I'm dead
But not literally

I'm scarred
As in Physically

I'm lost
Only mentally

I'm living
... Technically

I need to feel alive, because I am not, I'm barly breathing, my heart has been shot.

I take a deep breath and I close my eyes, I fake one more smile and say my good byes.

I walk away and close the door, don't come looking for me, I can't take anymore.

A smile
A laugh
A heart broken in half

A blade
A gun
A ******* the run

A shovel
A grave
A girl they couldn't save

My heart is in so much pain
It's almost unbearable

My smile has become so fake
It's hardly believable

My life has become so sad
It's like a new lifestyle

My mind has become so lost
The Sanity's unfindable

My time is almost up
And the clock is unwinedable