With tiny groans mind weeps
With hot tears shedding down
As steams of evaporated water
That boils in the pain of ceased
Love and concern from the one
For whom the soul lives
and
Heart beats!!

The roads I tread seem like well-worn track
Of my routine walks on daily pact
Turns each I take are path I know best
Where shadows dance and stories flow!!

In the routes I choose on grounds familiar
lies the comfort and Peace of my walk
yet there’s always a shunning face that stares at me.
A sober gaze reflecting back!!

The fixed routine hears a silent plea
a whispered word to break the Mould
unheard loud, yet I pause and take a breath
And step beyond the endless loop!!

Amid the paths well-known I stand alone
eyeing to find new ways-
that new roads may call
And fresh routes may lead
to plant my step on unknown ground
and let my soul show my path…………!!

I was a child, a tiny bird
Grooming fragile wings and dreams
Hoping to live and to soar
To feel the warmth of everything good
And you... none knew, yet you did !!

But in my imperfections
Your pride saw me unmatched for you
With swords of words, you slashed my wings
Cut my heart, left me wounded
A spectacle for others to scorn
Head bowed, flight stolen, forever !!

No tears then—only pain
Lingering, pulsing through every breath
No fault of mine, no harm done
Yet I bore the weight of your fire
A silent ember you never noticed !!

Esteem, confidence, joy—all forgotten,
Now just words, echoes of who I was
My heart still burns, scarred and stained
A shadow of someone I should have been.
What was my crime finding the good in you?

Despite it all, I still see you as good!!

Sometimes, it cuts too deep
A wound beyond time’s heal
What hurts more is realizing
Who hurt, and who is hurt —
Both adored by me…!!

The pain of being wronged,
When there’s no fault to justify
Leaves an endless echo of sorrow.
And enduring each moment,
through toughest of trials,
As the pain refuses to ease !!

Every glance at the one in pain
Still inflicts much more in me - pain
When the eyes shine with care
Towards the hurter,
though shadowed by hurt..

And as a silent witness,
So helpless
Every ounce of pain I see
Drowns me down
to Bottom of Earth!!

Come...let me give you a hug
To take your pain as mine
For I can't see you burn in pain...

I need you
As my strength
For my health
As my wealth
For my sheath
As my breath
Till my death!!

The withering petals
Of the roses
Reminds me of eternal truth
Nothing is eternal
Including my youth...

Heart to heart romance
Or heart wrenching heart breaks
The only person I can write about
without a second thought
Is YOU!!

THE EVER ILLUMINATING LIGHT
FOR ME TO WRITE!!

The little drops of rain
That drowns down my face plain
Reminds me of your touch
Making me stand still as such.

Monsoon brings memories with a smile
Beautiful thoughts of you and me for a while
Together,  in the wilderness of wood and green,
And the little sounds of flies leading me scream…
 
I’m missing your compassionate look
By which you almost had me took
Yearning for your arrival most soon
By spending my nights looking at moon….

Come on dear, I need you here
And if you don’t have me hear
I may not remain on this earth
May be then...you will realize my worth…

I know I can't have you..
Still my mind resists giving upon you..
Will I have to give upon you??
Decision depends upon you ...

My hair dances
To tunes of your breath
My body moves
To the feel of your touch
And it makes me look beautiful
While at the most
Beautiful place  for me
on the earth -  your arms!!

In the twisted interprets I make
In the tiny fights I create
In the romantic look I give
In the emotional words I speak
In the angry faces I pretend...
There's only my love for you
That flows from the deepest of my heart....
In different forms!!

Roots of my dreams
Dried up
And my wings been chopped
Why did I allow it be done?

Shouldn't I have  stood up
Watered, nurtured my dreams to grow
And let it fly in the unlimited Sky!!

Trying to make loved ones happy
Has cost me , my happiness
For the sacrifices I did on my own
Made them happy....
But where's my happiness??

Time is up...I realise
To make me happy
And live my life
And here you have come
As messenger
From father in heaven....
To show me that heaven on Earth!!

I believe....now its my time
My life...I need to live!!

Fought with you for a reason so trifle
I cried meekly, then loudly
Burst out with tiny whispers
Led it out hysterically
Flung out not just alone utensils
But all that came handy...

