What's the point of loving if you don't do it with all you have?

K R W

The ground looks so
     Appetizing
     From up this high
         I wanna find out if I can ******* fly

I wanna feel something before I hit the
      Bottom
                     I would love to relish in your blood-soaked nirvana

      I made you as comfortable as possible while you slit my throat
          I may be dead but my
   Wings are sewn with a different thread of gristle and bone

    If redemption is real and I have time to ****,
      I wonder how the fall will

         *Feel

I was at the dance tonight,
our eyes met across the room
shoulders brushing
people passing
unknowing of my love for you.

You look past me into the crowd of people
you smile as you meet her eye
my heart sinks, that genuine smile
pulls at my bones.

The love we used to have you've forgotten,
I carry it in my caged soul [I carry it in my heart]
Burning, blazing, stars are falling
my universe is calling
for you, but you turn your head and
speak with your new lover.

If clouds could call
and mountains tall
would fall into the sea
my heart would see
that finally,
I was no good for you at all.

Out of your mind
Into the atmosphere
Leave it behind
Let them all disappear
Deep in dark space
Lost amongst dying stars
Escape this place
Shine brighter than quasars

Everyone always tell me I'm an awesome guy
Funny smart and shy
But do they know
The one side I can never show
Do they know about the times I tried to commit suicide
the times I went walking just to cry
Do they understand why I keep myself distance
How many people I've lost since this
Person I became came to be
How much it pains me
To watch the ones I love leave
like a tree losing it's leaves
How do I explain my pain
While trying to remain sane
Every scar on me is my battle
shaking my body like a rattle
The battle to keep myself happy
To not **** the mood to not be sappy
The blood I've split is my own
I thought it was going to give me a bright passage as it's shown
But alas I was wrong
And it has been a very long
Battle to just be
No.one evers sees
the Tears my eyes shed
My heart filled with dread
My gifts are my curse
And I couldn't ask for anything worse
To you I am this wonderful amazing guy
To me...just an empty soul wanting to cry

Didn't know where else to put this, my first bit of slam poetry, not sure if I'll do another.  This was hard enough.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7R0dLfx21iU

once I knew the lust the pain
  to not hold you again,
you spin my mind into what might be
  then stand aside and pretend it was not for me.
is it someone else who occupies your mind.
  The lustful moments we shared, are they now not for me.
The games of want, then wait and see are so hard to take.
  I am blinded by your messages of love, then at the end of the day
you say you have no time for me.
  What is to come, I cannot foresee, are you tired of me?

The long passionate kisses we share, then unbeknownst to me, you turn a loving moment into an argument with no care.
How am I to fare, through this crazy mirage.
  Am I so weak, that I cannot see that I am no longer your muse.
You have found someone else, and I am hanging on to nothing but a dream.  A dream of a wonderful life, of passionate love making and utter acceptance of you and me.
  What is to come, I cannot foresee, are you tired of me, or am I so lame, so ashamed to keep hanging on to what might be...