Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
Apr 5 · 125
Grateful
Laura Duran Apr 5
Another poem from my niece Layla.
She gets so excited at the thought of sharing her words.
She is 9 years old and the light of my life.


                    Grateful


You should be grateful for everything.
Everything you have is special.
So remember, always be grateful
For every thing you have.

                            Love, Layla Gross
Apr 3 · 121
Closet Monsters
Laura Duran Apr 3
Secrets...
I have many
Skeletons....
A closet full
I've lost count of my regrets...
Endless array of excuses too

Memories....
I suppress them
Fears....
I push them back
They can't hurt if I don't remember...
Keep it dark, fade to black

Healing....
That's a fantasy
Healthy mind....
A far off dream
I'll never just be "normal"
Happy wasn't meant for me

Acceptance...
Thought I'd achieved it
Forgiveness....
Thought I forgave
Thought I put it all behind me....
Memories coming now in waves

Bits and pieces....
Keep on flashing
Pictures....
Forming in my mind
Wish that door would stay locked tightly
I'm afraid of what I'll find

How....
To keep it locked away
Close.....
The door lock it tight
Put the monsters in the closet....
May they never see the light
Mar 31 · 1.0k
Just So You Know
Laura Duran Mar 31
I need you to know some thing
I love you
I do
But....

Losing you won't end me
I love you
I do
But.....

I don't need you to love me
I don't need you
I don't
But....

I will never forget you
I won't forget
I won't
But....

I will let you go
I'll let go
I will
But....

I love you
Mar 13 · 99
Answer My Question
Laura Duran Mar 13
My memories are like a puzzle
A jig saw made up of tiny pieces
No matter how much time I spend
Trying to put it together...I never seem to finish

I think there are pieces missing
Some are a little fuzzy
Some have been stolen by time
But some...are just black

I remember up to a point
Then nothing....
The tiniest detail but only up to that point
Then.....nothing.....blank

What is my mind trying to hide from me
What is behind that locked door
Do I dare try and find out
Or should I just walk away

I'm different than other women
I've always known that
I look the same...but I'm not
I"m sure there are others like me, right?

I wonder though...why
I have a feeling that the answer
Is behind that locked door
Hidden away in my mind

The answer to why I am
The way I am
How I ended up me
Should I try to unlock that door

Will it change me
Will it ruin my life as I know it
Should I try or....
Should I just walk away

What would you do?
Mar 8 · 220
Broken
Laura Duran Mar 8
Promises kept
Promises broken
Silence so loud
Words left unspoken

Every thing's over
Before it's begun
Why am I lonely
If you were the one

You said goodbye
With a look in your eyes
Yet the words that you spoke
Were nothing but lies

You spoke of forever
Happy endings to be
But the story you told
Was pure fantasy

Misery, my company
My world dressed in gray
Steady rain of sorrow
The sun has gone away

Silence so loud
Words left unspoken
No promises kept
My heart is just broken
Feb 13 · 72
We Stole The Stars
Laura Duran Feb 13
No street lights
Darkness complete
Moon as a night light
Your hand in mine

I look up
Awed at the sight
The stars are twinkling
Just for us

We stole the stars

I smile at the thought
You squeeze my hand
I look up at you
You lean in and kiss me

We dance you and I
In the dark
Under the moon
Beneath the stolen stars
Jan 10 · 183
Poems From The Heart
Laura Duran Jan 10
Two poems written by my great niece Layla for my sister (her grandma, whom she calls Yaya)  and me, whom she calls Lur.  
She wanted to use my real name and she sounded it out.  Lura is what she came up with.  I love her so much and when I read her poems my heart melted.  I told her I would share them and she got
so excited.  She wants her feed back so have at it.  fyi, she's 9 years
old going on 20!


For her Yaya....

Yourself

Awesome

You're the best

Awesome grandmother

and mine....

Loving

Unique

Radiant

Amazing story teller
I tell her stories of adventure and magic!  Epic tales where she is the hero and uses her many talents to save many imaginary worlds!
Dec 2018 · 377
Untitled
Laura Duran Dec 2018
I want you
But I don't want to
Oct 2018 · 3.2k
A bit of a rant
Laura Duran Oct 2018
Lately I've been a little moody
I get triggered by comments made
on a video or a tweet or the supposed
leader of our nation spouting his views
on ****** assault victims....

