Death Lives Forever

I shall tread, another year,
  Ways I walked with Grief,
Past the dry, ungarnered ear
  And the brittle leaf.

I shall stand, a year apart,
  Wondering, and shy,
Thinking, "Here she broke her heart;
Here she pled to die."

I shall hear the pheasants call,
  And the raucous geese;
Down these ways, another Fall,
  I shall walk with Peace.

But the pretty path I trod
  Hand-in-hand with Love--
Underfoot, the nascent sod,
  Brave young boughs above,

And the stripes of ribbon grass
  By the curling way--
I shall never dare to pass
  To my dying day.

I don't care what everyone else thinks
When they see us together
And whisper to each other

I only care about the way you hold my hand
And laugh softly at a joke only you know
And smile the most genuine smile in the world

Because they haven't seen you like I have
At two in the morning
Making stupid jokes because you're tired.

They haven't felt you like I have
Pressed against my back
While your fingers run through my hair.

And they will never love you like I love you
With every fiber of my being
Forever.

I'm tired
Not physically
But mentally

I'm tired of becoming anxious
When you don't respond
And I'm left contemplating
All the awful things that could have happened.

I'm tired of not sleeping
Because my brain won't stop racing
Because you told me you weren't ok
Then refused to tell me why.

I'm tired of feeling sick
Because my heart beat won't slow down
Because you tell me there's nothing I can do
To help my best friend

But one thing I will never get tired of is you
The way you make me smile
And the way you make me laugh
And the way you support everything I do.

And I hope one thing above all else
That you won't take my worry to be nagging
That you will keep me in your life
Because I won't be able to handle it
If you get tired of me.

You should be here with me
My heart is as empty as the side of the bed that you used to sleep on
And my life's crashing harder than the waves on the shore like when you first kissed me
And I'm falling harder and faster into loneliness than I was when I fell for you
And I know there's no stopping this
But you should be next to me
Kissing each freckle on my arm and tracing "I love you" into my palm because each letter deserved it's own recognition for it made up a larger picture
And you should be next to me
With my head leaning onto the very shoulder I spent entire nights crying into
You should be beside me
But I guess this was all besides the point
And now you're next in line for a new girl
I just wish you would give me a next chance