Caitlin

Caitlin Aug 2014

That's what you called it-
with that lovely little smirk on your face.
I should have know then the conversation was not
headed in the right direction.
The way you "classified" our night of cuddles and laughter-
as a one night stand.
I thought we were working things out-
that you were going to take a chance.
I should have known you were too much of a calculated person for that.
The risk was too great.

#love #poem #hate #pain #night #boys #one #stand #confusing

Caitlin Aug 2014

PSA (5WS)

Stop ******* with my emotions

#poem #hate #pain #loss #annoyed

Caitlin Aug 2014

Fingertips

People talk about lovers touches lingering,
long after they leave.
I always found that concept absurd.
It wasn't until I crawled out of your bed at 3 am-
with sleep in my eyes and a smile on my face-
did this concept make sense to me.
I could still feel your thumb tracing circles on my back-
and for once I felt at peace.

#poem #life #happiness #cute #cuddles

Caitlin Aug 2014

Beliefs and Character

If you believe in the "capital G" God-
good for you.
If you believe in God(s) plural-
good for you.
If you believe God correlates to the flying Santa in the sky-
good for you.
Believe in whatever you want to.
That is your right as a human being.

But do not- I repeat-
DO NOT!-
Think that because you have a belief system,
it makes you better than those who don't.
You are not any smarter-
or held at a higher standard than those who chose not to believe.
If you can choose to believe, they can choose to disbelieve.

#poem #life #hate #religion #rant #sorrynotsorry

Caitlin Aug 2014

Late Night Rambles

I can't sleep- and I'd like to think you are still up too.
But I know you aren't.
You are curled up in bed with the smell of her perfume
acting like a lullaby.
I'm not saying I miss you-
that would be silly.
I'm the one that ended things.
I'm not sure I ever really missed you
Just the feelings I once had-
you reminded me that I could in fact love someone.
Looking for those feelings is what keeps me up at night.
I know you are asleep because you have found those feelings
with her.

#love #poem #sad #pain #loss #longing #sleeplessness

Caitlin Aug 2014

Lovers Remorse

I want to be selfish.
I want to tell you I started talking to you for a reason.
That I felt that spark-
that was no lie.
Being around you made me blush crimson,
and made my heart flutter in such a way-
that I had only felt once before.
I want to apologize-
for running away from the butterflies.
I just couldn't bear to watch them die- *again

#love #poem #sad #pain #loss

Caitlin Aug 2014

Needs

I don't need someone to sweep me off my feet
or be my knight in shining armor-
and fight off my depression for me.

All I need is someone who will stay with me-
on the days of sunshine and laughter,
and more importantly-
on the days I hate everything, including myself.
I need someone to stick around and befriend my dark cloud.

#love #poem #sad #depression #needs