The real victims....men and boys that
are being accused of a horrible act
Innocent yet treated like they're guilty.
Please, don't get me wrong.
Being falsely accused is terrible.
Any one guilty of it should be held liable.

But, after all of the victims, women and men alike
coming forward to tell their stories, he speaks on
behalf of the accused.....Am I stupid for being angry?
What really disappoints me are the people that get upset
when women react to such insensitive views.
They tweet or comment and I try to have conversations
with these people and end up screaming into a pillow!

I walk away wondering if it's worth my time to make
my point of view understood.  
Will I ever change any ones mind?
It's the black lives matter vs all lives matter struggles
all over again!
The argument of should players stand for the anthem!

Why don't people understand that saying black lives matter
doesn't mean ONLY black lives matter, it's a way of saying
Please remember!!!  Black lives matter TOO!  Stop the hate!!!
People of color are being discriminated against and we are tired.
So finally a man decides to protest by calmly taking  knee during the anthem aaaaannnd......here HE comes to manipulate the meaning of it all and makes it about disrespecting the flag and
our troops.  

And don't even get me started on *** rights!  To be treated like
second class citizens is ludicrous!  How fantastically absurd to
be told by your own government that you cannot marry the
person you love! And because life has to be just a little more
unfair the LGBTQ community are at high risk for ******
assault and hate crimes too!    

I realize none of this is new....I guess the Kavanaugh hearing
triggered me and I can't seem to get it off my mind.  I heard
Dr. Ford's testimony and watched as so many people, including
the man himself, come with more and more ****** excuses
and a half *** investigation and in the end he sits on the supreme court any way.  

I'll do my duty....I'll use my voice and vote, but I live in a red
state and I know it's an up hill battle.  One that may be lost.
But I've said my piece.  If you've read through it all, thank you.
If you agree with me, keep fighting. If you don't, I respect your
opinion, but I'll never understand it.
I needed to vent....I did.  I can't say I feel any better, but maybe tomorrow, I'll wake up to find a few more people have joined the fight.  Here's hoping.
Sep 2018 · 1.3k
A Familiar Story
Laura Duran Sep 2018
I shouldn't have been there
I better not tell
I shouldn't have dressed ****
I better not tell

I shouldn't have gotten drunk
I better not tell
I shouldn't have laughed at his jokes
I better not tell

It was so long ago
Better leave it alone
I'll ruin his life
Better leave it alone

He shouldn't have drunk so much
It wasn't my fault
He shouldn't have held me down
It wasn't my fault

He shouldn't have forced me
It wasn't my fault
He shouldn't have ***** me
It wasn't my fault

It wasn't just me
I'm not alone
Will he do it again?
I'm not alone

I'll tell my story
It wasn't my fault
I'm not alone
The time has come to tell the truth.  even if it's to purge yourself of the burden of carrying it alone.  This thankfully is not my story.  I have one too, but it doesn't, thank God, involve actual ****.  It does involve me not wanting to tell.  I protected my predator, but I know and so does he, that It wasn't my fault.....I'm not alone.
Sep 2018 · 372
Meant To Be
Laura Duran Sep 2018
Me, you
Deja vu
Once again, I fall for you
Aug 2018 · 11.9k
In Time
Laura Duran Aug 2018
I wish I were made of stone
So your words would never hurt me
I wish I were cold as ice
Then maybe I wouldn't be lonely

I wish I were made of steel
So my strength would never waver
If only I could turn back the clock
To a time when I felt safer

But I'm only flesh and bone
And your words have left me bleeding
My heart is torn apart
It's a wonder it's still beating

You made up your mind
Given me your final answer
What we shared is in the past
Time to write a brand new chapter

I will fix my broken heart
Some how glue it back together
It may never be the same
It'll bare this scar forever

But I'll be strong, I'll be alright
Though I'm not as hard as steel
And I can't turn back the clock
In time....my heart will heal
Aug 2018 · 285
Yesterday's Promise
Laura Duran Aug 2018
Warm balmy air
Ruffles your hair
Smell of smoke
fills my lungs

