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14.8k · Apr 2014
The Unemployed Youth
Ito Apr 2014
I'm part of the unemployed youth,
it's the truth,
a generation of dreamers with endless ambition,
all with one mission:
to strive for attention under constant tension.

Overprotected and neglected,
yet somehow connected,
attacked by the constant barrage of words,
we fly like birds,
we are truly free in our imagination.

No hope for a better tomorrow,
in love with sorrow,
nothing left to borrow.
Money comes at a high cost,
your youth...lost after slavery to the economy.
Stanza 1:  Mentions the workforce who are qualified for jobs but lack experience.
Stanza 2:  Alludes to the workforce who do not need a job and remain content.
Stanza 3:  Speaks of the workforce that need any job and are willing to trade their youth for money.
2.3k · Sep 2015
Message To Trump
Ito Sep 2015
Everybody is dying,
some faster than others,
alcoholics gambling with fate,
drinking every last drop of death,
while cancerous tributes weep every hour.

It's God's way...
of saying we are not in control.
Science says we know it all but a new disease,
can cause infertility,
can cause insanity,
even suffocation.

The millions we leave are spent,
our funeral is grand,
our memories are laughs,
our families content,
it all *ends.
Yes this is an indirect message to Donald Trump & it will not reach him regardless of how many people he has working for him, he is simply a pawn in the media/system for a better candidate.
2.2k · Aug 2016
1st Love
Ito Aug 2016
The night I met you,
you filled the void forever,
I felt loved and longed for...
A lie or my imagination,
I couldn't tell and I'd rather not know.

Every second I missed you,
I was being needy and you were new!
I've had my best moments when we were together,
regardless of the weather.
I'll always have my regrets.

I would still like to know the truth,
I'd fight for you in my youth,
I'd not care of the consequences,
Regardless of my senses.
**I'd lose it all to be with you...
7/31/2016  #Britney
1.8k · Apr 2014
Cursed Puppets
Ito Apr 2014
Enchanted* puppets created for misery.
Born out of flesh,
the minds were fresh,
distorted in a land of illusion,
Rotting figures out of twisted confusion.

Used and abused,
just fragile spirits,
questioning nothing in this reality.
Existence without a design,
set in a shrine of compulsory pain.

The shackles broke as they spoke,
now free like other folk.
Addicted to pain and drama,
they languished without the anguish.
They sought new strings that inflict trauma.
Humans are like puppets in that neither have control of their fate.

Stanza #1:  Enchanted flesh, fresh distorted figures
Stanza #1:  Since birth people's lives are already planned by families.

Stanza #2:  abused spirits nothing without pain
Stanza #2:  Humans always cause pain in their existence.

Stanza #3:  they like pain without trauma
Stanza #3:  People like to experience temporary pain
1.6k · Mar 2014
Puppets to Slavery
Ito Mar 2014
I,
a *daemon
,
lurking *in
the shadows of life.
Married to eternal strife...
I broke the shackles again...
only to come crawling back to pain.

Misery,
A dark beauty, the most jealous of them all!
I heed to the call.
She forebodes insanity and pain,
I have nothing to gain,
somehow I'm still sane.
Hidden message in italics.
1.6k · Mar 2014
Dry Blood
Ito Mar 2014
I confided in you for aid,
afraid and alone you let me fade.
I'm a neglected flame you could not tame,
you ignite the blame again...
different people play the same game.

The world is infected with greed,
since birth it's a disease we don't heed.
The only cure is a double-edged sword... money.
Blue blood and water run through Earth,
yet both will dry for all their worth.

No one has a true clue,
everyone in an endless queue.
Life always has two views,
the unseen and the known hues.
The Blue Planet for the senseless suffering.
The irony of the word blue:  Blood, water and sadness.
1.4k · Mar 2014
Empress of Discord
Ito Mar 2014
You* never made me *feel safe,
left me out in the street like a waif!
Receiving nothing but abuse...
you must have felt like Zeus!
All I ever wanted was a truce.

YOU always scavenge through my past,
sure it was a blast,
you should have just asked...
I protect you from the truth,
I'm just another wasted youth.

