It felt as if someone was squeezing my heart until it shattered into pieces. I couldn't breathe properly it was as if all the air had gone away. My body trembling, tears streaming down my face and they wouldn't stop. All I could think of was "Why? How? What happened? Why them and not me?"

The thought of losing you pains me
mentally, emotionally and physically
when I think about losing you
I get a pain in my heart
I feel it breaking just from the thought
I feel tears forming in my eyes
it scares me
just the thought of losing you.

why is love so confusing
it makes you cry
yet it brings you joy at the same time
it makes your heart skip a beat
yet shatter into a million pieces when something goes wrong.