There's a ghost inside me...
apparently I owe a fee,
I've known it since birth,
it's pointless to have a voice for all it's worth.
**Every day I die inside and outside.

Today I realized nothing can hold me down,
not even love since I deserve the frown,
now and never is a great time,
I hope I didn't play with your heart like a crime,
I didn't even realize my poker face and empty heart.

I would pretend I never met you,
as I meet someone new,
I'm buried in lies,
yet people seem to admire the fire in my eyes,
at my worst I feel nothing not even love.

I disappear like the fog that vanishes then appears,
those dry eyes won't leak any tears,
not tonight,
just hold myself tight,
I've got me and me alone forever and always.

When I am frail and weak,
will you still care for me as you speak?
I doubt it!
My sisters took a hit!
Everyone tries to believe in true love.

When I'm insane and wreckless,
I hope you can guess...
you won't know what I mean,
it's in that one gene.
Trapped into existence because of genetics.

I hate you but I feel so much passion,
I wish your love was a ration,
you give out way too much sometimes,
it makes me guilty of many crimes.
Will you care for this fail and weak soul?

The blood we share runs in our veins,
I don't know why you're doing this and I'm still tied to chains!
"Stop it!  GET OFF ME!"
I may never be free...
Blood stains and no one will ever see it.

I alone in the dead of night
heard her cries full of fright.
Nothing I could do then or intervene,
I was not a witness to the actual scene.
No one knows what goes on behind closed doors.

The haunting of her cries play like a song,
so real and yet so wrong,
My recorder was dead
and maybe she was in her bed.
Neighbors have their secrets and I'm no one to meddle.