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Mar 2019 · 224
Reincarnation
Losien Mayor Mar 2019
Be honest with your pain,
Be honest with your anger
Do not pretend to be an angel-
your wings are clipped, remember?
You aren't here to appease
the crowd who's displeased

Face the mirror and look
At the multiple selves you've built
Aren't you one fantastic *****?

I know, isn't it great?
You're the harbinger of pain-
you can no longer be slain
When the exit wounds bleed endlessly
You pick up the jagged and sharp edges
Even sliced up fingers empower your recesses

You die
And die
And die

There's no limit to your life
It's scary
The respawn time don't matter
When you come back
You come back stronger

The demons under your bed stop playing
"Aren't you coming?"
Hell nah
You don't know it yet
but I'm gonna replace the devil

You tell them now
Oh she is...
She is coming.
Better ring the bells-
get the sinners
to start running
Jul 2017 · 292
uncertain
Losien Mayor Jul 2017
unbutton my fears
strip me off my doubts
i will shiver against your touch
as you wipe away my tears
as my flaws are exposed
reward me by
pulling me closer
against your body
and tell me that
you love me
as i cry out
in ecstacy
as you move your way
into my soul
look at past my boundaries
call me as you fall
deep into my misery
i will let you sing
your songs
as you calm me
from my reverie
i will let you have it all
even as i think
about the uncertainty
Jul 2017 · 384
Seeing
Losien Mayor Jul 2017
See me for me
See limb for limb
See part by part

See stars as burning endings
See skin as part of the wrapping
Gift wrapping--- like
Tearing the most thickest part
Imagine a house burning apart

See eye for an eye
Not tooth for a tooth
Dig deeper into the shallows
Walk opposite than your feet
Look away every time you see the street

Signs to keep away
Don't go if I say
That the prettiest parts of me
Do not convey
What the truth--

The truth will prevail
See, no, it's a no
I'm not your little girl
I don't need your pity
I don't need you to save me

Babe, tell me, babe
Soul for a soul
Heart for a heart
Would you still stay
Even if every time
We touch
We only
Fall apart?
Jul 2017 · 358
believer
Losien Mayor Jul 2017
you pushed me
through thick and thin
you held me
through fall outs and drop outs
you never let me fall
you made sure
i could make it through it all

now it's empty
i'm standing on a gurney
wishing for God to come take me
the pain is too tough believe me
i cant get through the day
without crashing

i'm trusting
i'm trying to let it all go
i know  this are His plans
i know He'll never let us go
no matter what happens
i'll always be here
waiting for the day
we can look at each other
and never have to look away again
May 2017 · 268
Musings
Losien Mayor May 2017
While I'm here regretting
why I didn't kiss you more
            You ask why
yesterday's kiss isnt enough yet

And I pull all the strings
that make me want you
While you know how to
tie them back tighter

I wish I didn't want to be
part of your life
But your world keeps
trying to collide with mine

I keep trying to walk away
but baby this road
always ends up to
           y o u
And I always keep hurting myself
because I know I will never be
enough for you

The sun will set in different colors, baby
but what am I going to do
if I lose you?

I'll just keep pretending
I don't need you;
that I can live with myself
knowing the love of my life
is
y  o u

I'll just keep telling myself
that you were hard to love anyway
and that you never did care;
that all you were in love with
were the feelings
but never the me
who was always
there.
Apr 2017 · 1.3k
Things I Haven't Told You
Losien Mayor Apr 2017
Every time you begged for love
from the wrong people;
every time you asked me why
they couldn’t love you back;

I wanted to tell you that: I am here.
I know how to love you
without looking at
your missing pieces
I’m ready to fix
the mess you’ve made
with your little misses

I wanted to tell you
how eager I am
to take your hand
and show you the way
into my heart;
blind you with so much love
you won’t ever look away
from me again
without hurting
for something
you almost had
but never did.

I wanted to tell you
that I ache to heal you badly;
that I want to make the people who hurt you
beg for your forgiveness
and soothe away the pain
of your never ending longing.