Sudden lean in
Sends me reeling
Taste of drink
upon your tongue

Bad boy image
I, so timid
Your hands gentle
as they explore

Touch so tender
Sweetest surrender
A little further
than I'd gone before

Beautiful and honest
Sincere in our promise
That we would always
be true

Convinced and so sure
Innocent and pure
You'd always love me
And I would love you
Aug 2018 · 216
I Am Worthy
Laura Duran Aug 2018
With eyes wide open I take a step
A pounding heart beats in my chest

Fear clashes with tenacity
I fear more a life of mundanity

I must find the strength that's within
A deep breath and so it begins

Today marks the start of my journey
I embark because I am worthy

And....so are you.
A poem for those who fight today for a better tomorrow.  What ever your struggles, you are worthy.  Your are important.  You are loved.  Keep fighting, until you win.
Jun 2018 · 12.4k
And So I Write
Laura Duran Jun 2018
He loves me, he loves me not
We're meant to be, or so I thought
My heart is broken, the pain is real
I long for peace, from all I feel

I fake a smile, so no one knows
I mimic strength, lest weakness shows
I refuse surrender, I stand and fight
I must succeed, and so I write

The ink it flows, pours from my pen
It heals my heart, and I can breathe again

Minutes into hours, hours into days
The love I held so tightly, starts to fade away
The pain begins to lessen, the tears no longer fall
Seemed misery was forever but it's not that way at all

Those nights you haunt my dreams
Are few and far between
When memories overtake me, I know I'll be alright
I know now what to do....and so I write

The ink it flows, pours from my pen
It heals my heart and I can breathe again
Yes, I can breathe again.
May 2018 · 460
A Fool's Game
Laura Duran May 2018
I thought I belonged in your arms
I see now that I was mistaken
You took all I had and never put back
At least not as much as was taken

I stood there empty and broken
You, had nothing to say
I shook as I cried when we said goodbye
Not you, you just walked away

Slowly I picked up the pieces
My heart, just wasn't the same
I played and I lost, payed too high a cost
I, the loser in loves foolish game
Apr 2018 · 900
My Favorite Artist
Laura Duran Apr 2018
This morning it stormed
Lighting flashed, thunder rolled, rain fell...
All gone now

Just a sweet scent of rain in the air
And a steady wind are left to remind me
such beauty

The birds celebrate with a cacophony of calls
That chase each other through the air
all vying to be heard

The trees dressed in their best
Dance in the breeze to their music
I sit, blessed to watch the show

It hits me, as it so often does
Most especially on days like these
God is such an artist....my favorite in fact
Laura Duran Mar 2018
She wasn't just a "visitor"  she'd been here a while
She sat in her corner chair, word search in hand
She always had a blanket around her shoulders
A big bag filled with snacks open at her side

Some times she'd have company
Out-of-town family maybe or perhaps a friend
They'd sit and chat, drink coffee from a paper cup
But mostly, she sat alone

She'd always leave her corner neat and clean
During visiting hours a "newbie" would never know
That corner chair was taken....that was her chair
After visiting hours she'd stretch out and re-claim her area

We knew though, we'd never take her spot
We some times met at the coffee ***
"How's your husband?"  "The same...How's your dad?"  "The same"
"Keep praying."  "I will....you too."  

Then one morning I watched as she packed her things away
With tears in her eyes, she looked at me then slowly shook her head
As she walked passed me, we clasped hands for a moment
"Keep praying" she whispered, then she walked away

Perhaps it was just a coincidence....but
No one sat in her corner chair all day
She was only one person and yet...
The ICU waiting room felt empty without her

The lady in the corner chair
Laura Duran Mar 2018
On the first day I sat
I stared at my hands
I silently prayed
Please...get better.

After a week
Things only got worse
Family began to show up
Some from far away.

I didn't know how to act
Seemed like a reunion
People greeted me saying
"Oh honey,  it's been too long!"

I wanted to scream
I wanted them to understand
My dad was dying!
But, I knew he wouldn't like it.

My dad would say
"Show some respect mija"
He'd want me to say hi
He'd expect me to greet my elders.

