It's suffocating
Deafening within

Shielded within solitude
Safe from the harmful rays of life
Growing stronger,
Changing,
Evolving

This is what it's all been about
Why I've struggled
Clinging onto my pitiful existence
Why I've crawled, hid, fought and lived
To enter this protective prison

And now I'll break free
Struggling once more to rid myself of my previous life
To leave behind this chrysalis
Ever slowly breathing new life

Alas,
I'm free
I'm beautiful


I'll spread my new wings and soar through the light
Gliding through life
Because I'm no longer that disgusting caterpillar you stepped on
No,
Now I'm a beautiful butterfly
Flying away from your reach
Flying onto a new life

Waiting for the bus
To take me away from this lovely ceremony
From this glorious day
Where we've spent so much of our life
It's all come to an end
As we toss our caps into the sky

Standing alone
Contemplating how it all played out
We impatiently waited
Couldn't contain our smiles as we crossed the stage
Beaming into the sea of faces as we held that piece of paper
As we all were one
For one last time

Holding back the tears
Silently hating everyone
Hating the loving parents who embraced their children
Loathing friends as they laughed with their families
Shattering inside as I watched alone

Pretending the next day
That nothing happened
Swallowing bitter accusations    
Forcing the tears deep inside
Lying,
Saying that yesterday was no big deal

Laughing at the irony
I've celebrated such day with a different family
Ate and laughed with people I barely knew
Receiving love from parents that weren't mine

Smiling
It's all I can to to not break down
To not drown in the garbage of it all
Holding the diploma that my family will never see
Never forgetting going alone and leaving alone from my own graduation
Never forgetting the day my family chose to turn their back on me
Never forgetting the day I stood alone,
Waiting for the bus to take me home

A twinkle
A tear
The mere thought of you
Can't help but to smile

Down memory lane every night
Retelling the same old story
Yet the flame never dims
The fire keeps on blazing

Like the stars up above
You shine on

This  golden band
The mark of the life you left behind
Of the story left unfinished

Though like these petals you'll whither away
You still live on
Smiling, breathing, existing
Because although I may cry
I know you're still here
With me

A twinkle
A tear
May the years pass on
But I'll still be smiling when I think of you

For a lie
The price I pay
Is my bliss
I'll nurture this distortion
Encourage you to spin the web
To accept the false

For my freedom
I'll trade this imprisonment for another
Put my life on the line,
To be free of your sight
To not hear your voice
I'll carry this new burden with pride
Embrace the hardships of a fake freedom

For peace
I'll take these insults in silence
Bite my tongue till blood spills
Swallow my pride so that you won't
I'll turn my back on all I know

For a life
I'll never look back
Holding my chin up high as suppressed tears run freely like my soul
I'll look on ahead
To the sky where my heart will soar
For a smile
I'll give it all up
For a chance to be happy
I'll keep on living

Humanity
Has lost its way
Forgotten what it meant to live
Greed rules the lands
Hate divides
And ignorance shackles

Humanity
Has began to die
Corruption reigns with an iron fist
Can't seem to find the light amongst the fog of evil
To give power to those that would lead to healing

Humanity
It means we'll all rot
To be herded by the lies of the media
Beauty is the only way
Thin is beauty
Shallow is beauty
Fraud is beauty
To be separated by outdated prejudice
Gays are sinners
White is the true superior race
Money can buy anything,
Even love
To be set on a road of self destruction
Poverty is for the lower class
Intelligence is for the weak
Individuality is for the outcasts

Humanity
Has forgotten what it means to be human
To find the balance
Love without fear
Fight the injustice for freedom of thought,
Freedom to be unique,
Freedom to live,
To live with a purpose

A purpose
That's what Humanity has lost