YOU just had to know,
it was the lowest blow.
I will never be the same...
I drank all of the blame,
surely you have no shame to maim.
Yes she exists.  Hidden message in italics:
1st stanza: All of the relationship was abuse
2nd stanza: I told her all of my past.
3rd stanza: Personifying hate as a prideful person I know.
1.2k · Sep 2014
Stolen Belongings of Chronos
Ito Sep 2014
Memories can be reclaimed from Chronos for a bit.
I know I should quit,
the past cuts sharper than a blade,
yet I stayed and strayed,
even if it wasn't an equal trade.

The insanity in your eyes was well concealed,
led to doors of tragedy not completely sealed.
You held a key around your neck!
Somehow I enjoyed being around you---HECK!
I could never leave a wreck.

Self-inflicted wounds from the past always last,
even as I glanced passed them fast.
A camera is a double-edged weapon not a toy,
my eyes bleed with misery and joy.
*Am I destined to be only a lonely boy?
A bittersweet reflection of times that were once enjoyable but now too hard to look at.
1.2k · Apr 2016
Angst
Ito Apr 2016
Today I wanted to die,
I imagined the plane crashing and exploding,
I dreamt of falling to my death,
I envisioned free-falling till I was like a bug...
yet I didn't want any of this.

I hoped my heart would stop on a caffeine overdose,
I wanted to be dead to be numb again,
I longed to feel empty and alone,
I couldn't feel tired knowing I failed...
**I wanted all of the pain, regret and disillusion.
4/25/2016
1.2k · Sep 2016
Incubus in Love
Ito Sep 2016
I've got the perfect body,
yet I wish I was somebody,
I've got the perfect voice,
yet I feel I have no choice.
I have the perfect life for someone else...

I hide in the shadows in the daylight.
I only come out at night.
My soul is a black hole,
with only one goal...
to absorb the light you possess.

My heart is scarred from trying to love,
I can make a heart stop with a quick shove.
Never caught in the dark,
it's my birthmark.
**Etched to exist in constant joy to sin.
Ito Mar 2014
I gazed into Pandora's Box,
went blind from the clocks.
Would you dare do what I did?
I was just a kid...
No warning for the mourning of my innocence.

No mortal should ever view,
I will never be free... this, I knew.
I could not flee this time.
I left my sanity on the shelf,
I committed a crime unto thyself.

Heed my warning:
RUN RUN RUN!
Knowledge is not fun,
Locked in a tower of misery for eternity.

If you thirst,
do as you must,
you have been warned!
~Ito
An artifact in Greek mythology given to Pandora which contained all of the evils of the world.  

Metaphor:  With today's technology it is possible to know all of evils of the world if you choose to do so.
1.0k · Aug 2015
27 Club
Ito Aug 2015
My heart is chopped up like someone suicidal,
maybe I'm homicidal.
NO!  Those cuts never hurt,
instead they incited the inert.
Completely numb, confused and alone.

Was I born with a rotten heart?
Or did I never have one like a piece of art?
Could this be a cruel joke?
Will I join the '27 Club' as someone spoke?
Well I'm part of a black art.

You won't see me die,
not today, not tomorrow, not ever...
but you will see me cry forever.
I will fall apart,
all for you.
http://www.theguardian.com/music/musicblog/2015/apr/02/do-musicians-die-young-truth-27-club
1.0k · May 2015
Meet Me in The Shade
Ito May 2015
I've got a place no one can find,
try looking for a place that doesn't exist,
you have to meet me here,
I don't let anyone know of this,
night or day just say my name.

Michael like the Archangel,
you're my guardian angel though a blue angel,
the smoke I inhale is a blessing,
I know I shouldn't be messing and I'm stressing,
the realm I face is fatal and ethereal.

What if it's you?
And it wasn't me?
Why do I have to taste poison to die?
I want more even if death is all mental,
all I deserve is another high.
1.0k · Mar 2014
Bella Morte
Ito Mar 2014
Note to mortals wandering in the dark:

I put my life on the line,
when I had one...
this was a sign,
then chills went up my spine,
I cringed at just the thought of you!

