Please excuse me if I’m loyal to you in every aspect
And think that your mind is what deserves my respect
If I hold you in high esteem because of the opinions you hold
Instead of the sight my eyes behold

Please excuse me if my self-esteem takes a hit
Every time you call another girl fit
If my heart breaks and I can’t help but condemn
All the comment you make about them

Am I not beautiful to you?

my body is a temple.
the sacred walls of the ancient city are burning
the entire citadel is collapsing into ruins
the broken pieces of the debris of my heart are scattered around
the flames are bursting like an asteroid collision
who am I?
my demons are hissing in the rotten depths of my soul,
trying to escape this burning inferno
the temple is disintegrating..
everything holy has been drained from my bones
nothing left to worship.
help me.
chaos is growing in my ribcage as the temple is falling apart
the ashes of my forgotten dreams are rumbling through this wreckage.
the temple has been destroyed.
who am I?

I was young and I was hurt
Somehow you swept me off my feet
There was something about your golden eyes
And the way you wanted me

I was infatuated with you
I feel in love too deep
To the point where I was below the tide
Without you I couldn't breathe

Then one day I was hurt again
By yet another lover
But this time was different than before
Because this time I didn't recover

This time it broke my spirit
And this time changed my perception towards love
This time your apologies and promises
Would never be enough

I tried to move past it
Believe me, I wanted to move on
But something about you still in my life
Felt so desperately wrong

Your love for me has grown
And you are a better man today
But despite all of your new found qualities
Those memories and that hurt still remain

You take my hand and all you ask
Is that I try to love you in return
But I can't bring myself to agree
To say 'I love you' nearly burns

This aching in my heart
Causes a throbbing in my head
I contemplate and argue with myself
I want to live with you, but you make me feel dead

My body is living, I am here
Trying to feel things I did once
Fighting with myself against these
Demons that replaced my love

I don't know if this is a battle
Worth fighting anymore
I've been trying to push you away
But you stay and I don't know what for

I say things and I hurt you
Like cannons in a war
But you continue to stand there
And you lay down your sword

You try to get closer to me
You ignore these land mines I lay down
All of my tactics and all of my walls
Do not prevent you from gaining ground

And in a sense I hate myself
For allowing you to stay
Knowing how much I hurt you
And letting you live this way

So much hurt, so much pain
You'd never know it by just a glance
You'd never feel her timid fear of you
While you shake her hand

You'd never know she was touched and abused
By the smile she gives you
And you'd never think twice about her innocence
Because of the way she moves you.

You'd never know of her fear of men
Because she seems so bold
But appearances can be misleading
And her eyes do not tell the story of her soul.

Alone deep inside
She sits and she wonders
Where her heart and soul have ran off to
And why they left without her.

I think I love the stars so much
because they remind me
how small I am
and how weakly I shine

I've never loved
And I don't think I ever will
Too afraid to share my feelings
Even to myself

i was hoping you would take
everything from inside me at
least         swallow  part  of  it
because i've taken   bullets to
my legs   mostly from myself
because i was too  b  i  g   too
small     too too too too much
for my  own  skin  to  handle
that i thought about          the
roundness       beneath      my
surface everysecondof  every
dayuntil i  learned to despise
circles and buy everything in
smallboxesandnarrow    lines
where i hope to fit one day is
your glucose enough for you
is your steak justrightdo you
want another slice of cake do
you  want  to  be  a   w h o l e
planet or a piece  of cotton in
the wind do you want to  eat
me do youwant to eat me do
you want to eat me  until i'm
whole                              again