a romance that we raised in the summer can only last so long
for when the leaves start falling
we fall too.

She said,
I want to die
Just let me die.
And I felt her words
Throughout the entirety of my soul
Because I knew
I knew.

We sat there stroking her back
He and I.
As she kept saying
I want to die
I looked up at him
And I saw it in his eyes
And he saw it in mine
Because he knew.
He knew.

Three broken people
Sitting at a party together.
Her sober thoughts coming out
As drunk words.
I heard it in her voice,
He saw it in my eyes,
I saw it in his eyes,
And for one second,
None of us were alone
Together we shared the pain.
Because we knew.
We knew.

i need my body back
but at the same time
i want each and every one of you
TO TEAR every bit of it apart
be especially cruel to the heart
pluck that thing straight from the chest
''the''
because its not mine
this body isn't mine
and i wish to disappear
i wish i was a speck of dust
i want to see spilled blood
broken teeth, torn ears and limbs
i just need you to help me
please help me

me rapidly putting clothes on, crazily rushing towards my Heaven
is like a foolish mathematical equation
almost surely means being late, i'm being awfully late, i wont see you
i start running, two flying limbs, praying to the universe to please set the time right, set it good, maybe a few seconds behind
but then it all stops .. no more racing thoughts, just a slight tremble of lips
''oh'' - the most beautiful sound my mouth has ever created
i catch a glimpse of brown hair and a red jacket
and i finally
understand it all.
it was all made for you and me
those silly clocks.

i need to sleep so i can disappear quicker
tick tock tick tock my mind is going to explode
i cant sleep
i cant sleep
i feel my teeth rotting in my mouth
my ****** mouth
i cant sleep
the world is so beautiful
the trees but i cant do it alone
do you understand i cant alone
i love you