I got stabbed in the back,
I was just your snack.
I always knew zombies and vampires have friction,
but I thought it was all fiction.

Night creatures do not play in the sun,
they do play in the moonlight.
They feast and gorge on your flesh as they bite,
while they grip on tight.

Do not wander late at night,
*they will attack on site!
1.0k · May 2015
Resuscitate Me
Ito May 2015
You jump started my heart when you existed,
but I forgot your heart could be twisted,
I'm so torn cause you saved me but you can ****,
those eyes can save a soul or make one ill,
I'd rather run than be your victim.

I'd refuse to be blind unless you wanted me to be,
but I would die if you asked me,
I don't matter but you do,
even if I perish I will thank you,
my existence depends on you for I am weak it's true.
I don't know what to do but live for her, I have no purpose because she said so.
1.0k · Feb 2014
Mythos of The Immortal
Ito Feb 2014
I am a tortured soul,
perhaps a demon calculating a goal!
Trapped in this body,
I feel shoddy...
Just another eternity of melancholy.

Emotions do not exist in my domain,
I simply drain where I reign.
Nothing exists only pain.
No rain ever falls here,
I confess...I am a **seer.
999 · Dec 2016
I Can Only Stare
Ito Dec 2016
The day you said you didn't feel the same,
My mind did mental gymnastics.
I gazed deep into space for days at a time.
All I could do is stare,
memories that never became true just like you.

My heart sank like a corpse weighed down in the ocean,
I knew I drank Cupid's potion,
my body numb at your touch,
my reasoning clouded by your voice,
my vision blinded by your image.

A gaze too intense,
a kiss so fleeting,
a touch so heavy,
an exchange of harsh words,
I can only stare at the padded white walls.
996 · Feb 2016
Sleeping Next to Marilyn
Ito Feb 2016
Last night I slept next to her,
surely it was a blur,
I didn't even care what she meant,
she kept me safe without consent...
Well that was the night I slept next to Marilyn...

She was smiling all night long,
she wasn't happy but why was she smiling all along?
Coping with that inner sadness,
just like me with all of that madness...
Happiness is subjective, you can look happy and be rotting inside.

Drowning in her tears by morning,
I knew when she was gone... I'd be mourning.
Cause when she  leaves,
she robs you like a million thieves.
**Empty & alone, I realize it's only her visage keeping me company.
993 · Sep 2015
The Darkest Heart
Ito Sep 2015
I have all of your screams and insanity engraved in my mind,
now deal with me and I knew I was blind,
you kept me in the dark,
you wanted me to never hark,
I have exposed you and you can't make me go away!

Your living nightmare,
no longer your liar,
I was slightly wiser,
you played me exactly like you wanted to...
I still cry tears in your name too.

You own me and the death of me,
for both will bring joy and set sorrow free,
I wish to die,
Why even try?
You shredded my soul and left a blackness in my heart.
980 · Mar 2014
Immortal Phantoms
Ito Mar 2014
Old memories are like ghosts that haunt you,
No one can resist it but it's true.
Pacify the past with the present,
forget the present with the past,
the unrelenting future torment that I ask.

If there is a past, present and future...
gaps in time must exist like a suture.
You get the deal?
Nothing is real.
No one knows anything at birth or death.

Your thoughts finally materialize,
as you realize:
time has little pity,
sure you were pretty,
memories are fragments of time that are witty.
Stanza #1:  Ghosts resist past/present/future (memories always come back)
Stanza #2:  Future time deal real death (morbid but self-explanatory)
Stanza #3:  Finally you pity pretty memories (You will never get back time)
964 · Apr 2016
Learn to Hate You
Ito Apr 2016
How I love you!
I overlook what's true!
You still have my admiration,
you were meant to rule a nation,
I will always learn to hate you.

Little by little you rip me to pieces,
even as the hate increases,
I'm equally as messed up,
yet you and I will never hookup.
**You guaranteed your fate by your ignorance.
962 · Mar 2015
Unseen, Unheard and Useless
Ito Mar 2015
The night is the darker than my own heart,
I never thought I'd fall apart,
blood drips but I don't care,
I say another prayer,
lost all my hair.

