im sorry i cant do this anymore,
im sorry i fell in love with you,
im sorry the im annoying,
im sorry my life is boring,
im sorry i have scars,
im sorry that i am this way
im sorry that its this way
im sorry that you fell in love with a girl that has scars
im sorry for being sorry
i cant do it anymore....i dont want to be here anymore

Hey little fighter please drop your handy lighter now give me your razors and lift up your sleeves
Your scars will stay, but your buries will soon fade away
Now eat baby your mean something to me, so take it in, take it in and breathe
Know things will get better because angel even in this gloomy weather it can’t rain forever

life with her is
amazing
loving
amusing
awesome
warming
wonderful

life without her
sad
angry
depressing
terrible

when i look at myself i feel......
fat
worthless
ugly
a  nobody
unneeded
stupid
i feel like i have no  reason  to  be  *here

The first one is when someone is reckless with your heart and it breaks and its shatters in ways you never thought it could

The second is when you break someone’s heart because you’ll never know pain like the type that has you look into their eyes but they look away …..

And the worst kind of heart break is the kind that comes along when you have to watch the person you love be happy with someone else! </3

another one of the worst broken hearts are when you and your best friend start talking to these 2 guys. When your friend introduces them to you and you can’t help it but fall for one. When your best friend breaks up with the other one she said she was all amazing and goes crazy. When you find out she has sent nudes to him while he and you were dating. That’s true pain. He says it is only you but you know it is all a lie and the bad thing is this happened only in a month and a week. It feels like **** when you remember the good times you have had together but then you remember that you have to drop them for good all they ever caused was pain. I remember crying one night over Xbox and everyone was saying nothing is going on but his cousin… Her ex-boyfriend. But then I decide almost 2 months later I forgive her because school starts back up. I had a chip on my back still but then days got brighter because she introduced me to someone. My boyfriend the only good thing that came out of her. You’ve past him at places, never paid attention. But back to the point, she had put me through hell with her and her satanic life. I will never say her name again she hurt me so bad. She has called me every name in the book; ****, *****, *****, *******, childish, and more I will not say. I’ve learnt from my mistakes but I now know I will not make them ever again.

when i look at her, i feel worthless
i wanna cry
i feel like im nothing
i feel empty
i feel nothing inside
i feel lost
but when i look away
i break into more pieces
i cry
i go home and all i do is cry
then paint and beautiful pictures all over my body
seeing her kills me
i cant take it anymore
i just want to stop breathing and make all this pain go away

i looked at the blood flowing from my body, i see that i'm no good, i see trails for tears dripping from peoples faces when they see my soulless body lay there just being still, they wept over my motionless body, asking and scream why did i leave, maybe its because i wasn't happy, my only moment of happiness is when he was there next to me, my mama told me you don't need a man to be happy, and shes right, but when that man took everything you had left in you, it felt like there was nothing left, my days got longer, my nights got harder, my smile faded, my laugh didn't exist anymore the little pride, the little happiness i had was now going, and no i'm dead, so please stop crying over my selfless body, be happy now you can live free

You told me you were never leaving,
Now look you left,
The moment when i need you the most,
The moment that kills me the most,
I turn around and see you know where to be found,
You told me that you would never leave,
What a lie you could create,

one day i want her to feel the pain i felt inside
one day i want her to feel what its like to take a blade across her skin
one day i want her to feel what its like to be heart broken
one day i want her to feel like she worthless
one day i want her to feel the same way i felt when she broke my heart
one day i want her to feel all alone
one day i want her to feel whats its like to get laughed at
one day.......one day i want her to feel the sadness i felt inside

when you just want to say im done,
but there is that one person begging for you to stay  
so you think about how happy that person will be without you in there life
but they dont see that
all you can do at this time is cry
your make up is running down your face
you cant take it anymore
you love that person the death and back but you cant take the pain
it hurts so bad
your write her a goodbye letter telling her how much you love you
then all you hear is the phone ring ring ring you answer it
its her shes crying telling you how much she needs you, how much you mean to her, how much she loves you, she is begging you not to leave her
your crying even harder
she made you promise not to leave her
and you said "i promise as long as you become mine

I remember the way it felt when the cold metal slid across my wrist,
The way the blood flowed down my arms,
The way the pain was slowly going away,
I needed you,
And you told me to go away......

hearing her voice
makes my day
makes me smile
makes me get butterflies
makes me miss her even more
makes me want to cry
makes me love her even more

today would have been 8 months that we have been together
i miss "us"
the other day you texted me and said you missed me?
do you really?
you hurt me, you broke my heart
but it was already broken when i met you
i thought you would be the one to fix it
but you broke it more
why?

i......miss you..........im sorry

I realize that now your gone.....
Your never coming back
Your happy now
I'm sorry
I'm disappointment

I  hate  you = I love you

The sadness over takes the body and its hard to stop,
the sadness hurts so bad,
and  taking the blade to your skin and making yourself bleed
just to make the pain go away,
but wait the pain is still there
the pain you left me with the hurt that will never go away,
I gave you my heart and you gave me a knife,  
you took my heart and through it on the floor like it was trash
I could have gave my heart to someone that really cared,
the blood is dripping on the floor
slowly and you start to count
one cut two cuts three cuts
and you keep counting  up
and all you can  remember is the pain
that was left,
and all you do is cry……..

help me
i need help
im bleeding
i cant take the pain anymore
the moment when you left me
i couldn't take it, the pain it hurts so bad
i found a new friend
it makes my feel ok
but then it hurts me
it makes a beautiful picture on my skin
but it is telling me that everything is ok