Certain conversations that are easier not had.
Once said one can never take words back.
People who share a strong bond can last a lifetime, as long as no one goes too far over the line.

Limits set for a reason.
Logical, respectable, a reason I believe in.
Dont want to give in too much to temptation
Because honestly I'd lose more than I'd win.

Think another time, another place,
If it's meant to be time will find a way.
Its left up to fate.
Trying to take it into one's own hands is too dangerous a game to play.

Playing with the flames,
Who lit the first match?
The beginning now forgotten,
Theres no turning back.

Sparks fly in between, don't ponder questions like what things might mean.
Just enjoy the time spent, don't let moments escape, because you'll be left wondering where they went.

Anticipation leads to disappointment,
Expect nothing & be free. Is it more dangerous if its merely for entertainment?
Because if there is something real who knows where things could lead?

Unknown territory, it seems both are unsure.
But who really knows whats happening in another's mind, in the end it's a question of time.

The fire burning, neither turn away.
The flames should signal danger,
But to them it seems to be comforting
Seems both can be risk takers.

Risking what exactly? That part is unclear.
So, if they gave much thought to it is an answer to the question,
What is actually happening here?

There are times it's a struggle to reach me,
Theres a light on but no ones home.
Its difficult to explain, hard for others to see
I know I'm not but there are times I feel so lost, so alone.

I want to live by the rule you have nothing to prove, I try to make myself not care.
But it seems that part of me is stronger,
A losing battle which isn't going anywhere.

Tried to draw a new line, then crossed that one too. My heart rules my head,
Though when it comes to generosity these 2 are best friends.

In the moments where I feel relaxed & happy
I cling to them knowing I'll have to wait for more.  I know there has to be an end,
Yet its other people/ other matters which now have me floored.

You can't hide from me, I am with you, you can't escape me because I am you. I am your favourite memories & your demons. I am the battles in your head & heart, I am the feelings you're struggling with, that are threatening to tear you apart.  

I know your darkest fears, everything you've ever felt. I am the pain behind your eyes, the sorrow in your soul, I'm the one forcing you to hold on, just by a thread I could break the line but I keep you there instead.

You can feel me, you're trying to fight me goodluck to you I take time to beat I'm the tears you cry, the helplessness you feel, I can bring you to your knees should I choose to, but the longer the struggle the stronger I'll get & the weaker you feel & I have the advantage because I'm always with you, you have to learn how to ignore & not to listen.

I am both the darkest & brightest parts of your mind, the rage you're trying to keep inside, precious moments when your smile is real I am both giver and taker, because I allow you these moments then ****** them from you.

I'm the one pulling you into the dark, playing with your emotions the ache you feel but can't describe eventually if allowed I will take your life. I am the voices from the past still echoing in your ears, hitting replay on all the taunts & the names, it's easy for me to do as you never really disbelieved them anyway.

I'm the one keeping you tounge tied the silence that takes over any time you feel youre losing control I am your ending goodluck with your recovery I'll be back very soon & when I do you physically won't want to move.

You'll feel me coming on when your only emotion is tiredness you've worked yourself up, learnt to hold it in but you will explode leaving a mess that will be crippling. I am the reason you can't sleep, why you can get hysterical randomly or suddenly get the urge to run, hide & weep.

Only you can fight me, as much as your loved ones try because the fight is on the inside. So why don't you get up & try? if I don't end you you may at least get a free period before the next time. I'll keep coming as long as you're an easy target, ever heard the saying the worst monster lives within? You are you're own worst enemy, only you can stop me. But the truth is I am you, so what really can you do?

Slowly but surely shut people out, they'll get sick of you & walk away anyway that's what I keep telling you. You're crazy, you're a mess & a freak stop bringing others down with you. People you care about yet you bring nothing good to, these are the thoughts I continue to feed you. Stop being such an issue everyone has enough of their own, the world's not going to change for better any time soon so shut up & learn how to cope.

This battle won't go away, don't be naive when I allow you a good day. I'll turn the tables back faster you'll have a good period but worst always comes after, I am you & you are me, you are my prisoner, your voice is drowned out now no one wants to hear you, really you're not trying because without me what are you? I'll tell you - nothing.

I am you, the anger, the hurt, the pain inside you still carry on your shoulders, everything bad leads back to you, right. But despite your self value being at an all time low others still see something in you, they're your hope, they're the ones you love/ trust & care for, more so than yourself, they're the reason, even me as the darkness within you is saying try & fight, you're not done.

Learn to let go or I will consume you & all that is good, trust in those around you, who care for you & though you'd rather they only saw your smile, they help you when you're close to tears, believe in them & what they see. Don't be fooled I'll come back for you, I am your dark side I'll be here your whole life, but you're too young, there's still so much for you. Those you love keep the fight alive, even when you feel weak there is a fire lit within you, there is no hiding, no running but you will stand your ground, not for yourself because to you these people mean more, so I'll put it simply, fight or watch as I take it all...

What can make you feel so alone? What can make you push people away and actually choose to be on your own?

It's not out of hatred that you push people out, you just want to protect them and this is the only way you know how, what can make you continue to lie when your heart is already heavy? What can make you nearly let go, then leave you clinging on to everything?

A bullys' gun is their mouth, their bullets are the cruel words they speak, their targets are those who they see as weak.

What can you do? Well for some the most tempting thing would be to throw a punch to shut them up, or instead find yourself your pride and strength, learn to ignore the words they speak.

Option 1 is more tempting but gets you into trouble, option 2 means you may known their inflated egos and burst their bubble, because when you stop reacting to the words they speak, they may realise you aren't the one who's weak.

A bullys gun is their mouth, their bullets are the words they speak, their targets are those they see as weak. So don't listen, don't doubt yourself, ignore the tempting urge to reply or lash out, they can keep firing but the bullets will soon rebound, the control, the power they once had will never be refound.

I will be strong,
I won't let painful memories get in my way.
I will keep moving on,
I won't keep letting others always get their way.

I will be happy,
I won't let others bring me down.
I will stand up and speak out,
I won't keep allowing people to blame me for everything.

I will smile,
I won't let doubts loom over me like clouds.
I will laugh,
I won't live a lie.

I will keep my head held high,
I won't let other people's lies destroy me.
I will keep moving forward with my life,
I won't let the burden of knowing the truth ruin me and I won't make the same mistakes twice.

I will have fun,
I won't hide away.
I will live my life as it should be,
I won't let anyone else take it from me.