Everyone had a dream and plan for me except me...
I'd rather flee,
no purpose for me here on Earth,
I knew this since birth,
I'd be happier dead but there's too much to unearth.

I've given up looking for a reason to live,
I'd rather just forgive,
I wouldn't trade my depression to anyone,
I'd deal with it if I could run,
I know I've come undone.
951 · Aug 2015
Black Halo
Ito Aug 2015
I wanted to know what God knows,
I longed to be the one He chose...
Guilty of superbia and plagued by pride,
I thought I was special but now I hide.
No shame in misbehaving for attention.

Now I have the Satan's eyes glued on me!
My fate is set and I cannot flee.
God just glances at me on occasion,
The Devil is strong at persuasion.
Black soul now filled with hope and dread.

Life is now austere.
The soul fades when demons are near.
Each one stealing the light and purity,
Now left in obscurity...
*Evil fades into darkness where I belong with surety.
950 · Sep 2014
Life's Aroma in a Coma
Ito Sep 2014
Today I went out...
felt the wind touch me with doubt,
no feeling in my heart even with a shout,
either way I still played the role.
Smiled to an existence out of my control.

Life continues with or without you,
the light stolen from my eyes,
the touch numbed by cries,
my hope was to become wise,
but everyone dies.
933 · Feb 2017
Comeback Kid
Ito Feb 2017
From aftermath of the car accident,
I'm still left wondering how I'm alive...
I'm indebted to those who helped,
Shocked at the fragility of life,
And most of all thankful to God for another day.

Although the only things lost were material,
I lost a fraction of my soul,
reality is no longer the same,
from here on now I can only move forward.
One thing I did gain was experience, I'm a comeback kid!
January 30th 2017
Comeback Kid- A person who repeatedly demonstrates the propensity to overcome downturns or periods of bad publicity, and rebound to victory or popularity.
931 · Feb 2014
Illusions of Insanity
Ito Feb 2014
If profanity is a form of insanity,
then all of humanity is in love with vanity.
Just another delusion of illusion,
in a rampant act of seclusion.
Talent is standard on a planet of confabulation.

Nothing is real anymore,
there is a war at your core.
Greed is the seed we breed,
hence the human race in which we speed!
We play games of hunger while we bleed.

Humanity is just an art form,
unfinished and diminished.
We are blessed with stress,
without our consent we play chess.
I confess my address...

-Earth-
**Motel for our souls
A tragic and cryptic poem.  Intent:  To elicit thought.
930 · Jul 2015
Hurt
Ito Jul 2015
Your pain is so great... nothing left for me to do,
it's what I always knew,
with old age comes sorrow and death,
I'd give you my breath,
that would only be temporary.

Your agony sends night terrors to me,
nowhere to flee!
The terror sets in on you and I.
I can only cry,
but I know I need to say goodbye.

You will always be in my heart,
you will not die at the hospital but we will part,
met you too late in life,
our time was cut with a knife.
Those who abandoned you forgot you but I never will.
We rescued a Pomeranian a few years ago who was abandoned and has been amazing.  Recently her legs are failing her, she has her good days and her bad days.  We do everything we can for her but an operation is not guaranteed to leave her well.  For her, this poem is dedicated to Anabelle.
920 · Jun 2016
Pity Party
Ito Jun 2016
So today I am speechless and hurt.
I thank you, my friend... the extrovert.
I'm more messed up than you know,
and you told me to grow?!
Really you apparently know my life piece by piece?

I invited you to my pity party,
gladly you accepted trying to be a smarty,
a past friend and now a stranger,
I should have known I might be in danger.
People change but I won't.

I'm not a victim of the circumstances,
I'm a survivor of the past who advances.
I no longer know you and you never knew me,
so it's obvious you should set me free.
**Old friends are just as outdated as old calendars obviously.
906 · Mar 2014
Fractured Dreams
Ito Mar 2014
Promises* are meant to be broken,
the heart is *never
meant to be shattered,
you let me down,
you saw me as a clown,
now I own the town's crown.

