My mind is like a labyrinth
I'm lost, confused and don't know where to begin.
Little by little I'm losing my sanity.
Can you please take me back to reality?

I lost my virginity one time so I decided to become a poet

I imagine outer space to feel like this.
like;
no matter what, I can't lie down.
seeing a star that close made
all else seem
so much less bright.
I'm unimpressed.
I just want to love again but, you left that spell on me.
my eyes don't see color anymore,
my arms aren't reaching.
you printed poems onto my bones.
my mouth won't let me say marvelous and my hands quit thinking.
I'll turn to dust like this darling.
I'll be a little sandstorm on your
shore for awhile and
dizzily dissolve into your
winsome crashing.

Battling.

   The poem,
     half-written, inches
along numerous tries,
   cramped in places, pinched
   somewhat in style,
its subjective meaning
reluctantly waits
    in the sidelines.
   Silence
  has not appeared yet
    so I put aside pen
to try later again.
Tenderness, sadness or rage
   cannot be paged
    in too much noise
but former things sundered
   begin to knit
    as subject-choice fits
into a slot before long.
  Boisterous word-swing
rattles a lot in my mind,
    sentencing rings
  bells which battle with lines
as ends slowly begin to rhyme.
   Writing is vital
   in keeping me sane
   betwixt times
   that mix sense with the inane.

Have you lost your mind?
You're whispering her name and your memories of her in my ear,
You don't see my tears
Have you gone blind to my emotions?
I love you
But your thoughts of her are my biggest fears.
Don't you care?
You're telling me how much it hurts YOU.
Am I really here?
Am I really hearing this right now?
Is this really happening?
I don't know.
I don't know who you are.
This pain I'm feeling, doesn't make sense.
I don't want to think about it.
It makes me sick.
My heart is jealous beyond belief.
But it shouldn't be.
You're mine.
Aren't you?
So, why, in the hell are you telling me about her?
Do you still want me?
I've debated for so long I've forgotten when I started.
I shouldn't feel this way.
If you really want me, I shouldn't feel this way.
I should know that you want me.
I shouldn't have to fight for my place in your mind when you've already supposed to have given it to me.
This hurts.
Don't you see?
I'm scared.
I'm scared that no matter what I do,
It's never going to be good enough for you.
Don't you love me?
Show me.
You tell me not to say such things like that.
"No, you don't love me."
"You're not sorry."
What do you want me to do?
Do you want me to lie?
Because those things are how I feel.
I often state my mind and pass it off as a joke because I feel bad that I've hurt you.
But I just as often get upset because I feel you don't feel bad for hurting me.
And that hurts too.
Don't I mean something to you?
Then why don't you at least try to avoid hurting me?
I love you,
But I'm scared to know if it's the right choice...
You're talking to me, completely disregarding what you just said,
And I cant find my voice,
To tell you just how much I'm past the point of no return.
Yet, somehow I find room to be pushed a little bit more.
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with you?
What's wrong with us?
I don't know anymore.

This is not your average world
I'll say it once,  and let the truth be known
Our minds controlled, we put our lives on hold
In this sea of sickness we searching for a cure for weakness

I pray for my brothers and sisters
I hope you know that you came from greatness..
Why you selling your soul for papers?
Don't you know he's tryna degrade us?
Father said he's sending someone to save us
What? , did you forget Mary had a little "lamb"?

You.
I love you.
I love your voice, your laughter, and your eyes.
You.
Your presence makes me feel safe.
You.
I crave your lips against mine underneath the soft moonlight.
You.
I want you to hold me as we stare at the sky.
You.
I want to wake up to your tired blue eyes every morning.
You.
I fall in love with your smile everyday.
You.
I want to hold your hand as tight as I possibly can.
You.
I want to fall asleep in your arms as you whisper sweet lullabies in my ear.