So I did.  Every time.  
Every newly arrived relative
I faked a smile
Then sat and silently prayed
mija is a Spanish word for my daughter, however any one older than you can and often will use it.
Feb 2018 · 340
Always
Laura Duran Feb 2018
The fear brings anxiety
The anxiety brings panic
With panic comes pain

Hope fades away
Depression sets in
guilt becomes your companion

The struggle is real
But it is not mine
She is the warrior

She fights
She reaches out
She crumbles

I watch
I listen
I cry

I am humbled by her strength
I am proud of her courage
I am broken by her sadness

But....I'm here....
For what ever she needs.....always.
For my Angel....my warrior who is battling depression.
You will beat it.....and I'll be beside you for always.
Dec 2017 · 176
I just Can't
Laura Duran Dec 2017
I didn't want to kiss you
I didn't want to melt into you
I wanted to be strong
I wanted to push you away...
But I couldn't

I didn't want to cry
I didn't want to break
I wanted to be angry
I wanted to hurt you
But I couldn't

I was weak
I kissed you back
I cried as you held me
I want to hate you so bad....
But I can't...I just can't
Nov 2017 · 205
Lasccivious Secret
Laura Duran Nov 2017
Danger
Code red
We're both feeling the heat

Forbidden
We can't
Compelled, our eyes meet

Exigency
Urgent thirst
Pictures flash in my mind

Desire
Burning hunger
Our bodies entwined

Electric
Your eyes
Provoking gleam as you stare

Desirous
Ardent yearning
A most torrid affair

Savor
A moment
We planned it just right

Delicious
Each touch
As we keep out of sight

Bewitched
I'm hooked
Consumed by your passion

Elated
To know
That was only a fraction

Breathe
Gain control
All in good time

Inevitably
This night
We'll know pleasure, sublime
Nov 2017 · 178
Still
Laura Duran Nov 2017
I can scream
I can cry
I can curse the sky
And still, nothing will change

I still cry though
I can't help it
I still ask why
And still, nothing changes

The pain is still the same
It doesn't lessen
It's ever-present
And still, I go on

I still cry though....I can't help it
One of those nights that find the morning without a wink of sleep.
Oct 2017 · 243
To Be Whole Again
Laura Duran Oct 2017
If I could dance with you
Just once around the room
My dreams would all come true
....to dance with you

If I could kiss your lips
Eyes closed, hands on your hips
It would make my heart skip
....to kiss your lips

If I could hold you tight
In my arms, through the night
All in my life would be just right
.....to hold you tight

I can't dance with you
Or hold you the whole night through
I can't kiss you tenderly
....it's just not meant to be

But if I could....I'd be whole again
Sep 2017 · 491
I remember
Laura Duran Sep 2017
I remember you
Your eyes
Your smile
Your arms....

I remember you
Your dreams
Your plans
Your promises....

I remember you
Your passion
Your heat
Your love....

I remember you
Your distance
Your excuses
Your lies....

I remember you
Your anger
Your jealousy
Your accusations.....

I remember
When I had enough
When I walked away
When I felt broken....

I remember
When I found my strength
When I let go
When I stood tall....

Yes, I remember....
Aug 2017 · 1.4k
I Cried Today
Laura Duran Aug 2017
I cried today
Because I realized that I
no longer expect you
to walk through the door.

I don't look at the corner
of the back yard
expecting to see you there
working on something.

I don't plan our dinners
based on your favorite foods
or worry over when the food
hits the table.

We eat when we eat
We eat whatever
It really no longer matters
You were the picky one.

