I am bored and I am tired
I am grumpy and I want sleep
But I'm still awake and still aware of light.

Send me back to bed where I'm free
To not think, or say, or do
Something that may upset you.

If I can't feel what I want, I want to be numb
I'm sick and tired of feeling too young
I hate being in limbo, I hate not being taken seriously.

All I want is a rougher face
A tougher attitude, a tougher body
But I'm stuck with a childish appearance!

And people are cruel to guys like me
They expect me to be who they want me to be
They talk down at me, they think they know me.

I guess I'm just sick of being fragile
Of knowing they intentionally hurt me
And having to hide it in order to be 'me'.

I feel I'm losing ground and starting to slip.
I drive with no steering wheel and lose my grip.
There are still so many things I have to discover.
I wander through the abyss like no other.

I don't know if I've found what I'm looking for.
I'm looking for the way that it was before.
I'm looking for youthful freedom and innocence.
The freedom of my heart and never-ending complacence.

I want to feel free to be who I want to be.
There is no one I want to be other than me.
I want to unlock the chains that surround my heart.
And be free again like it was in the start.

I'm gonna be free again, and will be free soon.
I'm gonna stand up and sing to a different tune.
Life's too mundane and there has to be something ahead.
There will not be anymore days I am gonna dread.

Life's too short to live in depression and despair.
I am going to be free again, the way it oughta be.
I have much farther to go and I need to keep movin'.
I am locked up in myself and there is so much I'm losin'.

It is with an emptiness in my throat,
a riptide in my stomach,
and needles in my heart
that I write this today.

I fear you might find out,
I fear you might realise,
I fear you might explode,
and I am terrified that you will leave.

If you happen to chance across this,
while actualising your thoughts into words.
Feelings and emotions I wished you share with me,
that you so easily convey to a machine.

If you could see through my eyes,
you would never feel insufficient again.
And so I beseech God to rid my mind of you;
a mind that is welcomingly plagued by your presence.

A mind that personifies hypocrisy;
as I read your writings about a boy,
wishing they were about me
but they are not.

And yet I still keep going back.
Hoping to find my name in your words one day.

A world of pain and deceit,
was all I found in your eyes

Yet I tried to give you my world,
in a faint effort to make you mine

You were nothing but a shadow,
one I tried too hard to hold

Too young and naive,
for thinking together we'd grow old

A fire in your pupils,
fueled by an icy heart

Not for a second did I think,
you would be the reason we'd part

Drawn to your affection,
how foolish it was of me

Now to be left here standing,
to leave this as just a memory

Your hands were daggers,
that I tried to caress

And your lips were poison,
that made me less

It was a love that devoured,
an insatiable craving

It was also a love that soured,
as time kept moving

Someone tried to give me their world,
but I could not give them mine

Because a world of pain and deceit,
was all they found in my eyes.

Foolish Heart* by Steve Perry

Foolish heart, hear me calling
Stop before you start falling
Foolish heart, heed my warning
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore

You told me that I would never survive,
But survival is my middle name.

You told me that I was weak,
But I'm still here.

You told me that I was too broken to be fixed,
But I have someone who is fixing me.

You told me that I could never be loved,
But I have someone who loves me.

You told me that I could never love,
But I have someone that I love so much.

You told me that I don't have feelings,
But I have more than you.