I feel
the
depression
creeping
in as
I do
nothing
to
stop
it

Even                         though
   I   said                      goodbye,
      I'll              never
    truly  
    tell    
    you    
why

I  am   the  perfect  riptide,
nobody  can   see, that
my   mind   is   a
storm,  yet  I
seem so
calm
and

*free

I held your hands
in mine as
we
b       r      o      k      e
my
heart
together

Just remember,
even your
worst  
days
only have
twenty-four
hours

Out in public his eyes glimmer
Ready to set his jokes in place
Offers a warm handshake
A sweet embrace

Nobody gets it
They ask what makes him so bad
Everybody wonders
Why I don't introduce them to my dad

Behind closed doors his eyes go black
His voice grows louder
Already on attack

Quick like a viper
Strikes you when you're down
Whispers sweet nothings
Then to turn them around

I love you
I hate you
I need you
I don't
You're everything
You're nothing
I'll **** you
I promise I wont

It's been five years
Since he last stepped up to me
Tears blur his vision
"Baby please forgive me"

I know forgiveness is power
I struggle with it every day
But it's so hard to move on
When the memories always stay