past few months,
im just barely living
eating, sleeping , & just reading
im all sad & exhaust.
doesn’t have the reason to be happy at all
my body can’t feel the excitement anymore
am i that sad?

everything will surely change
because nothing in this world is permanent
however,  it’s still a matter of choosing between
it is what it is
or
change to have the best and less regrets

always been the wall
never been the one who lean’s on

we should never settle for less
for we deserve nothing but the best
however, we become so dense
to people who are not worthy for our self

don’t tell me you like me
just because you’re lonely
don’t tell i matter
just because i’m here
don’t tell me you miss me
just because you’re not talking to anyone
don’t tell I am pretty
just because you’re seeking for a girl
don’t tell me to stay
just because you need an accompany
don’t tell anything
if you can’t stay with me up until the end

maybe we’ve met
not just to stay to each other forever
but to remind us
that despite of the distance,
love will still bloom

they say
if you want to see
what someone fears losing,
watch what they photograph
then i remembered
you've taken a lot of pictures of me
but i realized
i never did the same
so maybe it really ended
cause im no good for you

you were the most unexpected
yet you are the most painful
I’ve hurt you in the biggest forms
I mean, i destroyed you
In the days we’ve been together
you showed me what is it like to be taken care of
but i don’t know why my heart
suddenly fell out of love

Why do people leave some at the end hanging?
It’s a question that I wanted to be answered
Since the day you left me wondering
Why we stopped talking

raindrops - reminds me of you
for it is so beautiful to see
even when it means, its breaking down already
but still, after its down point
rainbows will be seen

you could’ve been my best
yet
i still chose the worst

i was longing for love
it’s actually been years already
but i’ve realized
that up until now
maybe there isn’t anyone
because the love i should have-
should start within myself

some are desperate looking for love
and they seem to forget,
that they should love, not because they’re sad

sun will soon rise up,
and i am here laying on the bed & thinking about life
why is it so cruel?
why is it so harsh?
we all just want to be happy and at peace
but why does it seems so hard to be achieved?

why do people change?
is it because we’ve changed also?
or just because they met someone new,
& probably someone better to us?

why do people change?
it ***** overthinking it
we’re on one page before
now we’re on the edges of our own sits

why do people change?
i always asked myself that
it’s a bit strange
because we are creating sentences & eventually,
you already marked a dot.

why do people change?

the wound doesn’t hurt anymore
it just needs some compression
to satisfy and prove
that its actually okay