fair skinned and lonely,
I let you damage the thin barrier between
you and myself with each word and whisper of "I love you,"
until nothing was left but a cancerous being,
malignant and self destructive.

it's gotten to
the point
where
i can't even think
about
you because my
mind starts
this
cycle
where i see
you with
other people
breathing
their
air
laughing while
they laugh
and
living life
without
me
there and
i can't *******
stand it

I knew that loving you was like willingly jumping into a lake with cement blocks tied to my feet,

but I had always wondered what it felt like to drown.

the last time you saw me I was sitting beside you by a fire you had made,
except this time I was there with someone who wasn't you.

I was with the boy on the other side of me,
who was grabbing my thigh and then fiddling with my hand.

you barely looked at me,
but I looked at you.
the fire illuminating your face,
it sent a tingle down my spine.

the last words you mumbled to me made me feels things I wish I could forget.
(it was nice seeing you again)

you used to love the taste of my name on your tongue,
until summer rolled around and your taste buds changed.
however,
my mouth still waters.

you took my innocence from me
and I'll never get that back
(but)
i made you feel,
and that's something you said you'd never do.