my body starts to get heavy
suddenly i’m all blue
let me just lay down for a minute
let me just be quiet for a minute
dinner is ready
i’m not hungry
i’m sleepy
but i can’t sleep
why my chest is hurting like that?
why is so hard to breathe?
it’s kinda nice everything seems to be in slow motion
actually it’s just me
please be patient with me
don’t be bothered by my shaky hands
or my unquiet leg
i’m sweating
why do i feel anger?
i thought i was sad
i’m desperate
i’m terrified
why do i feel like this?
why is so hard to breathe?
breathe in
breathe out
just like they taught you
5 things you can see
4 things you can hear
3 things you can touch
2 things you can smell
1 thing you can taste
i’m sorry
i know i was ok
but now i’m sad
at least i’m breathing
take my hand
be patient with me.

(read forward, then backward, line by line)

I ran.
Not knowing what else to do
There was so much blood on my hands
It was mine
The kitchen knife
Caught in my chest
Guilt
Consumed by
Fear
I was heightened by
Adrenaline
But running on
Wasn’t enough
While trying to stay calm,
Losing control
It was me that would end up
Dead. Because
He was
In front of me
The whole time
It was too late
Trapped
I found myself
Locked in chains
My fate was
Death.

I lie awake wondering if
on your restless nights
You're lying there
Thinking of me too
I haven't cried in weeks
I haven't heard from you in months
And tonight
I'm lying here
Imagining all the places on my body that you've touched
How my own fingertips do not feel like yours
Despite my best efforts
I cannot fool myself into thinking
For even one tired moment
That you are here with me again
Why tonight of all nights
Am I lying here crying?
I have to imagine of course
That this all comes back to you
That surely you're somewhere
On the other side of the world
Thinking of me so strongly that I felt it
All the way back here
And so to that I say
I feel you
You are here with me
You are always here with me
This love we share
Will never leave