I’m in control.