For wherever you go there is betrayal,
I am pale,
your love is fatal,
but I am grateful.
The days bleed and go by,
you will cry,
you force me to scry.

Stay atop your spire,
while I admire,
I thought you had a lyre,
I realized you were a liar!
You were blinded by greed,
so take heed as I speed...
Remastered.  Originally titled "Shattered Dreams".
897 · Mar 2014
Dark Angel
Ito Mar 2014
I die in a realm of agony,
where one rules with money.
I was a dark angel,
caressed by the darkness,
I was blessed.

Love... does not exist,
but it does persist.
The plot has a perverse twist!
My life was in danger,
forced to become a stranger.
892 · Sep 2016
Jaded Eyes
Ito Sep 2016
There's an emptiness in my eyes,
it's as if someone dies.
And although that (someone) is me,
I feel free!
For every day is a shadow of the reflection from yesterday.'

The bright glow of my soul is now but a fading, faint light,
at the bottom of the ocean like the darkness of the night.
Shadows upon shadows while I breakdown in your arms,
I'd wait till they set the alarms...
**As I run back to the prison set in my mind.
Heartbreak, death and misery all put together.
889 · Mar 2017
Restless Mind
Ito Mar 2017
The calm before the storm,
happens before I transform.
This is not ordinary weather we've experienced,
a sandstorm of emotions for the inexperienced.
The easiest way to become numb comes from liquid poison.

Like a moth drawn to its death,
I flock to the bottle without taking a breath.
It's so easy to drown under the pressures of life,
avoiding the strife.
My will died some time ago.

One with my thoughts,
I take shots.
When I wake up did it fix anything?
In love with every last drop and the sting.
**Then the shame of my past reminds me of the great battle ahead.
A poem before sleep always gets me to sleep.
883 · Mar 2014
Nightmare Syndrome
Ito Mar 2014
I woke rapid to no avail!
Found the vapid conversation grew stale...
paralyzed by my fears,
endless ringing in my ears,
conscience begins to smear.
Shrouded in the stains of time.

Kind thoughts vanish,
torture runs rampant through my body like a bind.
Nightmares are ceaseless in my mind,
insanity does not flee.
All bets are not on me,
my mind leaks horror once more!
Remastered "Communications from Beyond".
870 · Mar 2014
Melancholy of a Lost Ghost
Ito Mar 2014
Nowhere near the light at the end of the tunnel,
I poured my sorrow into a funnel,
I wander in desperate dread,
only to find the dead.
After the storms of time,
pain inhabited me like I'd been guilty of a crime.
Darkness and confusion set into my soul,
I came back haunted but whole...

Somewhere lurking behind,
the broken thoughts of my mind,
They long to be forgotten...
descending into oblivion and rotten.
Stanza #1:  I wander dead
Stanza #2:  Storms of darkness came
Stanza #3:  Somewhere broken thoughts long oblivion
Ito Jan 2016
Today I found out something really sad,
perhaps it could be something really bad,
I've been pouring out love and hate all the time,
like a true slime.
Yet all I mean is to be understood and adored.

No!  Not like a killer,
my life is a thriller,
twists and turns every night,
a loveless life is just fine,
I might just be in a fishing line.

Life is a mystery,
I mean you could die any day and be history!
But today I feel great!
Yes I know you'll be my last date!
I only care for your heart and not mine.
867 · Mar 2015
Thoughtless
Ito Mar 2015
Tears created trenches on my face,
left with no breathing space.
Both blinded and asphyxiated,
every day I was reminded and humiliated.
And yet...
thoughts flew past me like bullets in a war zone.

The mirror shows no reflections,
could this be rejection of my imperfections?
Overused, bruised and abused emotions,
I allowed joy to be replaced by angst somehow.
The seeds of catharsis I sowed sprouted now!

