like a late winter afternoon
as the sun heads for the west to its final resting place
daunting and confused here I am
faced with questions
the beat my heart used to skip turned into dead rhythms
no longer yearning for it,
the forbidden fruit and the lustful desires
now I am faced with empty looks and deserted thoughts
the warm blood that used to rush through my veins, long gone and now left with a cold shivering body
my prayers held back by the walls of my empty thoughts and,
my faith now fatal
emotions scattered, feelings bleeding and thoughts running wild
this golden heart turned rock and cold
naked, scarred and bruised
cold ******

When my days were dark
and my friends few
With only the thought of you
Do you remember?
When I knocked on your door
seeking for your warm embrace
Do you remember?
How things used to be, the good morning texts and the random daily texts
Do you remember
We once promised infinity to one another
What I would like to know is, Do you remember?

Forever moving
never ceasing
Forever seeking
can't find it
Searching, hoping, pleading, bleading, crying
Black and bruised
On my knees
Head up high
Prayers unheard
Forever believing, never stopped hoping
Forever running, breath seeking
Legs numb
Heart pounding
Warm blood rushing through my cold body
Eyes wide awake
Something inside of me, kicking, screaming, pleading, bleading, crying
Forever moving
never ceasing
Forever seeking
can't find it

forever seeking
an isolated star, hovering unattached
effortlessly moving at times
yearns, desires, wants and needs
vulnerable, hesitant to resist
weak at times if not all times
feelings scattered, emotions deserted
passive actions
still seeking can't find it no more
praying to father god as though my prayers unheard
loud cries to the outer world blocked by the walls surrounding me
effortless attempts
still believing
never stopped hoping
yet bound by disappointments

"Rejoice" for time has brought me to you
Wandering in this world, swifting in circles like a deserted boat on a long forgotten island
Still yearning to harbour myself, as hope strengthens my believe
A star upon this great skies lead me to you as on the night our saviour was born
The gap between my heart and yours filled by our coloding thoughts
"Stay" for it is you I want
Tempted by temptations of forever desires
Revolting against time in this forever moving wave in this stormy seas on my way to find you
Mihlali "stay", as I "rejoice"

Unbounded by faith
Untamed by time
Distilled at times
Distined by miles
Synchronized heart beats
Like a ticking time bomb, so is  our love ready to explode
Adrenaline driven
Not yet sinking
Impossible at times
With the possibility of separating
Then we stand to think of what me and you stand to lose
Loving unconditionally to the infinity and beyond measures
So is our love

If angels were real
as you are a vision from above
Your sweet melodic voice sounding like music to my ears
Your snow white teeth complementing your golden brown eyes
Your lips at it's juiciest with red lipstick on
Your face reflecting your well crafted body
Those magical kisses and lustful stares
Heart pounding moments and passionate desires
Your image imprinted in my mind reminding me of the God send vision you are
As I pray to be released from the prison of my own thoughts with you as the prison guard
If this is just a dream
Please allow me to effortlessly scream
In your spell is where I am caught at

I love the way you wrap your eyes around me
Your kitten eyes, snow white smile and innocent face
I love the way you and I hold hands and talk for hours
Our deep empty stares; ending with passionate kisses
I love it when you call me baby
Your eyes must be a reflection of your love for me
It seems to be the only thing linking your heart to me
I love the way you and I make love
So passionate
I love the way you appear in my dreams; bringing about light into my dreams
You and I
Just you and I
Like lovers do

Yesterday's mistakes in vein
no more heartache and pain
Dancing rays of the pleasant sun
heading to the West
Birds cheerfully singing for the coming of a new day
As clouds gather upon the clear sky
bringing rain to wash yesterday's sins away
Here I stand; repenting all my sins upon the coming of a new day
As fresh air enters my nostrils aimed at my lungs
Refreshing my mind; imposing  positive thoughts
Rejoice for a new day has come!

here I stand
ripped out heart
broken soul
never could have imagined
or in denial; this is what it made me
still yearning for it- the heartbeat skipping, air seeking, andrenalin pumping yet deceiving moments
how could a golden heart stop beating?
a tender soul stop caring?
left with the results of loving unconditionally and until the infinity
a broken soul

Loving but never loved in return
loved but never returning
Same difference; no wait
who's foolingwho?
Learn to bear with it- the unpleasant shades of love
Stronger it will make you
or braver your heart will be
Yearning for its lustful desires; passionate kisses and rhythmic heart beats
Or is it broken hearts and cursed kisses?
Never last until eternity, promising to be until the infinity
still abstaining from reality
Truth is; your time has not yet come

more than what you are willing to give
doubtfully waiting to receive
kitten eye fooled and a fake smile too
giving but never receiving
now, is this what you call love?
handled you with care, fragile written in bold
what I thought were important
were just the odds and caution signs
irony, no wait; ironically, doubtfully, lustfully, foolishly
or just probably fooled by what we call love

Motivated by an empty stomach
with no trendy clothes in my cupboard
Just a healthy mind
ranking no.1 on the list of academic excellency
No means of pocket money
or milk and honey
Stopped hoping
but still dreaming
Persistent to smile
even though no bling
Living a low life
inspired by big dreams
Some call it poverty
For me, the cornerstone of Success

Chasing the impossible
yet thinking that it's possible
Is this what we have become?
Now look what you have done
A regret filled heart
or did I just fall too hard?
I gave my best
trying to restrain from the rest
It came naturally
now it died eventually
Was I not enough?
or was this love just too tough?
What was once my piece of luck
turned into bad luck
I guess my trying did not try hard enough
that's why we've become so messed up

Sometimes I'm weak
sometimes I'm strong.
Sometimes I'm wrong
sometimes I'm not.
It's just sometimes I don't know what to write

Our yesteday
gone with the  rain
I never saw this day coming
there were no signs
no signs of abuse
no signs of heart ache
no signs at all
now tell me
tell me why you had to leave so soon
gone is your smile
your scent
those shiny eyes
I never wanted this to happen
now you had to leave
ashes to ashes
you are no more
no more

your smile
your love
your touch
what for?
only heaven knows why
why u had to leave so soon
why I lost ur scent so quik
why u never told me this is not for ever
how I wish
you were still mine
you still next to me
you still love me
everything that was ceased to be