You remained a silent spectator
To all my spectacle…
Thus again provoking me for no reason
But you remained still silent to the core...
Might, you felt come what may ready to bear….

Tired of all the drama...
Dispersed all feelings of melodrama
Took to set right all things flown
Eliminated the clouds over grown …
Set Surrounding and emotions all clear...

With a realization crystal clear….
Silence sometimes is the best solution
To many a problems.....

Your anger on me
Your hunger to **** me
All for a minutes time
For the mistake of mine
That I don't decline
Is understandable to me
As your botheration for me !!

Independence....
The most emotional word
Bringing memories of martyrs
Bhagath Singh to Mahatma Gandhi...
The struggle for freedom  to breath
The air of  liberated  great Indian soil
From the colonial imperialism...

The wars waged...blood shed
For a free India
Is a gift of the generation old
To the generation next..
To see  the self dependent India...
Ruled boldly but not rudely ....
In the path of democracy....
With prayers, for non demo of craziness any so...

Wish Long live Indian democracy...

In a corner of my heart
There occurs a fight
Is it right?
Or should I do it right?
Is it wrong?
And should I refrain from
Being wrong?
Am I being fooled
Or am I fooling myself?
Sometimes it’s a joy
But happiness ends with tears
And I be able to bear
That remains as my fear
Little fights and kidding anger
Makes me a girl, I cherish
But AM I right
Or aM I wrong?
You tell me…

Sitting at a distance,
I see a smile
A stranger’s smile
A bit strange too-I understand,
But how to read that smile?
Is it genuine? And
How to read that mind?

What does that mind think?
Behind unheard whispers
Is it mocking?
Or admiring, on impressed
Ever even thinks of me?
May be of someone else
Or something else silently?
Yet, I see the smile at me
Directing a warmth!

Well, why should I worry
On what that mind thinks,
When I have nothing to do
with whatever be the thoughts
Of anyone else,
Notably of a stranger
As
I can only be myself
With no compromise!!

Disturbed mind of
Mounting work pressure
Seeking solace in the arms of
words to flow in the rhythm
of emotions !

Inexpressible something
Hurts  me so deeply
Able to do nothing
Than cry meekly
This happens every week
Leaving me so weak
Is it my feeling of loneliness??
Or feeling of emptiness??

Deep hurts finds it's words
Understandable only
To paining souls!!

Sailing hopelessly
On silent stagnant sea
Dark clouds stretch wide
Within and beyond
the limits of my view.
yet, the sail persists
parallel to the endless sky...!!

At times, tiny clouds burst
Couple of it clearing away
And there is sudden brightness
Eyes widening in the glow
As along with stars high above
You arrive, igniting darkness
With a touch of fireworks...!!

Though, brightness wane
after a fleeting moment
the echo of light paves my way
With glimmers of hope
To sail and chase
the endless Horizon
And beyond!!

Some days are like that
Nothing happens right
However you may try
Even with a cry...!!

Stood alone
In the wilderness of the darkened  thoughts
That ravaged my peace of mind
With sight of light no where near
With none of my friends so dear
And family for whom I'm dear..
Alone I stood
Like the sky
Without the stars, moon and the sky
All alone darkly clouded...

Waiting for light..
to set everything right!!

Silence blossomed in me
In the darkest colours of my nature
Of Un withering petals adamant enough
To withstand the hurricane of  thoughts
And remain guileless in the chilling memories
Undrenched in the profound rain  of tears
And linger plumped up in the scorching heat of  piercing worries
My silence. ......eternal !!

I want freedom
Freedom to fly
Freely like a bird
On the wings of my dreams
To the destinations I most like
With no questions asked
No answers to be told
To how when where and why..

I want freedom...
Freedom to be my self...

Two souls at distances apart
As destiny distanced as part
Like souls of different bodies
still connected with string of love
That grows with glow, visible
solely to the souls that lay afar
known alone to hearts, so sensitive
beating for each other
breathing for one another….
Yearning to be together !!

You are my pillar..
To lean on
To hold on...
To support
To stand firm !!

You are my life
My love
My breath
My heart
And it's beat !!

You are my sun
Whom I rotate around
You are my days
You are my nights..!!

You are ...
My treasure
To be Proud of
For myself !!