I cried today
Because I realized
something that broke my heart....
I'm used to you being gone.
Funny how it hits you.  Out of the blue, you realize you've stopped waiting and accept the fact that the one you love isn't coming home.  It doesn't mean however that you ever stop missing them.
Aug 2017 · 18
Broken
Laura Duran Aug 2017
Promises kept
Promises broken
Silence so loud
Words left unspoken


Bed feels so empty
Your absence feels wrong
Nights spent alone
Longing so strong

Everything's over
Before it's begun
Why am I lonely
If you were the one

You said goodbye
With the look in your eyes
Yet the words that you spoke
Were nothing but lies

Told tales of forever
Happy endings to be
But your words were illusions
Fairy tales and fantasy

Misery, my company
My world dressed in gray
Steady rain of sorrow
The sun has gone away

Drowning in the sadness
Yet my heart still beats
Suffocating madness
I feel incomplete

Silence so loud
Words left unspoken
No promises kept
My heart is just broken
Aug 2017 · 382
Is It Okay To Love You?
Laura Duran Aug 2017
Is it okay that I still love you?
Even knowing what you did?
I knew nothing at the time
Hell, I was just a kid

I sometimes got the feeling
That maybe you were mean
But I'd push it from my mind
Like some forgotten dream

You used to tell me stories
Before I'd go to sleep
You shared with me imagination
But kept your secrets hidden deep

As I grew into a woman
You gave me great advice
You taught me to be honest
For to lie you pay a price

You told me I was beautiful
And you loved to hear me sing
I never felt you judge me
I could tell you any thing

By then my sister and brother
Had left to escape your fury
You made us think they alone were guilty
A swift exile by judge and jury

I believed they were to blame
Yes, I believed your lies
Even though Dad's heart was broken
Even when I heard his cries

As the years progressed
You shared a little of your tale
About your ******* of a father
And how he put you all through hell

Your last years were full of pain
You suffered much before your death
You begged them for forgiveness
Then you took your final breath

But the damage was too great
And we would not recover
We remained estranged
From our sister and our brother

Since your death I've learned the truth
What you did, and what was done to you
My hearts breaks for the abuse you gave
And the hell that you went through

Now my heart is so confused
I don't know how to feel
Is it okay to love you?
Is the woman I knew even real?

I can't explain it any better
And I don't know what to do
I wish some one would just tell me
Is it okay to love you?
A poem I wrote about my mother many years after her death, when I learned the truth about what she had kept hidden from her children.  So much more than could fit in any poem.  I remain confused about a lot of things, but I love her.  I am me, in part at least, because of her.  What ever wrongs she committed, she is my mom and I'll always love her.
Jul 2017 · 1.2k
Goodbye Reality
Laura Duran Jul 2017
my mind is playing tricks on me
I thought I saw your face
next second gone, just like that
not the slightest trace

I must be going crazy
I thought I heard you call my name
but only silence greeted me
is my mind really playing games?

I thought I felt your tender touch
when I turned, you were not there
although goose bumps broke out on my skin
couldn't find you anywhere

you left me, oh so long ago
yet still you're on my mind
you'd think that I'd be over you
living life and doing fine

why then, am I seeing you
feeling your familiar touch?
why then are you haunting me?
why do I miss you this **** much?

I wish I could just let it go
banish thoughts of you away
I wish I could erase it all
or make it so you stayed

but I don't have that power
so here I am alone
hour after hour
trying to make it on my own

my mind is playing tricks on me
for here you are again
like I'm dreaming while awake
when will this madness end?

always the same, you show yourself
when void of company
when no one's here to witness
the way you come to me

perhaps I am going crazy!
it could be worse for me
at least one thing is certain
I won't ever again be lonely

I'll finally have you back again
and life won't be so sad
living in my crazy world
might  not be so bad

I may have lost touch with reality
I may be lost in wonderland
but I've made up my mind, I'm staying
reality will just have to understand
Jun 2017 · 632
You'll Be With Me
Laura Duran Jun 2017
Whether I'm by your side or miles and miles away
Even when we inevitably go our separate ways
You'll be with me

I choke up at the thought of not seeing your face
But even if, I must suffer this fate
You'll be with me

When there isn't a road left to take, or mistakes left to make
When we run out of words and there's nothing left to say
You'll be with me

When I've lived out my life and find the end of my days
Until my sins are all counted and my debts have been paid
You'll be with me

You'll be in a memory, in my heart, tucked away
And my sister, I wouldn't have it any other way
You'll be with me

Until God makes me whole once again
And I'm finally back with my very best friend
You'll be with me

