What's in a name?
Oh I can tell you that it holds some heartbreak.
When you here that name that's not yours,
And then your heart aches.
Shakes me to the core,
I don't want to be here anymore.
I just can't bare these tears,
Maybe if you could see my heart
Then you would understand my fears.


So please don't disrupt me,
I'm thinking and losing my mind at the same time.
I'm trying to piece together, the pieces that broke, my heart is intertwined, with all these thorns stuck at the side
Of a heart still beating,
So I hurt whenever i feel the high.

I don't know what to do this time,
Just know my heart is not just mine,
For I would not poison myself with a potion so potent it makes me die.
But i do whisper truths to those at my side,
Little did I know that when the sun goes out they run and hide.

Please don't leave me to my own devices,
I fall fast and I spiral,
Till I lose track of what life is.
I need someone to watch my face and I hope that they know,
Sometimes you'll see me cry, with not a tear in sight.

Drop a little note
in the pocket on his shirt
when he reads it later
his heart will begin to hurt
because he's lost what he held
right before his very eyes
and he didn't say a word
so now he just sits and cries
cries for the good times
the best and the worst
and even though she always felt it
for him this is the first
yet she's free from it now
there's not a care in her soul
for the man who had ****** her
and taken a toll
but was he really so bad?
he may sound like an abuser
and you must not shove your pity
only on the accuser
for if it takes two to tango
then their love was a ballet
full of twists and turns
where the betrothed must betray
be there no rules in war
in this war game of passion
and while she found salvation
he was left with the rations
in this broken up hellscape
where the two plates have split
they cease to keep contact
their dumpster fire still lit

Until you’re gone forever

Mind racing
Angry pacing
Not breathing
Inwardly seething

Chit, chat, chatter
I want to climb down the ladder

This constant game
My mind, I can’t tame

Bipolar express
Unbearable
I’m a mess

Constantly fearing
My chemicals veering
Down a different path
How long this time?

So high that I can’t come down
So low that I...

Bed.
Can’t get out.

H E A D

Can’t
                   get


              out.

I was all nines
Until I saw the value
In the openness of zero

To be honest, is to be kind
But my kindness can be mistaken by love