You are mine for me...
But you are not mine!!
That's the irony
For me!!

Confused mind
Of  infused thoughts
Leaving pain undefeatable!!

In
Mind or body...??

Too confused!!

Road that leads as way to destination
For the happy and content
And to nowhere, for restless wanderer
Is seen adorned by trees on either side!
The Trees dance in breeze
While leaves rustle to tune of wind
Seemingly sharing their joy and sorrow,
Unheard and unseen by the outer world!

What secrets do they share
Is it of hurrying travelers who
Seldom enjoy their beauty
Or of the weary who rest at their feet?
Is it the laughter that lingers in their path?
Or the silence that stays through!!
Is it of the changing seasons
Or of the marvels they witness?

Hard to voice and harder to understand
But still in their long silent standing
lies their umpteen untold stories
hidden to the depth of their roots
That make them stand firm and straight
across all changing seasons!!

I love myself
You call me selfish ?
No bother...
It's self love...
If I don't love me...
Who else will??
Will you???

Left corner of  my left eye
Lets down little drops of lovely tears
Leaving  dried salt on my dull face
Landing on the earth..
Loudly conveying to mind
Love it holds .....
Like, the pain of mind
Like the tears from eyes!!

You and me are one
And is no fun
Though known to none
Under the sun. !!

Tried  a hand in writing comedy
Gave it to friend to read  ready
Awaiting what her response bears
I saw her eyes fill with tears
Felt happy with instant hit of comedy
She replied " your best of all tragedy"

I stopped writing comedy...

Treat yourself well
As you deserve it so well
For you are an original one
With shadow of none !!

Some sort of ache
like a silent storm
strikes me deep within
defying words to depict!!

It clouds my mind,
and stings my core
And, if you ask what it is
I have no words to say!!

You may call it “nothing”
but it’s far from there
It’s everything and more
A burden that’s hard to share!!

The heaviness unseen
pushes me to darkness
quietly sweating the eyes
and like a shadow it grows
feeding on my fears!!

"No pain, no gain" – they say
but for me, it’s only pain
with no gain to count or claim
The truth I quietly bear
Mirroring who I am!!

I love those ones
Who love silence
For...
I always admire silence ..
As silence speaks a lot .....
If understood ...!!

Sea shells on seashore
Shine under bright sun
Stray dogs walk and bark
Few with pieces of bones mouthful
coloured umbrella house two heads
One on the other ready to fall
Steam flying peanuts
Surrounded by kids and matured
Striplings walk like on moon
with boundless joy
Far from other side vibrant tide
Rushes to cast its cheer on all....
Happiness all over....

Few faces on sand gaze fixed
on sky and stars
Few eyes shed tears blended to waters of sea
Painful mind set sight perched to the evolving tide
Some inclined to end breath along with roaring waves...
Darkness spreads.....
Two sides of a coin....

Flesh torn open
In the centre of heart
Makes me run around
Like a drunken mad ox
Out of pain....

Why have you inflicted on
Me so harsh a pierced drill
In the midheart...
Don’t you understand
It's feebleness.. ??
And
where you stayed safe so long !!

Will I survive ?

Met on a rainy day
Together we stood
With tiny parasol over head
Shielding each other
From the downpour
Of the magnificent monsoon rain!!

You held me tight
To your shoulder on right
I felt the warmth of your love

And in that .....

I lost myself
forever!!!

I like to
Laugh out loud at even silly comedy
Do small helps unasked to needy
smile to the ones who lack wits
Make friends with innocent kids
Have silly fights with besties
beg to talk again,calling them testies
Compel him to accompany for walk
walk away with friends leaving him back
Stand to get drenched in the rain
And Pull him too to play in the rain
Many a tiny wishes like this
Happy to have fulfilled, writing like this.

Cup your cheeks
rub on your lips
Get pricked by beard
Rest on your chest
And lose my every sense !!

I want you to love me....
And me alone...to love you!!

I laugh
Laugh out loud
Painting a cheerful smile..
Springing two drops of tears
Fall from my eyes
Glittering and dazzling
Like smoothed diamond stones
But none will know
It's not the happy diamonds
But sad rough edged indian rock salt
Out ....having my heart torn apart!!

I'm
Not....
What you think me of...

I'm
what..
I'm made up of..