he called me an angel

3 shots of whiskey and a box of thin mints is all it took to get over u...

addicted to the way you break my heart

I can feel the time is passing,

And though I am so young,

Each year is getting shorter,

Each trip around the sun,

I'll stop and see the time fly,

And think think of years to come,

And think of life-long moments,

And think of what I've done.

Never mind, I take it back

Never mind, if you're still mad

Fine, but you'll just drag it out

Fine, nothing to talk about

blooming buds and puddle suds

   rainy days and little fawn graze

                    dandelion seeds and petals in the breeze

           morning dew and skies so blue

               you think of me, I think of you

Shattering the space around me
The air itself is static
My skin-too fragile
Scratch me, drag the nails through and through
Cut to the bone-
Your words
My skin-too fragile
You don't understand
The dagger in my ear
Infecting my mind with poison
Poison running through my veins-
I stop still
Don't move-
DANGER
I can't take it
The words you haven't said
Pushing me over the edge
I live on a narrow line of sanity
Even the slightest stir in the atmosphere
Even the slightest touch
I lose my grip, falling off the edge of reality
I lose myself

Why
Why do you
Describe it so gently
As if it were glass
And could shatter
Love is not broken
So easily
In fact
It's not broken at all
It's larger than life
And not easy to lose
Always in sight
And has nothing to prove
Quite confident,
It is!
But easily fooled...
Some find this amusing
And make it a ruse
oh Let's bully this love
Make it believe that we care!
oh How we will laugh
When it's shocked and impaired!
Embarrassed and abashed
At the lies and the dare
But love is alive
And some think it's quite folly
That it's stupid and jolly
That through all in all
It continues about
Patient and welcome
And kind
And no doubts
And with time it matures
It never hates on the haters
And lets truth be spoken
Love lives in your heart .

And your heart is what's broken.

Why
Why do you
Describe it so gently
As if it were glass
And could shatter
Love is not broken
So easily
In fact
It's not broken at all
It's larger than life
And not easy to lose
Always in sight
And has nothing to prove
Quite confident,
It is!
But easily fooled...
Some find this amusing
And make it a ruse
oh Let's bully this love
Make it believe that we care!
oh How we will laugh
When it's shocked and impaired!
Embarrassed and abashed
At the lies and the dare
But love is alive
And some think it's quite folly
That it's stupid and jolly
That through all in all
It continues about
Patient and welcome
And kind
And no doubts
And with time it matures
It never hates on the haters
And lets truth be spoken
Love lives in your heart .

And your heart is what's broken.

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i stood there wondering what it was that i was feeling
i don't know how long i stood there
i couldn't even tell you if i was actually standing
i could't tell my body from the ground or the people around me
the only thing i know is that it was raining that day
it was remarkable really
i've never know the weather to move through walls before
i tried to look up to see the rainclouds that lurked in over my head
but i only saw the back of my eyelids
i wondered if i really was blind
was i always?
i heard the thunder then
and the lightning struck me
it was her voice
and i felt my heart shatter

stop
feeling
everything

open your eyes
you're not blind
you're just scared
scared of the truth
open your eyes
and take things as they come

it's not rain, babe
those are tears
it's time to come up for air
it's time to catch your breath
it's time to breath

I opened My eyes
and I saw Her

I opened My eyes
and I saw Myself

Moments there are when I'm high,

A feeling I can't quite describe,

Nights are the most lonely times,

But when the sun comes up I'm down again.

Quickly swept into the day,

The wind picks up and makes me sway,

Both friends and strangers will me to stay,

But I go home and I'm down again.

The highs and lows of now and then's,

My moods seem to swing on a pendulum,

I'll visit places I've never been,

But when I return I'm down again.

how is it that this one boy can make me feel as if i'm not enough and too much all at the same time?

i thought i had found the words that fit the feeling
but it turns out the feeling doesn't fit into words

beautiful
and broken
they tell me he won't stay
but his eyes are scars inside my mind
and I know my will won't sway
they don't understand how good he is
he understands the words I twist
he knows my soul, and I won't go
beautiful
and broken
is my love's heart of gold
beautiful
and broken
they tell me he will fade
but his words are scars inside my heart
and I know my love won't stray
they don't understand the place he's in
he understands the life I live
we know we're broken, but my heart is sold
to a beautiful boy
with a heart of gold

I love you, Gabe

Kindness, to me
It's kind of like a flower
Only every time I'm given one
It's poisonous and thorny
They ***** me and fill me with betrayal
And turn to ash in my hands
How am I to know
That your kindness is genuine
That you don't want to hurt me
And even if you don't
I still know that every flower
Will die in the end

Coming out
It took so long
Now it's done
I feel so strong
No need to hide
There's nothing wrong
With who I am
I DO BELONG

I had forgotten where I was,

Looking up from my fantasy book,

Reality was such a sight to see,

I dare not give too long a look,

I'd rather live in denial and lies,

Turn away and overlook,

The truth will never go away,

Life is not a storybook,

And it's my choice to leave or stay.

In this world
Of sickness or health
In this world
Of distance or wealth
In this world
In this time
I know I can't be yours
You know you can't be mine

I'm sad but mostly frustrated
That we didn't work out
And you may think it's my fault
Without a doubt
But I think that it was both of us
Trying not to overstep ourselves
And tell the other how we really feel

Just a touch
Sends a ripple
Of feels
Through my body
Each touch
Is a raindrop
Simple,
and small
It affects
Each nerve
Every end
Of my being
That sweet
Sweet shiver
I feel it
Each touch

Noting changes.
Nothing grows.

Empty highs.
Empty lows.

I can't feel the warm,
And I can't feel the cold.

You try to make me happy,
And I try just for you.
But other than our trying,
Nothing else is new.

I worry I'll upset you,
If I can't make a change.
It's not fair of me,
To make you stay the same.

Nothing better to do
Than sit and look at you
So when we are not together
It won't be hard to remember

The small bridge of your nose

The way you lick your lips

And though I'm standing on my tip-toes
You still lower your eyes, under dark-lashed lids

I gaze and gaze
But still the memories fade
I've worn your hazy image out
Too many times to count