I see your hair
Gleaming in the sun
Your clothes hadn't the slightest tear
Your hair was up in a messy bun

You took my hand and showed me around
You were very clever
To you I was forever bound
Bound by blood, forever

You are my sister
I would have it no other way
We used to say sisters before misters
Sisters we will always stay

The light catches in your eyes
I see your smile so bright
You have never told a lie
You are always full of light

I awake from the dream
Crying in the dark
My parents hear my scream
It all ended with a spark.

Who is it that puts this blanket over me...
Warmth consumes me, only sky I see.
Fading colors of moonlight and the stars,
They all know my name-
For I'm coming to them, back home.
We've cried too long on this earth,
Oh it seems we don't belong:
Come and chase the stars with me
In the blue haze of the midnight sea.
Floating forever with diamonds scattered
Under the only Eye that sees me...
We look up to find His face
Amidst the dark, there is beauty.

There are too many dreams I'm forced to wake up from!
Leave me alone! I scream...
Let me hold onto something...
Besides...nightmares.
Let me hold onto you!
For when your eyes look up to me
I'm driven senseless, not confused
I'm not afraid anymore...
So in that do I face the day
For in every night,
I dream of you...
I dream of you...
Angel.

It's been everyday
At the fall of the light,
The shining beacon of hope,
Stands to face us all.
And through every moment I wait
At the cliff's edge for you,
If only one could paint this scene
Whispering thoughts of mine to you.
But there's just one night that...
You're not here-
The stars fall near, I find fear!
For the window cracks and I see
The Lies I believe.
And tears now flow amidst the cold
One grey night for me...
In blood red color tones...
How I miss you...

*This is an old old poem of mine, must be some 5 years old by now. It's so deeply engrained in my memory now that I didn't even need to look it up again. I even made a song out of it...which is another trip all of it's own.

To never hear your soft voice
asking me not to leave.

To never feel your eager hands,
brush my cheek
as you pull me closer
to kiss.

To forget the shape of your eyes.
The smell of your skin.
The taste of coffee on your lips,
early in the morning.
The sound of us laughing, while the rest of the world sleeps.
Us, together, alone
silently listening to the rhythm of each others body.

To feel the emptiness I felt in my heart,
long before you entered it.
And when I think of fear,
I think of loosing you
and it simply tears me a part.

Nicotine soaked bedsheets
Damply caressed by sweat, by tears
Sooty black fingerprints,
Like carbon coated breadcrumbs
They leave a trail of sorrow...
Resin coated bobby pins
Cut straws and crystal dusted mirrors
Nails gnawed down to the quick
Bloodshot eyes, cracked lips
Tired thoughts,
    Hopes tossed,
        Dreams shattered,
              The
                    pieces
                           Lost.

i’m careful now
like you should have been,

when i catch my own
reflection in the mirror

and i’m sorry god i’m sorry

for the way your mother screamed
and the way your grandfather cried

but the tree at the end of the lane
isn’t the only thing warped and weathered

and the clouds are rolling in again