But all I have are words
and they will never be enough for you.
And despite my best efforts to try
and make you happy,
my heart is already bound
by the chains of the love
that is meant for me.
Apr 2017 · 292
Hanging out
Losien Mayor Apr 2017
Let me in
Over the fence
Shake the cold bottle of beer
Empty the bag of chips
Rage on and on and on
Apr 2017 · 366
Better days
Losien Mayor Apr 2017
There have been better days
In which I thrived
The world, alone
And afraid
In the wilderness of the unknown
I found you

Now there have been better days
Now spent with the sound
Of your loud laughter
In the crooked curve of your arm
My ghosts scream
And shout their surrender

In the space between
Your neck and your cheeks
Let me put a little kiss
As I rest my heart
Unto yours
I am saved
random love
Apr 2017 · 639
More
Losien Mayor Apr 2017
Different hues of blue
And a little rain
Every now and then
Every day always feels
Like new
I guess all this
Because time is always
Spent with you

Now gray skies may
Cloud upon and disrupt
Our silly little world
Yet, you always have
The umbrella
And sometimes
The last word

There will be days
That are either
Fun or a bore
Sunny day and rainy days
And gloomy ones
I'm sure
I'm just happy to say
At the end of every day
You make me
Look forward
To more
Mar 2016 · 388
Loving you
Losien Mayor Mar 2016
Alone I walked
In the empty room
Of my sorrows

I could not form
Words that I could mutter
In order to tell you
Things that matters

For now I will stay
In the sidelines
On the pathways
Underneath your books
In the pockets of your jeans
Until I learn someday
That loving you sometimes
Means letting you
Know it not
Oct 2015 · 341
Don't
Losien Mayor Oct 2015
don't tear me apart
when you feel like
you are fading

don't scream for my help
when you see
you are bleeding

don't cover your eyes
when i tell you
i am leaving

our wounds
have caused each other
hearts that needs beating

my love
we are
but a dream that is waking

and when you leave
i feel like
words that
don't have meaning
Oct 2015 · 379
to me, you are
Losien Mayor Oct 2015
to you
i'm just
a word
a phrase
a sound
a quote
a meteor

to me
you are
the whole book
the whole page
my dreams
my hopes
my woes
Oct 2015 · 1.5k
Let's fall in love again
Losien Mayor Oct 2015
Let’s fall in love again
While we’re asleep
While my hands are wrapped
Around your hips
As I lay my head
On your chest

Let’s fall in love again
While I scream for you
To stop
While we’re holding back
The urge
To pull each other closer

Let’s fall in love again
And this time
We won’t let anyone know
We’ll be by ourselves
We’ll have a world of our own

Let’s fall in love again
And make mistakes
I’ll cry again
And you’ll kiss me hard
I’ll say the meanest words
But yours truly
Will be my heart
Oct 2015 · 528
Push and pull
Losien Mayor Oct 2015
Scared of the future
Scared for us, too
Scared of losing you
Scared of leaving you too

I don't know whether to hold on
Or to stay still
To let tears fall
Or to remember what's real

It's like I'm pushed off a cliff
But I never go down
It's like you're holding me
But you're just keeping me out

When I lie awake at night
And the questions start to surface
My heart pounds like a mile race
And yet it calms down at the memory
Of your face

Do you love me
Or do you like my shadow
Do you love me
Or are you leaving tomorrow
Oct 2015 · 603
How do I
Losien Mayor Oct 2015
how do i
figure out
things that
have gone astray

how do i
filter out
the good
from the
decayed

and how do i
get out
from the
shackles
of yesterday

dear oh dear
how do i
breathe
without hearing
your name

tell me, tell me
how do i
how do i
make you want
to stay?
Sep 2015 · 309
Surrender
Losien Mayor Sep 2015
When all is said and done
When all my wounds have healed
What else is there to say?
The wind has blown away

Whatever was the promise
Of our little wonderland
Remember, darling
Cracks cannot be undone

As you try to pull the thread
To sew me back again
I am reminded of the day
You failed to grab my hand

We walk together
An evil inch between us
How painful it is to surrender
To another batch of lies
Sep 2015 · 287
Slow burn
Losien Mayor Sep 2015
And if it means
The glamour cannot stay
And the magic fades away
What part of you can I still hold
Without burning myself?

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