How ungrateful that I told the stars about you

How you shine bright as the moonlight

How your smile lifts up all positivity

How warm your hands when you hold mine

How your voice like a melody to my ears

How ungrateful that I told the stars about you..but you never did the same

Whenever I'm happy,
I paint
Whenever I'm lonely,
I paint
Whenever I'm alone,
I paint
Whenever I'm broken,
I paint

You see,
my artworks depicts me.

Whenever I meet new people
I look on their eyes
To see truth
To be aware

Maybe this is what past made me
Anxiety to be betrayed again

I smile
I laugh
I function

Everything was in control
Living my life like I used to
Waking up every morning
Like a normal thing to do

Getting along with people around me
Doing my task as a person
I thought I was fine
Then it started,

I wake up feeling those emptiness
That made me want to go back to sleep
I distant my self from people
Losing my passion in an instant

Then every night,
Darkness has been my best pal
Anxiety never leave me
I don't know anymore what living a life is

The funny thing is,
I never knew I was bleeding
Until it kills me

Looking above,
I see those moons and stars
Reminds me of you
Place in darkness but still shines
Always remember that
I will never get tired looking at you

Inside me
Seeking for you
Trying to find the your light
For me to be right

But, I need your guidance
I can't just do this by myself
I need you.
To have your way inside me

Help me come back to you, Lord.