The darkness retreats even if only momentarily,
in control of my thoughts temporarily.
The doubts and lies turn to certainty and truth.
Is this what it feels like to be awake?
Demons never rest but today they sleep.
863 · Apr 2016
Numb and Dumb
Ito Apr 2016
I believed every word and emotion,
you must of used a potion,
I don't believe anyone!
But somehow you won,
I was played like an instrument, inanimate and serving you.

You just said the word and I was a slave,
I thought it was for love and I was brave,
I thought it would be something I crave,
even if at the start I saw you give me a goodbye wave.
*It's all fine now that I'm numb and dumb forever...
3.25.16
860 · Dec 2015
Fog
Ito Dec 2015
Fog
The night grew dark and fog surrounded me,
I couldn't run or flee.
Unsure if I'm imaginary or real anymore,
at this point I don't think my soul can restore.
Long days and eternal nights continue forever.

Destitute and poor.
And yet in my mind there is grandeur,
it seems I can help the world...
but I can't help myself with a destiny that is whorled.
I am not whole and I am not invisible just in between.

Like a ghost I have no place and no purpose,
passing time in an endless journey that's worthless.
I love and despise pain
because I am profane.
*Too ashamed to live and yet too proud to die.
My view on life after leaving work.  Who am I?  Why am I here?  What's the purpose of it all?
853 · Jan 2017
Social Leper
Ito Jan 2017
They're all ugly,
they're all wrong,
they're all weird,
they're all annoying...
that's what I tell myself when I'm all alone.

Do you get to laugh like they do?
Do you get to feel normal?
Do you have more friends than family?
Do you feel attractive?
It's alright cause I'm content in the corner.

Your clothes make you feel important,
yet I don't even get noticed,
those shoes are ugly and fashionable,
mine make me feel barefoot.
After all I'm cool, I tell myself running away from everything.
847 · Sep 2015
Pretend
Ito Sep 2015
When we were kids we played with imagination,
we would be doctors and laugh at damnation,
we even dreamed of being the president of a nation.
Times changed as winters got colder,
eventually we grow older.

Socializing as if your life depended on customer service,
You pushed me away hard and I got nervous,
once so close but now I can't recognize you...
How do you sleep at night being so fake?
You're now my two-faced idol and nothing but a snake.

Can we pretend none of this ever happened?
Ahhhhhhh, your dreams are reality,
I'm left with my morality,
never changing me...
You've got amnesia now that you used me.
Back stabbed by a "friend(s)" and it hurts always.  I was always their best friend until it came to field trips or class assemblies etc. then no one even knew I existed.
838 · Dec 2015
Blood
Ito Dec 2015
The blood we share runs in our veins,
I don't know why you're doing this and I'm still tied to chains!
"Stop it!  GET OFF ME!"
I may never be free...
Blood stains and no one will ever see it.

I alone in the dead of night
heard her cries full of fright.
Nothing I could do then or intervene,
I was not a witness to the actual scene.
No one knows what goes on behind closed doors.

The haunting of her cries play like a song,
so real and yet so wrong,
My recorder was dead
and maybe she was in her bed.
Neighbors have their secrets and I'm no one to meddle.
At 2:01AM I heard the voice of my neighbor whom I have never met while opening the window for some air screaming "GET OFF ME" the other voices were restraining her it seemed and it was over in 2 minutes.
835 · Mar 2014
Black Hearts Collude
Ito Mar 2014
Bleed* like me I *promise it will hurt.
That is how I flirt,
I run to sorrow,
I do not borrow...
I rob souls.

Do you accept this dark blessing?
I cannot guess...
but I will stress.
For I am heartless and artless.
There is an endless winter in my heart.
827 · Jan 2016
Paradise of Denial
Ito Jan 2016
I saw you **** yourself slowly,
I'm sure you felt so unholy.
What if  you knew you were going to die?
Would that change anything as you say bye?
Cause I'm sure you don't care at all...

Was I wrong?
I thought you were strong.
The suicide was faster but you still walk around hollow,
I won't follow!
Soulless, heartless and ruthless barely describe us.

