There is nothing better than to love,
And to be loved in return.

Dearly Beloved we gather here today,
Not to celebrate a lovely matrimony,
But to celebrate loss,
A death that touches us every day,
And will do so for the rest of our lives.

Dearly Beloved we mustn't cry,
Not shed a single tear,
We can't nor should we.

Dearly Beloved the death amugst us,
The death I speak of is the death of love,
The death of compassion and kindness,
The death of good all riped from the world far too soon.
Now that it's gone we are left with no emothion,
Left to our sociopathic tendencies,
Left to ourselves,
Left hoping one day these people,
Love, comapsion, kindness and everything good,
Hoping that they will return to make us better again,
So Dearly Beloved I leave you with this,
The tool to bring them all back from the dead,

It's but a smile they said and looked around.
But someday the Dearly Beloved may understand,
It's the small things on a big scale that makes the world good and that's disappearing.

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Having
Ultimate
Grief
   well sometimes  Or can mean this
       Hiding
       Ugly
       Guilts

Today I am alone,
Sick with a temperature of 100,
Left here to care for myself,
Left to neglect myself,
For no one else is willing to take challenge,
Challenge of loving me and caring for me,
So I lay alone with cold shivers shooting down my spine,
Wishing and wandering amongst thoughts,
Thoughts of if you were here,
Thoughts of why you're not,
So I lay alone drifting into sleep,
With sleep I'm no longer sick but you're here,
Dreams of you every moment I rest my tired eyes,
I will dream of you,
Wishing and wandering,
I will think of you.

Everyone has an idea of a person that is perfect for them,
How they look,
How they act,
Seldom do people truly find this person,
For me, my perfect girl is a shorter blonde,
Blue eyes that would light up the room,
A body that is neither thin nor fat,
A loving, giving and forgiving person,
A girl that makes good decisions,
No drugs or alcohol,
Perhaps a smart girl,
Smart enough to make me wrong sometimes,
Skin soft as silk but maybe tanned,
A girl to make me feel special even when I know I'm not,
I've never seen this girl I speak of,
But I found someone better,
You don't fit a single thing I just said,
You drink and party,
Get okay grades in school,
You have brown hair and auburn eyes,
You make me feel terrible in silence that you create,
Yet I still have loved you more than anyone,
More than my life it's self in which I'd give to you in a moment,
You've surpassed my expectations,
While not meeting a single one,
But I love you and always will,
Even if you hurt me I will love you...

It's all an act,
The smiles I send to those that pass me in the hall,
The ex girlfriends I once said I loved,
The laughs and chuckles,
Almost any conversation that someone holds meaning to,
It was all an act,
There is only one person in this god forsaken world;
A single person I didn't have to put on an act for,
That person was you,
But when I took off my mask,
Showed my true face you turned the other way,
In silence you left me naked with no mask to hide me,
All the truth came out and I'm left in silence,
Still loving you through this pain,
Still there when you are in trouble,
Always thinking of and loving you,
With my emotion loose,
Running ramped through my heart,
Like a wild animal through a burning jungle,
My mask broken now,
The act must go on,
I will go on...