your name is
forbidden in
my mouth
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober

i'm drunk on the
memory of you

The day Ana settled in was the day my world stopped.
Time froze for me.
Everyone around me living and I was rotting.
Busy counting calories and watching my eyes slowly sinking deep into my head.
My "friends" meeting Ana and only encouraging her to continue her path of destruction with me.
I was dying and they were giggling.
Ana stole my life.
So scared of people seeing me, that I never left my room in fear of people seeing my bald spots.
Oh, did I mention Ana also took clumps of my hair?
Ana destroyed me but I overpowered her.
I claimed back my life.
The day Ana left was the day I finally was free

I would like to live.

I'm not your ex.... if, you step to me--- better come correct.... I'm so much more---- I could be the life you've been waiting for! I'm not your ex..... step to me---  with respect.... bring-respect and respect you'll get.  I'm gonna build you up..... help you obtain your dreams.... Love you down easy---- make you whole---- give you peace...... walk in your soul. I will be one with you---- you become one with me..... All-That, We imagine.... through prayer-- we will be. I'll hold you down.... walk in the rain for you... I'd crawl a mile just to pull you through whatever that, was binding you. All, I ask is that you do the same for me..... we've both been hurt---- and I stand,  to bring you into my free..... My wings I open for you.. Find rest inside of me--- allow me to rest in you. Don't fall back on me--- I'd never fall back on you. I'm not them...... They did things.... I'd never do. I'm not your ex!

"I'm an open book"
I said.

"Written in code"
He said.

"A code given to you when God made you mine"
I said.

The day that we first met,
There were fireworks in the sky.

The moon shed her light,
Just to sprinkle it in your eyes.

My pulse, increase tenfold,
With the feel of your chest next to mine.

The dopamine that seeped into my veins,
Knotting my stomach,
Bringing chills on my spine.

Heaven on earth was your lap,
Your name, written on the lips of mine.

Sweet memories,
Those were the best of times.