Amazing how for no reason//
Everything will remind me of her//
And all this weight I carry on my spine//
Breaks my mind in two//
The past//
The present//
The what-ifs//
The colors of reality move in slow motion//
Just like the memory reel playing in my head//
Lost in thought and talking to ghosts//
These headaches don't go away anymore//
I'm drowning in the deserts of my mind//
Let it go, hold on, it's all the same
Sterile and stoic madness, shame//
I lay down and dream to never wake//

Oh these dreams have made my eyes feel hollow and heavy
Ready to lay to rest, regrets and remorse of yesterday
Pulled in every which way 'til pulled no more
Every piece of peace wrought 'til crushed
Meaningless words found meaningless
Words meaning less and less
Lest freedom be found
Alone I walk away
From my self
Myself

Draw out the bitterness and depression,
forgive me for making myself a *****, God,
I never meant to hate You or Your Bride,
This is poisoning my soul,
Deprived of Your free love,
You can have the pain,
the regrets,
to make me the best I am,
for You.

People unfold, and relationships do too//
It hurts like ice on an open wound//
Fire in the stomach that won't subside//
Lightning that flashes and dies//
A hundred thousand lies//

I don't love you anymore//
I don't love you anymore//
I don't love you anymore//

Maybe this time the rose will wither//
Open this chest up and remove me from it//
Push me away like I pushed you away//
I don't deserve it anymore//
Believe this one lie//

I don't love you anymore//
I don't love you anymore//
I don't love you anymore//

Because//
I still do//

Concrete meets the sea
Illusion of heaven's gates
Crystal lies breed plagues

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It's dreams that keep me going
Dreams that keep me awake
Trying to capture that moment
That feeling stuck in my ribs
Love is not supposed to be caged
Is it?
Unless the love is unwanted
Boundaries
Just to be on the safe side
Alone
Just to feel safe in pride
I always know better
And walk my talk
Spare some change for an old feller
Who didn't win in the end
Fought the good fight
Only to learn fighting isn't good
Tragic // comic
Pushed too far over the edge
Forced ink on ragged paper
To say a million reasons
Not to fall in love
She's one in a million reasons
To fall again