I promise....I swear...now and forever
You'll always be with me
For my sister on her birthday, with all my love
Jun 2017 · 548
Happy Father's Day
Laura Duran Jun 2017
Just a quick post to say Happy Father's Day to all the dads of HP.
Hope your day was filled with happiness and love.  
May you be blessed.
Jun 2017 · 432
That's Life
Laura Duran Jun 2017
Who can say that they've never known pain?
Who can say they've no regrets?
If there is one among you, you're either lucky or lying

Pain and I are old friends
He keeps me company on those long lonely nights
Regret, she too is my constant companion

"That's life"  they say
I can't argue....that's my life
I suppose it's true for many

I keep moving forward
I treat people as I would want to be treated
People don't always offer me the same courtesy

"That's life" they say
I can't change it....I've tried
I suppose it's true for many

Time marches on, things change
People get older, things stay the same
That's life....or so I've heard
Jun 2017 · 270
I Could
Laura Duran Jun 2017
I could let the past rest in the past
I could find faith that this time will last
I could be yours once more
I could....but what for?

I could be your perfect lover
I could believe there won't be another
I could believe you're different from before
I could...but what for?

It would just be deja vu
It would end up me with out you
It would send me back to hell
It would...if I fell

It would be a big mistake
It would be so hard to take
It would end in your farewell
It would...if I fell

I could let go of these delusions
I could see through all your illusions
I could realize you're just in it for the thrill
I could.....and I will

I'll leave the past in the past
I'll find faith in me at last
I'll be stronger than before
I'll do this and so much more

I could smile and stand alone
I could make it on my own
I could live a life well lived
I could....and I did
Jun 2017 · 2.0k
She Was Like The Sea
Laura Duran Jun 2017
She was like the sea
Beautiful in serenity
Mysterious and deep
Legions of secrets to keep

She was like the sea
Wild in its intensity
Vicious in her treachery
Savage as the waves can be

She was like the sea
dangerously captivating
Peaceful, strong, and comforting
Cold and yet alluring

She was like the sea
She will always be a part of me
She was like the sea
A poem about my mother.  So much about her, I found out after her death, was not what I thought.  So many secrets...so much I'll never know about her.
Jun 2017 · 611
In That Second
Laura Duran Jun 2017
You kissed her
A peck on the lips
It broke my heart
It seemed so natural
So comfortable
I knew then
There was no us
There never would be
In that second
I let you go
May 2017 · 393
Never ending
Laura Duran May 2017
I was thinking today
about circles
How beautiful they
can be
Never ending; continuous
Dependable and safe

Take my circle for instance
My circle of friends
Well mostly family
My closest people
The ones I love most
Beautifully diverse

Loving and kind
Not afraid to tell the truth
Hopeful and strong
Always there to help
Expecting nothing in return
Just my love and thanks

How lucky I am to have them
They....my circle, my guiding light
We may not always agree on things
We may sometimes argue
But we are always there for each other
Always will be

After all circles are never ending
I was surrounded by family today and very happy about it.
May 2017 · 1.7k
One Of The Best
Laura Duran May 2017
How easy it is to say "Happy Mother's Day!"
But to wish you a day full of goodness is not enough.
I want your every day to be filled with happiness.
I want you to feel how much I love you every minute
of every day....for always.

A mother should always be there for you.
A mother should always have your back.
She should be strong, yet kind.
She should teach by example, the kind of person
we should aspire to be....and you do.

You are a shining example of what a mother should be.
Not only for your beautiful daughters, but to me as well.
Thank you for being such a great mother.
Thank you for being my strength...my way....my sister.
I love you.
A Mother's Day poem for my favorite person.  I don't know what I'd do without her.
Apr 2017 · 1.7k
Loving Hands
Laura Duran Apr 2017
So soft and loving,
Your hands on my face
I felt special and warm
I knew you cared

So deft and strong
The way you kneaded dough
I learned at your hands
To feed those I love

With your hand in mine
I always felt brave
I could conquer any thing
A little squeeze was all it took

My hands on your face
Gentle and loving
I hope you felt special and warm
I hope you felt how much I cared


Your trembling hands
Would spill your food
So I fed you with the same
Hands that prepared your meal

