i said i am okay
but my heart was crying river of tears

i lied
and forgot my eyes already told the truth

A meaningless term
It is misinterpreted to be a building
It is a feeling

I would wonder why I seeked for it for so long and yet haven't found it

It is a feeling of belonging.
The love that raise one
The care that allow one to grow
The support that keep one in hope

It is home

Never thought of him being found
He escaped into his world
Where purification ruled,
Everything was free-spirited,
Perfection reigned

Pain and stress didn't existed,
'WANTED!' silent killers
Joygiver  venoms -
***, drugs and alcohol were the past
Flashed down the drains

Without all toxic
Everything was purified
No more ***** minds
No more pained hearts
No more stroke bringers

He felt pure but incomplete
His heart and joy left
They did not belong in his world
Life was no more
He came to my world
and he was found after a long search by she he loved
She had his heart and joy
He felt forever complete once more

An adjective which says it all
An expression in two form
A balance to the  noun
Known as a pair of the  negative and a positive

Everywhere I am found
Where hate is,
My name is love.
Where pain is,
My name is joy.
Where rain is,
My name is sunshine.
Where tear is,
My name is smile.
Where weakness is,
My name is strength.

Power was me
One failed to rule
It belong to a world of two
Where there's black and white

Every story has an intro and a conclusion
Concluding my story
Good is in every bad
Moods control
Sometimes I am best
Sometimes I am worst
I reigned in everything

They referred to me as trash
I was b             r
                  o             k      
       e                 n                pieces
The world tried to put me back together into one piece
but the cracks were still visible
They meant nothing to life.
I was treasure by then
The environment, ready to accept me

I was one of the dynamite that will enlighten the journey of the BROKEN

Life had to be hard to live the great one

They said I've changed
but they failed to explain the change
coz I did not change
I grew
Growth took part

The world turned
I viewed everything at a different angle
That's why they saw change in me

It was destroying some
It brought failure to others
Soon it was discovered not a problem but a habit

The problem with you :
'WHY?' was not in your vocab
You were quick to point fingers
You never ask
You always had your own thoughts  -
           answers        to              any
      thing                          so
                            you
            concluded            every  
                             thing

That's the problem with you.

It is factitious
It fooled you
You saw perfection in it  
The world in an
image was perfect but ain't world is perfect

You misinterpreted perfect
Your perfect was everyone being flawless and all the same...

Perfect is flaws
Perfect is uniqueness
Perfect is every story

My story is you,babe
Real, flawed and emotional
It is way too perfect
It is different

Appreciation rules it
Love and care save it
I strengthen it
A feeling keeps it solid
Together, we an inspiration

I was a child who was everything
but she became nothing
She was adopted by the world full of sorrrow
The world that made her broken
The world which she worn its scars,
That made life H
                                   E
                                           L
                                                 L
She was a dead walking man

Until one day, I met him
I looked into his eyes,
Eyes with sparkles of change.
He made life H
                            E
                                A­
                                    V
                          ­              E
                                           N
He smiled at me and,
his smile repaired my broken parts.
His lips uttered the words "I love you"
and they made me a complete angel because...
Now my scars are seen as stars.

It was introduced to me at very young age
I never thought of it as a bad "someone"
I befriended it

MY MISTAKE !
It broke me as time goes by
It became a grip in my life

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I did not know depression and anxiety was part of it

It haunted until then...

It made the love between us alive
It built a bond and kept us unbreakable

Yet we betrayed it
Our lies were overpowering

Trust  b
              r
                o
                  k
                    e         
                        the bond
Some of it went missing
Our love died

The trust left was not enough for us  to believe  the love reigning

Trust said: "I am a catabolic yet an anabolic of every bond and am hard to be restored."

A choice to be forever or never
A title that suits someone
Someone who is everyone
You may think of a friend as a person
But a friend is a thing
Today is present
Tomorrow is no more

She did not want to be one
She choose to be a sister
To be forever

She is a plant
buried in me
Its seed my brain
Her roots my veins
Her bark my heart
She had life within herself

She was worth seeking for...
She is food when hunger strikes
She is shade on  hot days
She is a rich-fresh morning air which fills a day with good energy
She is CARE
She is a definition of a FRIEND

Karma brought equality
But failed to keep balance
Everything was on water
Ready to sink and drown
because everyone wanted to be the same
Revenge and avenge became the authority

Life:
I realised I was hell myself
I played a part in every story
Different but all the same in sin

I brought confusion
Happiness was misunderstood
My demons were doing well
Turning the world upside down
'Lost'concluded every thought,feeling and story

Devils were proven right

He was mis-taken as my soulmate
Only to be discovered as a friend
But friends don't exist in his world
Family do

I made him a brother
But he wanted to be more
He became my everything
In storm he became my shield
In war he became my army
In pain he became my joy

Life transformed into a rainbow because rainy days he was my sunshine.
He made me god and became my angel

Being part of her made her world forever spring
Where toxic was past,
Everything was a fresh start
And the beauty of nature was appreciated,
The greeny grasses
The bright clear skies
The colorful flying creatures
And the blossoming of flowers which remind me of her pure soul full of love and care

I became *LIFE*

You became cruel
You ran away from me when I needed you most
You vanished into thin air in a wink of an eye
Just after you realised I was with you

You left me clueless
You drained out everything
I was left dry and my world cracked
I didn't know where to look for you

Without you
Arguments became my language
Wars became my hobbies
Battlefield became home
Eventually I engaged to all of that

I swam in an ocean of negativity
Searching high and low for you...and myself                     because then-I
                                  felt lost
After a while I realised you didn't belong there
I felt hopeless
Where could you be?

Truth I ran and can't be found
I could not handle you
Your heart was full of pain
Tons of emotions overpowered me
Anger stood high
That's not where I belong
I need you to contain your emotions and remain humble
I will be found and help you to discover yourself

Love was our story
Strange was the headline
Your love was unusual
Strong in pain
                    in dreams
                               and in promises
Your promises were just words

Lies became you
Very manipulative with your mind
Buried the poor truth
Honesty was no more
Loyalty was hard labour
Commitment never existed

Lies became our story
Regret was the headline
Sorrow developed
Pain buried joy
Your love brought hate
Regret became me

Our story is history

I am your energy
You irrigate plants with me
Plants which gives food
Food which is your energy

I am misclean liquid washer
I energise the inside part of the human bodies.

I've been waiting for this day
Since day one,the time I was born
Seeing light for the very first time
And heard sweet voices of singing birds

I grew up with loneliness waiting for my one
The one who made me to go out there and look for outside love
The one who made me realise that my beauty is inside and also outside
Who is this one?
I think you should know

It is the gentleman I met
Who held me up when I couldn't stand
Who wiped away the tears I cried
Who gave me power when I felt hopeless
Who sang for me and made me feel like I'm in my dreams

This gentleman was the one and only
who made me to have love forever and always in my heart
He was the one meant for me
My TRUE LOVE

Written by
Maitsholo