I told you that I  loved  you and you left so I guess that's what I get,

why does it hurt every time i see her
why does it hurt when i hear her voice
why does it when i hear her name
why does it hurt every time she smiles at me
why does it hurt when she looks at me
why does it hurt when she turns around and walks away
why does it hurt!!!!!

i wonder what my parents would say if they found out i cry  each  *day

i had this dream where everything was falling apart around me, like all my friends hated me, my family disowned me, i lost myself, i woke up in tears realizing that dream is slowly coming true.....

your like the tide
your beautiful
and hard to resist
but the minute i
come running to you
you pull away

my wrist are bleeding
i was trying so hard to stay clean
but i couldn't do it
i stopped counting at 140
and i wish i stopped
but it made most of the pain go away

the moment when she hangs up the phone
and all you hear is  static
you  start crying
because you waited all day to hear her voice
and now shes gone
you miss her so much.....</3...

i feel like the world is on my shoulders
i cant take this
i never felt this way before
everything is falling apart
i'm losing all my friends
my own family hates me
i cant take this
i hate this
i hate not being able to see her
i hate being sad
but everything i do ruins everything
i cant take it

My head hurts and maybe it’s from all the coffee I've been drinking to keep me awake because all I see when I shut my eyes are yours

i wanted to tell her i never loved her
but i did and still do
i wanted to tell her she was noting to me
but she is everything to me
i wanted to tell her that i dont think about her
but thats a lie she is all i think about
no one wants us together
they say she brings me sadness and unhappiness
but they dont see she is my everything my heart and soul, my other half, everything i ever wanted,

most people think the worst thing in life is to end up all alone
but it isnt.......
the worse thing in life is to end up surrounded by people who make you feel all alone

Hey I just wanted to tell you, you’re my everything, you’re my world, you’re the apple of my eye, you’re perfect, I swear god made you just for me, I’m glad that your by my side every day, baby you’re like a drug, I need you more then you need me, you’re like my life support
you’re the reason why I’m still alive, your beautiful in every way, more I know about you more beautiful you get, if talking to you makes me heart race, then I don’t know what will happen when I see you face to face I don’t know how to tell you how much I love you because my love for you can’t be shown so listen baby girl your everything to me and I love you just the way you are <3

You may be out of my sight but not out of my heart
You may be out of my reach but not out of my mind
I may mean nothing to you but you will always mean something to me

you sit there crying because she left you
she did the same thing to me
she left me there crying, she told me she loved me and she would never leave me
but now look shes with you hurting you instead of me your crying because you wont let her go, i told you what she did to me and how much she hurt me, you know how you took her back after she said sorry and she will never do it again but look she did it again she left you probably ******* another ***, but you will take her back, and she's saying the same things  she said to me to you, she is lying to you, she wants to break you down where no one else could have you because your sad, but look get over her all, all she is  doing is hurt you and you can stop the hurt only if you let her go

My wrist are now bleeding
My life doesn't have any meaning
My wrist have bleed
My wrist have trails of red

once a upon a time there was a girl and she was in love with this girl, this girl was her world, her life, her everything, but the girls parents made you to stop talking, and all that girl could do is cry and there is nothing you could do because your mom took over her life, her mom took her phone and everything she owns, the girl now has nothing and misses the love of her life so much she is still the only thing she thinks about she hardly gets any sleep until she cries her self to sleep, but the girl nos this is best for the love of her life because it gives her ( the love of her life) a chance to be even more happy, now its up to the girl to make herself happy

My love for you was bullet proof but you’re the one that shot me

do you know how it feels when your family tells you that they hates you, or when you lose your best friend or when the the love of you life is gone, out of your sight, out of you reach, almost almost out of your mind but your trying to keep all the happy memories in your mind but they are slowly slipping away

Have you felt that you’re all alone but you’re not but it seems like it because no one is there for you but then they are, you thought that people will never be there for you until you turn around and everything changes? When you turn around and realize that someone is there for you but then you guys stop talking every day and you’re crying and the person that is supposed to be there for you doesn’t answer you and you need there their help because you’re scared that you will do something stupid again, and then it seems you have no one there so you do something stupid and all you can do is cry because you’re lost in an empty dark place where you don’t know how to get out, so you sit there and cry, and you start saying that your life is nothing but then you see a light at the end at the tunnel, and there is a person that you thought that well never be there for you and she’s smiling and holding you and telling you that everything is ok and she never leaves your side, and you finally stop crying and you start smiling and you can’t stop, after you start to feel that hurt going away slowly but it’s going away, and your finally becoming happy for once and all you wish for that hurt not to come back but it does and you feel it all over again and this time it doesn’t go away, when you close your eyes do you still realize what you did to me do you understand how bad I’m hurting, you told me you love me and you would never hurt me and you left me when you said you would never hurt or leave me but look what you did you hurt and left me, like everyone else does, I thought I found that special person I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with but I guess you’re just another one of my mistakes and I’m supposed to learn from you and I learned that you’re not  the one and I should just wait because I know you’re not it and you were just a waste of time, why did you have to lie to me and say that you love me, let’s see maybe you felt bad or you were wanting to make someone jelly, who knows it could be anything, and then you try to say that I was your everything but you can never look me in the eyes and say it, so it was just lies right?

I have those moments
When all I want to do is
Read your words
Hear your voice
Hold you close
And feel your warmth..

And I have those moments
When all I want to do is
Finally drown
In this ocean
Of endless sadness
And just slip into gray..

Right now
I feel both
And I need you here
To lie to me and say
Everything is ok
And you're going to stay..