Your hand in mine, I was still afraid
You couldn't give me that little squeeze
So trembling, I held tightly
Til my hands had to set you free
For my mother, whose hands I'll always remember
Mar 2017 · 780
Just As You Are
Laura Duran Mar 2017
You are not the wind in the trees
Nor the sweet summer breeze
You are not the stars that light the night
Or the sun shining bright

You're the reason I take notice of it all

You are not kisses in the rain
Make-out time on lovers lane
You're not dancing in the streets
Or dancing in the sheets

You're the reason I desire to

You're not the reason my heart beats
You're the reason for the speed
You're not the reason I survive
You're why I'm glad to be alive

Just as you are....I love you
Mar 2017 · 523
I Am
Laura Duran Mar 2017
I am....pretty.
I am....smart.
I am....kind.
I am....funny too,
but.....I'm not...her.

I am your friend.
I help you in all things.
I put you first.
I make you laugh too,
but....I'm not...her.

I will never be what you want.
I will always be lacking.
I will always be your friend.
Wasting my life waiting for your love.
but...it will never come.

I am strong....
I am worthy...
I am enough...
I'm happy too...
and....I am loved...by me.
Feb 2017 · 528
You
Laura Duran Feb 2017
You
It was....yet it shall never be.
How is that possible?
It is when you have an imagination like mine.
Days full of adventure.
Nights full of passion.
In the arms of the perfect lover.
You.

The way you look at me,
A look of pure love.
The way you touch me,
So soft it makes me shiver.
I've never felt this way before.
My soul mate.
You.

I can be in your arms,
any time I wish it.
Just close my eyes and there we are,
Entwined....lips touching lips.
Warm breath on my neck.
My own perfect world.
You.

Reality, a thief that steals my dreams.
Reminding me that I'm alone.
Whispering that your heart is hers.
Your eyes, full of love, see only her face.
Her smile is only for you.
You.

Doesn't matter.  
I'll just find a quiet moment.
I'll close my eyes.
There we'll be....laughing, loving.
It is, though it shall never be.
You're mine...for as long as I want it.
You.
Jan 2017 · 843
I Couldn't March Today
Laura Duran Jan 2017
I couldn't march today
but I was with you
I thank you my sisters and brothers
for standing up for what is right

I couldn't march today
but I was with you
In my heart I stood with you all
Fighting for equality

Equality for all
Every man, woman, and child
Black, white, brown....every shade of beautiful
Every religion, or none at all

I couldn't march today
but I was with you
All my nasty women
All men of quality who marched for equality

I couldn't march today
but I was with you
Every child that raised their voice
and marched for their future

I heard you!  
I will not forget the sound of your cry!
I will remember forever the sight
of my sisters and brothers marching....united!

This is only the beginning
That much is true
Let those that oppose us know it!
You let them know today!

I am so thankful for each and every one of you!
For every sign, every battle cry, every step!
For fighting for your rights as well as mine.
I couldn't march today....but you did and I thank you.

From the bottom of my heart
For myself and all who couldn't be there
in body, but stood with you in spirit....
Thank you so much.
Laura Duran Jan 2017
fingertips tentative on blushing cheeks•gentle warmth for blossoming kisses•a sigh escapes as our lips tenderly touch•shivers dance on my naked skin•eyes closed, the moon trembles•stars explode as tongues entwine•lost in the touch of your caresses•sensations of nervous anticipation•fingertips paint glistening skin•heated blood rushing, bodies blushing•deep moaning breaths as hands explore•modesty replaced by uninhibited desires•lips brushing the soft ivory neck•teeth detecting a hot rushing pulse•taken by surprise at my eagerness•an unashamed longing to please•her back arching with aching yearning•giving herself up, surrender so beautiful•sweet blinding tension quickly intensifies•with ****** cries, i unconsciously call your name•my mind explodes into bright oblivion•in echoes of her shuddering fulfillment•thunder recedes into candle lit night•in quivering gasps, i breathe you in•your now familiar skin so close and warm•collapsing in deep honeyed afterglow•untangling each other to gentle caress•with knowing glances, we'll sleep-in tomorrow
Jan 2017 · 265
I Want This
Laura Duran Jan 2017
With a tenderness that surprises me
you take me in your arms

Slowly you kiss my cheek
and whisper in my ear "Your call"