Trying to save myself,
but myself keeps slipping away from ourself.
It's all a paradise to be here,
unable to see the puppeteer.
I'm blind and mute but I still feel every painful memory.
Ito Aug 2017
I once thought love was real...
A heart shattered like glass broken by rocks in Chicago.
May the one without sins cast the first stone...
And so I did.
Unspoken words are *better left known than unsaid.

Anyways I was always the first to leave.
A hopeless romantic blinded by loyalty.
A picture means a thousand words,
nothing more true...
Words cut like a razor blade.

To this day I did not want to fall in love again...
Because lies, betrayal, mistrust, cheating* always ensued.
I felt like Beyoncé in the elevator with Jay-Z and Solange.
Defenseless, yet angry, willing to stay for now.
Blinded by rage I waited to leave but plagued by health.
Ito Jan 2017
The man with the crooked smile,
hidden motives were his style,
the droves of people noticed his trick,
no one was fooled and he seemed to be slick.
He smiled only to please and never to emote.

The flaw was in his act,
he seemed too abstract...
For he was silent.
He was not violent.
But people's imaginations run wild with a grin so sinister.

Once just an imitation of an actor,
now the best in show and his smile is a factor,
the mystery in his soul is as dark as the outcomes,
you can even hear the drums.
Just a puppet for the gods, the humans believe he's real.
812 · Nov 2016
True Love
Ito Nov 2016
I'm so sad I think I'm happy now,
I run torn and broken yet fully aware,
the pain in my eyes cannot be hidden through lenses,
the sorrow in my heart too heavy to stand,
yet the regrets from yesterday still remind me of you.

The happiness ripped out of my existence to feel your pain,
only a glimpse of your brain,
throughout the blood rain,
I seen your heart dropping from the sky still beating,
longing for "True Love" and my heart made the same greeting.

Although I have all the answers,
I won't reveal one as I am one of several cancers,
a cancer of your mind and your soul,
forever engraved in your existence and taking a toll,
**I promised I was deadly when we met like a drug to a user.
811 · Apr 2014
Philosophy of a Modern Man
Ito Apr 2014
Always* had a longing for belonging,
never *fit
in anywhere,
a criminal in my mind,
a vigilante against myself,
protecting even the past I left on the shelf.

The battle is violent,
overdosed by reality... silent.
Neglected and ignored describe my existence.
No guilt, no shame and nothing to hide,
reborn stronger than ever now I stride with pride!
795 · Oct 2015
Enemy
Ito Oct 2015
God I promise I tried my best,
I long to be like you but I'm stressed,
I knew since I was conscious that I was blessed,
I'm a sinner that never takes rest,
you're always there who would have guessed?

Living in a land with temptation at every turn,
I know I have a lot to learn...
but you are too stern.
I live in fear and with concern,
instead of another flood can we just burn?

I have made you an enemy,
I have been my own enemy...
Upon death can I be in your presence for one second?
I would hope you can pretend to beckon.
My heart and soul belong to you only; you're my *family.
3rd Stanza inspired by "Enemy" from Flyleaf lyrics:
"I have made you an enemy"
"I have been my own enemy"
793 · Mar 2014
The End Days
Ito Mar 2014
I've always asked myself:
Will I grow up to be a good person?
Or will my condition worsen?
Will I ever know?
What is it like to grow up though?

Now I tell myself:
Trapped in this body,
I feel so gaudy,
I wish to disembody,
I feel so *****.

I will ask myself:
Did I live enough time?
Was I ever in my prime?
Am I even worth a dime?
And so I rhyme...

Only time can tell who I become,
Yesterday,
Today,
Tomorrow and **Forever
.
791 · Feb 2016
Won't Let Love Hold Me Down
Ito Feb 2016
Today I realized nothing can hold me down,
not even love since I deserve the frown,
now and never is a great time,
I hope I didn't play with your heart like a crime,
I didn't even realize my poker face and empty heart.

I would pretend I never met you,
as I meet someone new,
I'm buried in lies,
yet people seem to admire the fire in my eyes,
at my worst I feel nothing not even love.

I disappear like the fog that vanishes then appears,
those dry eyes won't leak any tears,
not tonight,
just hold myself tight,
I've got me and me alone forever and always.
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