It's up to me.....yes....no....
Your fingers trace my jaw....lightly

I know how this will end....but...
I want this

I kiss your chin....and...it...is....on
Too late, There's no turning back

Tomorrow will come with it maybe regret
but....I want this

The look in your eyes is intense
You say "I'm gonna take my time with you"

I shiver with anticipation of
what's to come

For a moment...a brief moment
I am fear and nerves...then you kiss me

All fear is gone, in its place....desire
I want this

I close my eyes and I finally say it
"I want this"

No turning back now
tomorrow be ******

I want this
Jan 2017 · 730
The Opposite Game
Laura Duran Jan 2017
Yesterday.....tomorrow
Happiness........sorrow
Promises..........­broken
Warmth.............frozen

Full heart.........empty shell
Heavens bliss....lonely hell
Future plans......hopes fade
Loves light.....eternal shade

Living a nightmare....Another day dawns
A deafening silence....learn a new song
Anger, self blame.................I finally see
Threw me away..............I'm finally free!
Jan 2017 · 288
You Never Looked
Laura Duran Jan 2017
I wasn't looking for it
still....I found love
Like a sweet dream
that I couldn't quite reach

I tried to let it go
still....I hung on
Like a simple fool
I waited for you to see me

You never even looked.

I was only ever a friend
still....I cherished our moments
Like a faithful side kick
I waited for your attention

I watched as you fell for another
still....I thought you'd come to your senses
Like in the movies, we'd find forever
You'd finally see me

You never even looked.
Jan 2017 · 511
Three years
Laura Duran Jan 2017
It's been three years to the day
I remember it was very cold
I was surrounded by family
Still, I've never felt so alone

It's been three years to the day
Sometimes it still feels unreal
I still expect to see you
Will I ever truly heal?

It's been three years to the day
That I kissed you goodbye
Three years and I'm still hurting
I still feel lost and I still cry

It's been three years to the day
Three years and it feels like forever
We keep going, one day at a time
Hoping some day we'll again be together


God give us the strength to face our lives without our dad.
May we see him again in heaven.   Amen.
Dec 2016 · 447
When I See You
Laura Duran Dec 2016
When I see you
When I don't
I could tell you
but I won't
When I see you
I could cry
Still I'm laughing
Don't know why
When I see you
Do you see me?
God I miss you
Can it be?
When I see you
I'll confess
I can't see you
What a mess
When I see you
but I don't
Best forget you
but I won't
Laura Duran Dec 2016
I am....ordinary....I cannot boast about any particular talent.
I can sing alright....babies fall asleep when I sing to them.
I can write a little....but if I'm being honest, there's room for improvement.
I'm a pretty good cook....still not the best in the family, but I'm willing to put in the work and learn from the best so jury still out on this one.

I'm not hilarious....my jokes are on the corny side, but I still get a few laughs.
I grew up poor....hell....still am.
Poorly educated....but still a bit articulate....I read a lot.
I'm just a girl from the "wrong side of the tracks"....but I lack the toughness to live up to that title.

I don't want to bore you, so I'll leave it here for now.
Before I take my leave, I should say that I'm okay.
I'm not hating on myself, I'm just saying...this is me.

I'm the chubby friend....okay okay fat friend....always have been.
I'm the girl most guys banish to the friend zone....not sure why I look just like Jennifer Lopez....if you squint your eyes and turn your back on me.  (I told you....corny jokes)
Any way, I digress....I was  saying....This....is....me....and....I kinda like me.
A little something I wrote so you can get to know me a little better.
Dec 2016 · 391
I Wait
Laura Duran Dec 2016
I wait....for the moment when I see your face again
I wait....for the healing that will come with the sound of your voice
I wait....to breathe again

I long....for the feel of your hand on my face
I long....for the warmth of your embrace
I long....to feel whole again

I find a reason....to smile every day
I find a reason....not to cry myself to sleep every night
I find a reason....to believe in miracles

I hope....that I am worthy of your love when at last we meet
I hope....that I make you proud
I hope....you know how much I love you

I know....I will see you again
I hold on....to that thought

I have to......
If I don't....I will break

I can't fall apart
I am depended on.....so....I wait.
Next page